when did i get to the point where i find it okay in myself to turn to the wrong things
i know i'll be lead down the wrong path,
i'll find tears on my lashes and that gut feeling
that i should stop but won't.
guess this is what You get for not answering me
i cant punish God but i can punish myself,
and i will and i have and i will gladly continue
in search of something more than this,
more than the tight wires of constant tension
and storm clouds and tornadoes in my living room.
i have prayed for Four Years and where is a
response?
i pray once more for my future self because i will ruin me
and it'll feel great.