tine- Jealousy and insecure
Sarawat told me to not be jealous about Pam but I have a hard time trying not to. It's just that I like Wat so much that I don't want to loose him. Call me possessive but it's true. As long as she's around, she can find ways to get closer to Wat and seduce him. I may not be a girl but I know how competitive girls can be. For a guy as hot as Wat, there is no a way she is just here to make amends with him.

She has a motive and I'm going to find out what it is. I'm going to keep my eyes on her every time she is with Wat. Even if I have to go to the music club everyday. Wat is still sleeping and I am just on my phone scrolling through Pam's instagram. It's been two years and she still has old pictures of her and Wat on her page. Her most recent picture is her and him in the music club.

I read the comments and the majority of them are saying they are so cute, I ship, or they look great together. I ball my fist as I read every last comment. It makes me angry but the more angry I feel the sadder I get. I feel tears coming out of my eyes as I a cry a pool of tears. My shirt and my phone screen is full of tears and I try my best to clean it off.

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sarawat- Pam! I can't love you!
I'm heading to the music club with Tine as I get myself prepared for guitar lessons with Pam. I don't want to be giving her lessons but everyone is excepting me to.

"How long will this lesson take?" I hear Tine asked me.

"Only an hour and then I have band practice after." I tell him and he nods.

Tine doesn't like the idea that I have to teach Pam just as much as I do. I told him he has nothing to worry about but he can't help feeling jealous. Just like last night. I heard him crying all night. I fucking hate seeing him cry. As we reach the entrance to the music room, I see Pam standing as she waits for me. She has a serious look on her face.

"Sarawat can we talk for a minute?" Pam asked me.

I sigh as I look at Tine. I really don't want to her to her right now. "It will only be a minute." I tell him and he nods.

"Then..... I'll go in first." He says as I give him my guitar bag as I watch him go inside.

"What is it Pam?" I questioned her.

"Why haven't you responded to my text? I texted you all night." She asked me.

"I went to sleep early." I tell her.

"Then what about the text from before? Like two years ago when you dumped me." She mentions as I see the hurt in her eyes.

"Pam I understand you are upset but-"

"I'm more than upset. I'm fucking angry!" She raises up her voice. "I'm angry at the fact that you broke up with me for no reason. You promised me that you would take care of me when things are got bad and you didn't." She reminds me.

"Yes, I did promise I would take care of you but that was two years ago when your parents were going through a divorce but that wasn't my fault. You chose to leave me when you decided to live with your mom far away." I tell her.

"I was 16! What did you expect me to do? I couldn't stay here and live with my dad. He didn't have any money. If I'd stay here, I would be living on the street but when I left, I didn't want to break up with you. Sarawat I loved you." She admitted to me.

"I understand you had to make a decision but I made mine to. I chose to dump you and move on. I thought it would be better for us because we couldn't do long distance." I admit to her.

"This isn't fair! How could you just move on from me so quickly? Why does it have to be Tine? Why can't you just love me again?" Pam questions me. All these questions at once, I can't even answer them all.

"Pam, I love Tine and that's all you have to know." I admit to her but all she does is shake her head no.

"I don't understand. I was with you first. I gave my virginity. We literally did everything together. Just please love me again. I'll do anything!" She begs and Pam throws herself on me as she hugs me tight. It catches me off guard.

"Pam let go." I tell her.

"No. Not until you love me again." She refuses.

"Pam you know I can't do that." I tell her.

"I love you Sarawat." She tells me.

"What the fuck is going on?" I hear Tine's voice. I quickly turn my head to him as I see the confusion and hurt look in his eyes.

"Tine it's not what you think. I promise." I try to explain to him. I begin to try to pull Pam off me but Tine is already gone. Pam throws herself back on me again but I pull her off to look at me as I grab both of her shoulders. "Listen to me Pam. I can't love you." I tell her and I start to see the tears in her eyes.

"But Why?" She breaks down as she covers her eyes and cries. I place my hands on her shoulders as I rub them to calm her down. As much as I feel bad for her, I have to look for Tine. He needs to understand what's going on and what really happened.

I just hope he understands.

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A/N: Heavy very Heavy. Poor Tine. He's been going through a lot.😭

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