tine-the good looking boy next door.
I told Ohm and Fong that the plan didn't work with Layla. She was too interested in Sarawat then me. In the end, I was the one that got jealous. Gosh I wish I was drunk last night so I could have use that as an excuse but I wasn't and now I have all these feeling about Sarawat and it's driving me crazy.

Our relationship is different from what it use to be. I use to hate him but now I just keep picturing him in my sleep. Sometimes I think I see him everywhere I go. I think I'm hallucinating.

"So....you're gay now." Ohm flat out blurted out. I kick him in the leg at his poor mouth.

"You want the whole world to think that I am gay?" I questioned him annoyed but he just shrugs.

"If you are picturing him naked in your sleep then yeah." Ohm continues to say and right now, I just want to smack him.

"Well..... how do you feel towards girls now?" Fong asked me seriously. At least he's not taking this as a joke.

"Well..... I do still find them attractive but not recently since you know who." I speak in quotations so he knows who I'm talking about.

"Then you're not gay. You still like girls you just like Sarawat." Fong explained to me.

"So I'm not gay, I just like Sarawat?" I repeat what Fong said and he nods. "Then.....how do I get rid of this feeling I have?" I try to ask Fong but he just chuckles a bit.

"You can't." He says.

"Have you ever heard the phrase once you go black, you can never go back?" Ohm asked me and I nod.

"In this case, there is nothing you can do. You find Sarawat attractive and now you have sexual feelings towards him now. If I'm being honest, the more you try to hold it in and deny it, it's going to get worse." Fong warns me as I swallow my saliva intensively.

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I finish wrapping up my day with Ohm and Fong as I feel worn out and tired. I have too much on my mind right now that I don't even wanna see my friends. I head my way to the boys dormitory until I see Sarawat talking to a guy with blonde hair. His hair is long but he puts it up in a pony tail. He has on a jeans pants with a chain on the side. he's giving me bad boy/ rock star vibes.

By the way, Wat's body language is telling me, he interested in the conversation and if I saw correctly, Wat was laughing and basically having a good time. I don't know why but that feeling from last night is back again. The two eventually leave to walk inside the boys dormitory. I quickly react and follow them. The direction that they are heading looks like where me and Wat's dorm is at.

Who is this guy and why is Wat bringing him to our room? And why the hell am I hiding? I begin to walk towards our dorm as I open the door widely. Without knocking. I'm standing on the opposite side of Wat while I'm looking at the other guy in the room. I see his face clearly now. He has a couple of piercings. A lip and an eye brow piercings. He's pretty handsome for a rock star.

"Tine?" Sarawat says and I look at him.

"Is this your roommate, Wat?" The other guy speaks and his voice sounds so cold and unwelcoming to me.

"Sarawat, who is this?" I questioned him. Hoping he will tell me the truth.

"This is-"

"Let me introduce myself." He says as he cuts Wat off as he walks towards me. He brings out this cocky smirk of his. "I'm Wat's first and only boyfriend." He tells me while he longs out the boyfriend part in his sentence.

"Ex boyfriend." Wat says as he roll his eyes.

"For now." The guy states as if he already claims Sarawat as his own. Who does he think he is?

"Tine. I didn't think you would be back so soon." Sarawat says to me.

"Why? I can't come back to my own dorm. I was actually here to take a nap. I'm tired." I say while I still keep my eyes on Wat's ex boyfriend. He just smirks at me.

"Well If you're tired, me and Wat can hang out somewhere else. We were just catching up since he left the band to go this.....university." The guy says. Gosh he is annoying.

"Well don't make me stop you." I say to them as I walk pass the guy to climb into my bed.

"Will you be okay? I'll only be back for a little while." Sarawat asked me and I nod. I don't feel like talking to him anymore. "Alright then. Call me if you need me." He says as he walks out with his ex boyfriend.

I wrap myself tight in my sheets as I start to feel small tears coming out of my eyes

"Fuck!" I scream through the pillow

Why am I so angry and jealous? Sarawat is not even mine.

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A/N: Poor Tine.🥺😭 Also Sarawat's ex is a dick guys. 😂 Sorry about that.

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