Whaaaa?

"You're entering! " I shouted.

Kyoya nodded.

"Thank you for letting us observe. We will certainly practice harder now. " he said and Haley growled.

"The host club is opening for the day in just a few minutes everybody! We've gotta go! " Tamaki said and kissed each of our hands before zipping out of the room.

Kyoya bowed politely, Mori waved goodbye with a spaced out look on his face, Honey hugged us all bye, the twins just winked, and Haruhi smiled directly at me - then they were all gone.

I sat down on the couch and everybody else sat down in random places in the room.
That was.... exhausting.

I looked at Haley and she looked at me.

We had messed up.
We had messed up big time.
Letting them in and showing what we're capable of...

"Damn!" I said in frustration and went out to the balcony, shutting the door and pulling down the blackout curtains for privacy.

They all know what it means when I do this. I'm angry. I'm scared. I'm vulnerable.

And when I get like this, I can't be around them. I might lash out like all those years ago.

*+*+*+*+*+*
(Flashback)

"Look at Alex Roze, isn't she...?"

"Yeah, apparently, her and that teacher are-"

I slammed a fist on my locker making everyone in the hallway jump.

One of the girls that had been gossiping about me gave me a sympathetic look and I just wanted to puke. Everybody is acting like its my fault. He came onto me...

"I heard she'd do anyone. I never knew such whorish people existed in this school." I heard someone behind me say.

Then I just snapped.

Turning around, I grabbed her hair and proceeded to smash her face into a locker until I saw blood. Realising what I did, I looked around me.

Everybody... they're all disgusted. And scared. And everyone...

It's all his fault. Everything is because of him.

I ran as fast as I could to the senior classrooms and opened the door to the classroom he taught. He was just sitting in his chair with a smirk on his face as he graded papers.

"What is it Miss Roze?"

I shut the door and walked up to his desk.

"Everybody knows! You said that you wouldn't tell anyone and that wouldn't upload those photos! Why?"

He simply smiled.

"Because I like seeing rich girls like you in pain."

"What?"

I stepped away slowly.

"You blackmailed me into that just because it amused you?"

"Exactly. Now go home and study, you have a test tomorrow."

I couldn't believe it. My entire life was ruined because of this one man who couldn't care less. What am I going to do?

That's right, what am I going to do?

He needs to pay.

I pulled the fire alarm outside in the hallway, and proceeded up the stairs. Taking out the lighter I had borrowed from Mr. Collins desk, I began to light fire to the curtains. Walking into the library, I started lighting up the textbook section. I wanted to destroy everything that reminded me of him.

I wanted everything to go, including myself. I walked out of the library and up the stairs, proceeding to make my way to the roof. My life is ruined so I mean... what's the point anymore?

Once I got to the roof, I saw everything below me. It was all so small. And for once in my life, I felt big.

Just as I was about to jump, I felt two arms around my chest pulling me back.

"What the fuck are you doing?!"

"Jumping..." I said hazily.

I felt a slap to my face and I turned around to see who did it.
Huh.... isn't that Haley Bringem? I don't really know anything about her except she's really smart and popular. Why is she up here?

"Are you trying to kill yourself?"

"You're really not that smart." I said.

She sighed and then hugged me suddenly.

"Please don't. I've heard the rumors but rumors are usually bullshit right? So don't do this. We can fix it. It might take time... but it will get better."

I started to cry.

"But nothing has gotten better. It just gets worse." I said as I started to sob.

"Then lets change that. Its hard to change anything on your own but I'll help you."

"Really? You're just like everyone else. You're probably using me."

"Alex, I would not be on the roof of a burning building to help you if I didn't care about you personally. So lets figure out if I'm a good person after we're on solid ground." She said and grabbed my hand and started pulling me with her down the stairs.

Passing by rooms filled with fire and smoke, I realized how stupid I was. What have I done? All because of me-

"Don't you dare blame yourself. Do something about it. When we get out of here, do better. It won't excuse this, but at least you'll be doing and not destroying." Haley shouted through the smoke that was started to fill our lungs.

Once we made to the front doors, we just collapsed on the ground.
Staring up into the sky, I heard fire trucks in the distance. Feeling Haley grab my hand, I managed a small smile. I don't really know her but... she did all of that for me. I can't die just yet. I have to repay her first.

I have to create something that will make others happy. Something that won't destroy everything.

I have to do something.

"Nice to meet you, I'm Haley." I heard her say beside me.

"I'm Alex."

"Wanna be friends?"

"Sure."

*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*

Hearing the balcony door open, I turned my head to see Haley sit down beside me on the outdoor couch.

"So... what's up?" She said.

"I was just thinking about how I messed up in there and how we met."

"Ahh, so you're throwing a pity party."

"Why are you always so blunt?"

"Because I'm your best friend and you need it."

"How would you treat me if I wasn't your best friend?"

"Well, I wouldn't talk to you."

"That makes me feel great, Haley."

"Good. Glad I cheered you up. Now get up. Remember what I said about doing things? Just sitting around and complaining is never going to fix anything."

"Haley?"

"Yes?"

"Can I ever be as strong as you?"

"You already are. You're just kind of stupid and haven't realized it already. Always slow on the uptake."

I frowned and she laughed.

"Let's go." She said.

"Okay."

Then we went inside, ready to get to work on creating something that will blow everyone's minds. And maybe heal mine.

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A/N
Sorry for not updating in forever! I've been going through a lot of stuff at home and its been really hard to find the inspiration to write. I was in a really bad situation but now I'm out of it and feel so much better mentally. I'll try to update more and I hope you like this book so far. Thank you for all of the votes, comments, and reads! See ya - bluelion2