"I'm really starting to think you're bipolar,Lisa"Kenzie said but I didn't say a word."You know prep night is next week, right?"She asked and I simply nodded.I looked at Ryan's table and saw him chatting with his friends with Thena sitting beside him...he looked happy.

Why am I like this?I feel like the whole burden is on me.

Why do I feel hurt?

I'm the only one feeling this way...even Ryan had forgotten about me.

"Kenzie"I called and she looked at me."He's happy... he's not disturbing me anymore... he's not in my life anymore...why is my heart still aching?"

"Maybe you're so fond of him and...you like the way he disturbs you...smiles at you and frustrates you"

"He doesn't even care"

"You should tell him how you feel"

"Isn't it awkward?"

"A lady can also make the first move...it doesn't always have to be the guy, you know?"

"Yeah... you're right...but, he's Ryan...what if he doesn't like me anymore... what if he dumps me for another girl?"

"Lisa... maybe there's something you don't know about Ryan...the thing is you're the best thing that has ever happened to him...Ryan never smiles at anyone the way he smiles at you... it's like you're special and different... look over there"She said nodding towards Ryan's table.I looked at his table and saw him kissing Thena.I really felt like throwing up cause it really hurt me.

"So what?"

"I can tell that he's not even willing to kiss her... Thena's just forcing herself on Ryan... you're the only girl the treats right"

"I'm still not convinced"

"Then why do you think Ryan get annoyed anytime he hears you talk about Kyle?"

"He hates him"

"Not just that... it's also because he love you and he's not willing to see the two of you together"

I like you way you are.

Of course, that's what Ryan told me the way we went out on Saturday.

"So what do I do?"

"It's up to you, Lisa...I really shouldn't tell you what to do besides I have a date with Ronnie tonight... I'll be leaving early today"

"Feeling so happy,huh? You're not going anywhere,Kenz"I said with a smile.

"Well... someone's smiling"

"Whatever...just don't leave me yet"

"Of course not"

                                ***
I have to babysit Ryan this afternoon and that's not so good but obviously Ryan's mad at me and doesn't even wanna talk to me.

So am I gonna cope?

I was already standing at his door when I received a call from Ryan.

I hesitated before clicking on the green button.

"Um... hello?"

"No one's at home"He said.

"Where are you?"I asked feeling a bit worried.

"Meet me in front of the famous restaurant across the street"He said and hanged up.

Just as I was about to leave,I received another call but this time it was from Kyle

Why was he calling?I should ignore him.

After all,he's gotten what he wanted...what does he want now? Maybe he regretted his actions and wanted to apologise but even if he did regret his actions why would I ever forgive him?

Maybe I should just hear what he has to say.

I picked it up and didn't say anything.

"Lisa, where are you?"

"Why do you wanna know?"I asked.

"I need to see you"He replied.

"Well I don't wanna see you"

"Look I know I hurt you...but I really wanna tell you something"

"Whatever it is...I don't wanna hear it"

What the fuck does he want from me? Hasn't he done enough?

I left Ryan's house and headed to the restaurant across the street.It wasn't hard for me to locate Ryan since I saw his car parked in front of the restaurant.He was leaning on his car probably waiting for me.

"Why do you wanna see me?"I asked and he looked at me.

"Get in the car"He ordered and I rolled my eyes but did as he said.

He turned on the engine and drove off.

To where?

I don't know.

"Where are we going?"I asked.

"Somewhere"He simply replied and I felt relieved that he said something.

At least this was the first thing he has said to me in weeks.

He is always ignoring me.

After a few minutes drive,Ryan parked his car on a spot.

This was the same place we all went to...I mean Ryan, Ronnie, Jake , Kenzie and I.

But why did he bring me here?

We both alighted from the car and he gently held my hand and led me to the ocean.

"What?"I asked feeling so confused and scared.

Was he gonna throw into the ocean and then leave me here?

Or was he gonna dip my head into the water?

Calm down ,Lisa.

He can't do something like that.

"The last time we came here...I asked you if you loved me but you said we were just friends... but do friends behave like this?...I really want you to tell me the truth...do you really love me?"

I was about to say something when my phone rang out.I took it out and checked the caller's ID.

It was Kyle.

"Go on... I'm not gonna stop you... I'm used to getting hurt"

"Ryan,no one cares what he says"

"But you used to be so obsessed with him...why are you suddenly rejecting him now?"

"I thought he was the one for me...but he wasn't"

"I don't care"

"I mean it,Ryan"I said with a frown.

"Your boyfriend's waiting"He said as he walked towards his car.

"He's not my boyfriend,I hate him"I replied walking after him.

"Whatever"He said crossing his arms.

"Ryan"I called.

"What?"

"Stop"

"Why?"He asked leaning on his car and I sighed.

"Because I love you,you idiot"I said and he looked at me.

"You love me?"

"Yeah...I admit it,okay?... I've been feeling so strange...I miss the way you always disturb me...I also miss the way you tell me that I'm special...I thought about it and I realised that I really love you"I said and he walked up to me and kissed me.He held my waist and I wrapped my hands around his neck.

We pulled away after some seconds and he hugged me."I love you too"He said and I blushed.

Maybe Ryan's the one for me.