I just noticed something.

Three weeks after prep night is vacation.

That's when I won't have to come to school.That's when I have can every single minute to my myself.

I just can't wait to go on vacation.

All the boring classes and the-

"Watch it!"A familiar voice exclaimed.

Why am I so clumsy today?I just bumped into someone.

"I'm so-Kyle?"I asked looking stunned as I raised up my head and stared at him.

"What the fuck do you want?I thought I told you not to talk to me again"

"If you really don't want me to talk to you...then you would have left"I snapped feeling a bit annoyed.

"I knew he wasn't so good for you"

"Well, you're just jealous, aren't you?"

I never thought I could say this to my crush but right now I was just to angry to see who was in front of me.

"Jealous of what?"

"Our relationship...me and Ryan's relationship... he's my boyfriend...and you're jealous about that"

What the fuck am I saying?

"Really?Tell me all about it... it's not like he even cares about you... he's a playboy, remember...are you so sure he's not gonna dump you?"

My jaw dropped as soon as I heard what he said.It was like a slap in my face.

I didn't expect him to say things like this.

"Well yeah...he really cares about me... Ryan's a good person...though he may seem bad but he's really good and I don't know why you're so upset about that...you chased me away yourself and you dare insult my boyfriend... that's not how life works,Kyle... you're not making sense at all... you're just crazy!"I shouted and I could see the angry look on his face.

Just then,he raised his hand to hit me...but some seconds later,I didn't feel anything.i slowly opened my eyes and saw Kyle's hand being held by Ryan.

I don't know why but I felt so relieved and happy as if I had been wanting to see Ryan for so long.

"Get the fuck away from her ...what do you think you wanna do?Hit a girl?My girl?"Ryan said furiously attracting everyone's attention.

His girl?He called me his girl?

"You don't love her,Ryan"

"Do you? You're only using her to get over me...to show that you're much more better than me!"He shouted angrily.

What!

That can't be true.

"Fuck off,bro...you mean nothing to everyone... you've always been the odd one out right from childhood...no one loves you"Kyle shouted back and Ryan hit his stomach and pushed him to the ground.He punched his face until blood rushed out his nose.

All these things were making me sick.

"Ryan!Stop it... you're hurting him!"I said as I rushed over to Kyle to help him get up.

"You're helping him?"He asked.

One could easily tell that he mad with rage.

Kyle had gone too far and I wasn't helping the situation either but how could I stand back and watch the fight?

"Just stay back,Ryan... please don't hurt him"

"You're such a bloody bitch,Lisa"He shouted and walked away.

Those words really pierced my heart but I decided to ignore them.

I looked at Kyle's helpless body lying on the ground...he looked so innocent...how could he possibly try to use me just to show that he was better than Ryan...but what if it's true?

I grabbed a tissue from my bag and helped him wipe off the blood on his face.

I just couldn't watch him like this.

He was making me mad again...he insulted me...why am I helping him?

I stoop up and made my way through the crowd to find Ryan.

I looked around but couldn't find him and then I realized that I hadn't checked one place and that was the male's dressing room.

But I wasn't gonna go in there,was I?

Actually,I would have refused to go in but I really wanted to talk to Ryan so I gathered up all my courage and entered the males dressing room.

I had to close my eyes as I made my way through the boys cause they only had their underwear on.

How shameless they are?

"Hey beauty,what you doing here?"A guy asked as I bumped into his hard muscular chest...but it didn't look as muscular as Ryan's though.

What the hell,Lisa?

Just find Ryan.

I looked up and saw Ronnie.A smile lit up on my face.

"Ronnie,thank goodness... I'm looking for Ryan...have you seen him?"

"Yeah... he's at a corner over there...he looked so furious when he came in"

"Oh, thanks...and you should put some clothes on"I whispered and he chuckled.

I walked over to the corner of the room and saw Ryan sitting on a chair.

He didn't seem to notice my presence so I coughed out.He finally looked at me and I looked at him closely.

He was... crying.

He immediately hid his face and wiped off his tears.

"What are you doing here?"

"I came to talk to you"

"And you came in here?"

"Yeah...I...had no choice...um...Ryan, I'm sorry...and thanks for helping me when I needed you... you're a good friend"

"Friend? That's all?"He said and looked at me.

Did I say something wrong?

"Um...I don't get you"

"You still like Kyle, don't you?"

"No...I-"

"Don't pretend for me anymore...Lisa,i'm used to getting hurt but I don't expect you to say this to me... you're really hurting me...just friends?I thought we were more than friends?"

"We?But you never liked me...I can never be good enough for you so what's the point ,Ryan?"

"What's the point?Did I ever tell you that you weren't good enough for me?Why do you keep talking like this?"

"Ryan"

"Don't... don't call my name...you never understand me when I'm trying to help...so why thank me now...I don't need you to thank me...all I want from you is your love,Lis...you...but you can't do that for me... cause you're in love with Kyle"He said and came closer to me."Tell me you love me"

"I can't"I replied preparing for the worst but instead of saying anything,he walked away.

I slowly walked out of the males dressing room after some minutes regretting my last words to Ryan.

***
The bell was rung and my best friend and I walked out of the class.

"What's up with the look,Lis?"

"Nothing...just tired"I lied.

"You're not yourself,Lisa"

"I know...I disappointed someone I care about"

"Who?Ryan?"She asked and she stopped in her tracks.

"Lisa,what do you do when you find yourself falling in love with a guy you don't want to fall in love with?"

"Hmm...well,it depends but actually love could be really confusing...but if you feel the guy you're falling in love with is the right guy for you...the give your love a chance"

"It's not me"

"That's okay"

"What if the guy is assumed to be a playboy?"

That could be a bit hard...cause guys like that play hard to get at times.

"Kenzie,I wanna come clean... it's Ryan...i think I'm in love with him...I kinda like disappointed him"I said and she pulled me into a hug.

"I understand you, I'll help you fix this,Lisa"

"Really?"I asked as she let go.

"Yeah"She said with a nod and smile lit up on my face.