Bad Boy's Girl - [5]

I looked at my reflection in the mirror cladding myself in pink color baggy shirt with blue jeans. I brushed my hairs as I stared my face, my eyes were swollen and puffy, I touched my lips which were swollen and blood was visible on the corner of my lips. No, it's not because someone hitted me it's because I was trying my best not to let out a sob escaped my mouth because that makes me more weak but, like everyday I couldn't hold myself from breaking down. I sadly sighs as I rubs my cheeks to remove the tear stains. I inhaled a sharp breath as I put some makeup to hide my face and stretched a fake smile across my face and looked at the clock hanging on wall, "it's a matter of few hours ragini, you can do it", I told myself nodding at my reflection. I walked towards my study table and looked at the calendar with all red marks, I sadly sigh as I pick up the red marker from holder and marked it cross. My eyes welled as I felt someone prick my throat, I gulped back my tears keeping the marker back, "it's been 8 months and 8 days sanskar. It's been 8 months", I uttered and bites my lips. I took a long breath keeping hand on my chest. I walked back at my dresser and put on dark lip color to hide my lips, I kept my mobile on my purse when my eyes land on the teady's chim and keyboo, I took a sharp breath looking at them keeping in a corner, "good morning" , I uttered and left my room taking my bag. I walked to kitchen as I poured myself juice and drinks it only half when my eyes land on the untouched food from last night, I shook my head for my absent mind and kept it back on fridge. I just don't have appetite now days. I wore my shoes and left after wearing shades to hide my eyes.

"Ragu", I smiled at Anaya who hugged me . She is living opposite to my apartment, I told her that we both can live on same but, she denied. "Good Morning", she wished and I smiled although fake one. "Good Morning Anu", I told her as she forwarded me apple she was eating, I shook my head as we both deccends the stairs together. "How's you?", She asked looking at me while I smiled," Happy as always", I said and laughed. She just looked at me and nodded. I smiled slightly seeing how good she understands me, she knows it's all fake but, still she don't nudges me. "Nice shades", she told me as we exit the building. "You always says that", I told her as she sits on her scooty and I sits behind her. Well, she takes a duty of dropping me off to cafe daily. Yes! The same cafe. Thankfully Lady Aliyah allowed me and now I have source of income. "Because I like them and still you not give me", she told me and I shook my head holding her shoulder as she accelerated and drove off," I have only this pair otherwise I would have given you", I told her while she laughed, "I know I am just joking", she told and I smiled lightly. The cool breeze touched my face but, it didn't sooth me. My heart was still burning and its still broken. And , the reason is me , solely ME. 

I get down from scooty and looked at Anaya," thanks Anu", I said and she glared at me. I shakes my head and smiled, "how's veer? Did he come?", I asked her hopeful for a reply. "They are good and no, he didn't come", she told me with sad smile while I nodded blinking as I turned my back on her and starts walking towards cafe. After that day veer only met me for once and after that I have always seen him from far which I am thankful because I didn't think he would like to see me after what all I did it to his best friend. I only deserve hatred and I know it. I wiped my tears before they could even fall. I greeted everyone as I entered inside cafe, now I do two times job here for income and, I am thankful to ALMIGHTY to give me one. I changed into my uniform and starts working blocking all my thoughts, I wore specs because I don't want anyone too look cloesly at my eyes and know any of my dead emotions. Like this many hours passed and all I do was work like a machine, I sighs as I felt my muscles tired after running from here and there for several hours. "Ragini?", Lady Aliya called me and I goes to her, she looked at me with her warm smile as she forwarded me some pastries, "you are here from morning it's been 6 hours and you didn't eat anything",  she told me and I smiled gently at her, " I'll eat it don't worry, I want to drink coffee first", I told her while she fold her arms and looked at me, "you said that yesterday and the day before yesterday, I saw you packing and giving these pastries to poor children's", she says and I bites my tongue being caught. "You see that I eat them daily and with their aromatic smell only I feel full", I told her and she shook her head disbelief. "Eat it before my eyes, today no excuse. You can take more for the children", she told and I felt myself tearing up. She is such a generous soul as I hugged her, "you are Soo kind", I told her wiping my tears before they fall. "Not more then you", she told me breaking the hug while I painfully smiled at her while my heart pained. Only if you know how kind I am. I thought and shakes my head as I took the plate and grabs myself a cup of hot coffee, "can I eat outside?", I asked and she nodded smiling. I smiled at her and moves outside from back door and sits on the bench facing road. I inhaled sharply as I took a sip of hot coffee with my trembling lips as tears starts flowing from my eyes. I took one bite as I took a shaky breath, my throat become dry and I closed my eyes letting the tear flow. It's so hard to pretend you are normal when you are dying inside by each passing second. "Why I am Soo unlucky?", I asked looking up at the sky and then looking at the people around me who seems happy to me but, who knows who hide pain behind those happy face. I thought when my gaze fell on a kid asking for food, I smiled painfully looking at him and stands walking towards him. I taps his shoulded as he looked up at me, "you are hungry?", I asked and he nodded inocently blinking his eyes. I forwarded the pastries and coffee, "will it work? I have took only one bite", I told to him while he looked at me and then at my hands and instantly grabs it nodding. I smiled at him with moisty eyes, "thank you Didi", he says while I smiled more," just pray that I become happy", I told to him as he looked at me, "you are not happy?", He asked me and I shook my head in a no and he smiled, "but, you seem happy", he told me and I shook my head smiling. It's fake child. It's fake. "Nothing", I told to him as he started eating while I kept looking at him trying to find some peace some solace by seeing him happy but, it didn't worked. I sadly sighs as I dusted my hands and starts walking towards cafe again, "Didi", I stopped hearing his voice and turned, "I'll pray you become happy for real", he told me while I smiled with moisty eyes and nodded. I sighed as I entered inside cafe from back door and the first thing I did was to put make up again due to my pale look. It's irritating but saving too. I thought makeup can give you only but, I realized it's good in hiding your scars too.

I looked at my reflection on the mirror and plastered a fake smile before walking out and resuming my job. I worked and worked when one of my colleagues comes to me, "Ragini, your phone is constantly ringing", she told me while I looked at her, "Anu?", I wondered as I walked towards the staff room and found my phone ringing. I pick up my phone and found 10 miss calls from Anu, my heart panicked and I instantly dialed her number while my heart sank , "Anu?", I called her name worriedly. "Ragini! Ragi..ini", she fumbles on her words while I felt my body weakening all of a sudden, "Wh....hat?", I clucthed onto my phone tightly and gulped a lump on my throat. "News", she told me with great difficulty while my legs hurriedly rushed towards the door, I grabbed the knob from one hand and phone from other. My eyes land on the television which was hanging just straight to the counter  where I was standing in between the door. My legs freezed and my body trembled, my eyes widen and tears started falling. I felt my whole body rippen apart as the phone fell from my hand while my eyes still stucked on the television.

Breaking News! The most wanted underworld Mafia known as Sanskar Maheshwari died in a blast along with other underworld people in a clash which happens in Dubai today afternoon. His identity was unknown till now. The report is saying no one could survive the drastic blast as the whole building burned upside down! People are still trying to locate their bodies while some of their identities are still unknown. For knowing more stay tuned to MMS News Channel ! 

I felt floor underneath me tearing up as my heart throbs loudly on my chest, my breathing become uneasy as I moves back and fall on ground with thud. "No, this can't happen", i muttered as my hands trembled as if their is no movement left. My throat become sour as i opens my mouth to say something but, nothing comes out. My vision become blurry as I tried to breath with difficulty, "sans.....sans....sanskar", i uttered as i felt drowsy and a thunderous pain shoot through my chest and mind , "sans...Kar", I forwarded my hand as I saw his blurry vision infront of me smiling. I smiled through my tears ,"Ragini", I heard my name being called out before darkness engulfed me.

I stared at his portrait which I made for him lifelessly resting my back on my bed. I was sitting like a dead corpse just the different is my completely shattered heart was still alive and beating. "Why?", I uttered looking at his portrait as lump formed in my throat. "Why did you do this to me?", I asked again looking at him while a whimpered left my mouth and I shut my eyes gulping back the moisture in my eyes. I looked around my room which is now in a complete mess and then my gaze fell on the calendar at my study table. The red marked was still there the day he left me and now it's been 4 day's. 4 day's of me being locked up on my own house. 4 day's of me being dead. 4 day's of me devastated yet alive. 4 day's of me crying on my fate. I didn't marked the single day after that day. Not a single day. I stared back at his photo as my tear fell on his eyes.

"I was living for you even being dead", I uttered biting my lips tightly before a sob escaped my mouth. My entire body was numb but, still I can feel pain in my heart which is unbearable. Tears steamed down my eyes as I felt a pain shoot through my mind and I felt loosing my nerves, " you should have killed me.... You should have killed me the day you saw me.... Sanskar..... You should have killed me", I shouted as I throws his portrait to my side and clutches my head tightly, "I lived for you..... Iived for you only from past 8 months..... You can't snatch it from me", I shouted as I tried to stand but, failed due to the weakness. Fresh tears rolled down as I screamed, " I was living with a hope to see you one day..... To beg your forgiveness..... I was living for you sanskar..... How could you snatch it from me? How could you?", I shouted as I hitted my fist on my bed and clucthed my head. I know my whole face would be red by now but, my heart is bleeding.
"Whyyyyy? Whyyyyy???? Why did you snatched the only reason of my living? Whyyyyy?", I shouted as I throws the glass of water from my bedstand and it shattered in floor just like my soul at the moment.

I slapped my face, " I deserve to die... You deserve to die..... You are a monster ragini.... A monster", I screamed and laugh hysterically while more tears rolled down. " I am dead yet alive. I hate you sanskar.... I hate you for leaving me..... I hate you for not killing me...... I hate you for loving me..... I hate you and I hate myself for being alive...... I am a murderer.... I killed you sanskar..... I killed you", I screamed as I slapped my face again and again looking at his portrait with a smile. It's killing me. I am dying. This pain is unbearable. Unbearable it is.

"Raginiiii", Anaya shouts dazed looking at her. She rushed towards her and engulfed her in a bone crushing hug, "ragu...ragu....look at me", she stopped me from slapping myself as I looked at her all pale. "Don't do this to yourself please", she utters pleading while tears left her eyes. My heart pained looking at her while I clenched my fist. I am the reason for everyone tears. I am bad omen. " He died because of me.... Me", I told her while as I poked my chest while Anaya nodded no," it was his decision. He planted the bomb", she told me and I pushed her with rage filled my eyes, "Noooo.... It was ME.... It was Mee who made him do that.... It was me who left him..... It was me who called him monster.... It was me who holds his hand taking him to the light and then leaves him all alone in utter darkness... It was me.... Me....  And, only me.... And this tongue.... This big mouth of mine.... It was his mistake", I screamed pulling my hairs while Anaya sobs looking at me. I looked at the broken glass at the floor and crawled towards it, " I need to slice my tongue..... I need to cut this tongue, it's all because of this", I said picking up the piece while Anaya looked on shocked and rushed towards me. She throws the glass piece and gives a tight slap across my face and shaking me , " Don't do this Ragu.... don't do this.... don't hurt yourself.... Please... Don't", she shouted screaming and crying while my eyes softened seeing her and hot tears rolled down my eyes as I tightly clutches her shoulders sobbing, " This guilt is killing me anu.... I'll die Anu... This guilt will make me die.... It's me.... It's all me", I cried with my shaky breath while my whole body hurts. I cried and keep crying don't know till how long when sleep overtook me.

'Ragini", I smiled looking at him. He was wearing black tuxedo looking all handsome. I blushed at his intense gaze on me while my heart flutters. He was walking towards with me in slow steps. We are standing in between a forest where dim lights were illuminating the area we are in. I was wearing white color gown which he gifted me. I smiled as I forwarded my hands to him to hold, he smiled as he forwarded his hand, our hands were about to interwined when suddenly his hand started burning. My eyes widen as I screamed his name. "Sanskaaaar", I shouted his name as tears flows from my eyes. I forwarded my hand while he moves back. His whole body was burning infront of me and he was smiling. "Sanskar", I screamed looking at him while my eyes moved around to find some water. Suddenly, I feel wetness on my body. My eyes widen as my gown color started to change into blood dripping red. I gasped as I touched my gown and blood comes on my hand. My eyes widen while I gasped for breath, I moves my eyelids to sanskar and I tightly clucthed my mouth to prevent myself from crying. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh", I shreiked looking at his half burnt face while his flesh falls down on ground ripping apart. My body shook with fear as he took steps towards me while I moves back, suddenly I felt my legs digging in ground. I looked down and my eyes widen seeing myself drowning in a pit of blood. "No.....nooo.... Sanskar..... Sanskar......", I cried looking at him while moving down in the pit. My body shook with fear, "You killed me ragini, now you'll die", he told me with his heart burnt face while my heart rips apart seeing him. "Sanskaaaaaaarrrr", I shouted His name before completely drowning into blood pit.

"Nooooo", I shouted getting up and realized I was in my bedroom in my home. Tears falls from my eyes as I clucthed my head which is fully covered with Sweat. My breath hyperventilate as I hiccuped, "Ragu?", Anaya entered inside my room and rushed towards me. I hurriedly hugs her and cried while she caressed my hairs, "Again Nightmare?", She asked while I nodded clutching her shoulders. She sighs as she Pat's my head, "let it go ragu... Let it go", she told me while I shook my head breaking hug and looked at her painfully," I can't... I love him", I told her while a sob escaped my mouth and tightly clutches my mouth while she holds my palm nodding no with moisty eyes, "cry.... Cry until you feel light" she told me while I painfully smiled with tears dripping down my cheeks," That's the problem anu..... I don't feel light even after continuous crying", I told her while my heart pained. I release a shaky breath as I wiped my tears which aren't stopping, "I am going", I told her while she looks at me, "where?", She asked me worriedly. "I'll die if I stay inside anymore. I am going to work", I told her while she gives me a concerned look. "I don't think it's a good idea", she told me while I get off my bed. "Please Anu.... Please", I utters joining my palm while she sighs. "Don't do this.... I am just worried because of your break down and I don't want someone to take advantage of your current situation", she told me while I nodded, "I'll keep my emotions In check", I told her which is a complete lie. I took a shower and changed into white shirt and blue jeans. I got ready and comes out to see Anu standing in kitchen, she gives me a smile as she saw me and I tried to do the same but, failed badly.

"Eat something", she told me while I shook my head, "I am not hungry", I told her staring at floor. She sighs as she walked towards me, "Have you seen yourself?", She asked me with hint of anger clearly visible in her voice. She holds me and drags me back to my room and makes me stand infront of mirror, "just look at you.... Just look at you for once. I have been seeing you like this from past 8 months and now you are even worse", she told me while my eyes welled up. "You know what doctor said that day that even people who have malnutrition have much more strength then you. You don't eat properly, you don't sleep properly, you keep crying and pressuring your brain over and over again. Do you know your nerves could get burst that day? Do you know you could have suffered brain hemorrhage? Do you know you could have a heart attack at this age? Do you know how I felt looking at you? Do you know how much i prayed for your well being? Do you know how much I cried for you?", I couldn't hold onto myself anymore as I hugged her and cried bitterly. "I am sorry Anu... I...I.... Don't want to hurt .... You but.... But..... It's hurting me..... Mai Kya kroo anu.... Mai marhi Hoon...... I .... Can't be ... happy.... I am.... At ... No peace.... It's paining..... Alot", I told her while she also cries with me. "Sshhhhh", she caressed my hairs while I keep crying. "Look ragu, what's gone is gone. You can still keep him alive in your memories. Do what he never gets the chance to do", she told me as I breaked the hug and look at her, "I want to talk to veer. For once, please", I begged looking at her while her face expression changes and a fresh tear rolled down her cheeks, "How can I ragu? When I myself is yearning to talk to him. After, telling me it was all sanskar decision he cuts the call  and from that time I trying to get in- touch with him but", she paused as she shuts her eyes while I hugged her. He also lost his best friend. How can you be so selfish ragini? I questioned myself and feel disgusted.

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I stared at moon standing in my balcony. Anu didn't let me go to the job well to be honest, I was not in strength to go. I inhaled a deep breath as I looked towards the sparkling sky, "you are there, aren't you?", I asked looking up in the sky while my heart pained. I shut my eyes as tears streams down my eyes. Why don't this pain lessened? Why am I alive and not dead? Why my heart is still beating? Why I am still having Hope's? Why? , "Ragu", I quickly wiped my tears and plastered a fake smile before turning my face to her. "Let's watch your favorite doremon movie", she said smiling at me which didn't reached her eyes. I nodded my head as she dragged me to the living room. I settled myself on sofa while she sits besides me. If this were any old days where I haven't been messed up then I was the one who'll be more then excited but, now I feel dead and nothing. "Let's watch", she told and I nodded. She keeps the bowl of popcorns in my hand and I looked at her. She did everything as per my liked. Those old days. I remembered emotionally. Everything changed after that day, that unexpected day. My eyes went on television and I saw the movie playing. A small crept appears on my lips as I remembered that day.....

I picked up another tissue from the tissue box and wiped my tears that were continuously flowing while my eyes were still glued on the screen. I sniffed my nose and wiped my nose from it , when a hand forwarded the box in which I have thrown tissues. I looked at veer throwing the tissue and again glued my eyes on screen, I could feel four pairs of eyes watching me. I titlted my head to my both sides, "it's ending", I told them while i titlted both of their heads to screen. "Nooo.... nooo.....Nooooo please don't vanish..... Don't vanish", I shouts as I forwarded my hand. "Judoo.. .....riroruuuuu", I cried as Sanskar forwarded me a glass of water. I gulped it and handed him murmuring thanks. Veer and sanskar looked at each other and shares a look while I looked at them from corner of my eyes. "You're making fun of me, right?", I asked tilting my head to both sides while they both shook their heads acting all inocent. I sniffed my nose as another tear leaked my eyes which Sanskar wipes it immediately. "Don't you think from the time their fights starts you are continuously crying?", He asked me and I nodded while veer forwarded me the tissue box and I took one looking at screen. I smiled happily as it ended, "so they come back at the end?", Veer asked me and I nodded. "Yes! It was riroru", I told them sniffing my nose. Veer and sanskar looked at me and then both of them burst into a fist of laughter. I narrowed my eyes at them, "what's Soo funny?", I asked them annoyed while they both laughed more. "Bro, please let me choose next time what to watch ..i don't want tsunami here", veer says while I looked at him angrily. "No... No next time also ragini will select", sanskar says coughing to control his laughter while I looked at him and smiled. I was sitting in between the both, my right side is veer and left side is sanskar. "Yes, so that we can watch doremon.... The gadget museum.... Doremon.... Antriksh k rakhwale.... Doremon jaadu mantar or sheher..... Doremon this....doremon that...... And, what did we watched just now... Yeah Doremon... The steel troops where there was nothing to be emotional about but, my dear sister was crying in each and every scene as If they are alive and real", veer says while I glared at him and smacked his head, "you won't understand my emotions. Heartless joker", I shouts as I now turned my head to sanskar still angry, "Do you also think like him?", I asked practically glaring while he instantly shakes his head as he wrapped his hand around me. "It was awesome, trust me. I'll watch more with you from now on", he blinks at me cutely and I felt my lips stretched up, I turned my head to veer who was looking at us in shock, "you know what he is best and you are nothing but trash", I told him and my eyes widen as I smiled, "it was rhyming, isn't it?", I asked excitedly smiling turning my head to sanskar who nodded smiling. "Wooow, really? Don't you think you deserve ocsar for this rhyme?", Veer taunted while I pouted and looked at sanskar who shut his eyes looking at me. I turned my head to veer who was looking at me disbelief, "why don't you ask Mr.best of yours that why was he laughing along with me and what was he signing me behind your back?", Veer says while I narrowed my eyes at sanskar who looks on shocked. "Sanskar?", I looked at him and he shakes his head standing up, "he....he is ... Is laying", he stammered and my eyes widen in shock. "Sanskar the great Mafia is stammering?", I gasped while he looks at me and then at veer who was laughing. I picked up the cushion and hits his face, "shut your annoying laugh", I told him and he glared me. "Off topic ... Off topic.... Enemy escaping", veer says pointing at a direction. I turned my head and looked at sanskar going, "sanskaaaar" , I shouted as I gets up. "Gayaaaa", he muttered as he runs to the stairs while I run after him, I stopped hearing veer laugh which irked me to the core. Okay, I was emotional back but, now I am angry and I want blood of this joker. Buhahhahahahahah. "You are gone", I pounced towards veer who widen his eyes seeing me coming after him. "Raginiiii.." , he shouted my name and starts running around while I runs behind him. We both stopped hearing sanskar laughter from upstairs, we both glance at each other and then at him and smirked. "You are dead!!", We shouted together running towards the stairs while sanskar who saw us widen his eyes and runs.

I laughed hysterically remembering that day while tear rolled down my eyes while laughing, "omyy.... Their faces..... Hahahahahaha", I laughed as I shook my head. "ragu", Anu shook me making me stopped. I blinks as I looked around and realized myself at my home. "It's first time I am seeing you laughing while watching this and not crying", Anu told me with amusement. I sighs as I wipes my tears and smiled nodding, "I am sleepy", I told her while she looks at me for a moment and nodded. I blinks at her as I gets up and rushed towards my room throwing myself on bed. Those days, those golden days. I hugged his photo as I kept my head on pillow while tears rolled down my eyes. I wish I could turned back those times where I could get moments like that. I just wished. Those memories lane crossed my eyes as I remembered everything. It flashes infront of my eyes as if it's happening for real. Tears keep streaming down as I devoured myself into those memories wishing for some peace. I smiled with tears in my eyes when I remembered the day when he started training me.

I stood shock looking at him, my eyes widen and my mouth slightly opened, "like what you see?", He asked breaking my trance and I hurriedly closed my mouth and shook my head. "Are you going to train me like this?", I asked him looking down. "Yes, any problem?", He asked me and I nodded. "You are naked", I told him while next thing was unexpected as he started laughing, my head shot up at him and my eyes again travelled on his chiseled chest and well built muscle. I can't concentrate if he is going to be shirtless all the time. Why the hell is he Soo handsome? It's so..so Distracting. "Do you want it?", He asked me and my eyes widen in saucer size and I hurriedly shook my head, "Are you mad? Why would I want you?", I replied him while he bites his cheeks probably hiding the smirk that was crawling up at his mouth," but, I was talking about fight. Do you want to learn the moves or not?", He told and that's it. That's the moment where I could feel all of face turning red because of the embarrassment I just faced. Where is the grave? I want to die. Why don't the mother earth just swallow me down? "I am thirsty, I'll just be back", I told and goes before he could reply as I reached at the end of door I heard his chuckling sound which makes me more embarrassed and I felt tickling sensation on my body. I stomps my feet and goes. I gulped the water down as I wiped my face, I looked at myself on the fridge reflection. I was wearing red track pants with white sleeves shirt and my hair was tied into a ponytail. "Why the hell do you even asked him to teach you?", I muttered as I took a deep breath calming myself down. "He is not that handsome to get distracted, okay? He is still the devil with extremely handsome features", I zipped my mouth and cursed myself. Here goes your drooling again. I smacked my forehead and goes to basement where he is teaching me. The room was small but it had punching bag, dumbles, trademil The room was in creaky sand color as if it's some street fighting area. I took two three breath before walking towards him. "Teach me", I told him looking straight into his eyes. He smirked and I rolled my eyes. That  annoying smirk. Huh!

"Come", he said as he stood readily in his position, I copied him and stood like him. He stood facing his both hands towards me in attacking mode. I did the same. We both enterwined our hands as we moves around in circles looking straight into each others eyes, I felt goosebumps on my body with his stare, my eyes falls on his chest and I hurriedly shook my head and looked at him," now what?", I asked him to distract myself from staring him. "This", he told while I looked at him confused and in the next moment I was on ground with my back wincing, "Ahhh", I winced as he tightly crossed my hands and was above me smiling, "that's what happened when you get distracted while attacking your enemy", he told me and my cheeks heated up as I bends my eyes. "Move", I told him. "No", my eyes snapped at him and he again smirked at me. "You have to know how to get out of your enemies clutches", he says while I glared at him, "that was for you to teach me", I told him while he shook his head. "That's for you to know how would you deal such situations. Now come on, I know you aren't any weak woman as I received your slaps many time..so show your strength and smartness Ms. Ragini", he told me while I stared at him blankly. Here I am feeling weak with him on top of me and this idiot just cared about my strength and smartness. I tried to release myself from his clucthes while he kept staring at me with a smile. My heart was exploding on my chest and I am sure he was hearing it too. I feel difficult to breath. "You are really trying or enjoying the situation?", He asked me in a teasy tone while my eyes widen and my head snapped at him and I felt my cheeks turning red, "Sa...y Whhattt?", I uttered lowering my gaze while he chuckled. This in inappropriate idiot get up before I do something wild. Think ragini Think. "Well , now you see I am not an easy trainer", he said smirking while I looked at him and suddenly something strikes my mind and I smiled looking at him, "Sanskar", I called his name huskily. His face expression changes as he stared at me. "You are right. I want to stay like this, forever", I leaned towards his ears and whispered and again leaned on ground to see his expression. He looks at me dazed while I smiled inside. He kept staring at me while I took the moment of distraction, "Ahaaan" , I said and I pushed him criss crossing his hand and now I sit on his stomach dusting my hands, "how's it?", I asked raising my eyebrows while he looked on shocked. I laughed seeing his bewildered expression while he glared at me, "thats cheating", he told me huffing while I smirked leaning towards his face, "it's smartness", I winked at him and gets up while he sits and looks at me in disbelief. I smiled winningly, " I think that's enough for today as you won't be able to hand such hotness with you for a long time", I winked while his mouth slightly opened hearing me. I chuckled waving him bye and left while I heard his shout," get back here and I'll tell you who won't be able to handle hotness", I smiled hearing him while I kept hand on my fluttering heart and my body heated up remembering our closeness and I blushed profusely , "Handsome jerk! ", I muttered going away.

I smiled as I kissed his photo and hugged it tightly as I stared at sky from window while laying. I know I am alone and I need to overcome it. I'll can't live with him nor I can die with him but, atleast I can live his memories. He is alive in my heart and forever will be. I know I never got a chance to express my love but, I know our love for each other is pure even if it's unsaid. I know you love me and I loves you. I know I can't go back and change. I know my pain won't be lessen with cries but, for you I'll try. I'll try to live while keeping you alive in my heart. Only you, because I know how dead I am inside but, I'll keep myself alive. I just wish you forgive me, I wish I didn't left that day. I wish I would have not utter those words. I just wished. Tears streams down my cheeks but, I instantly wipes it, "you think me as a strong right? Now, I'll be one", I murmured staring at his photo. "I can't promise you to be happy or to not cry but, I'll be myself. I know you loved the real me which I killed the day when I left for your house but, for you I'll reborn. Just for you", my tears fell on his portrait. "I just wish you could too", I shut my eyes tightly, "but, Kya karoon yeh Dil manta hi nahi k tum jaa chuke ho? ", I sighs shaking my head. "I wish I could be the light of your life", I murmured as I kissed his portrait. "I wished I could see you all you for a little longer. I wished I could see you smile for a little longer. Why it's all wishes which can't come true? Why this life is this? Why? Why do pain exist? Why can't only happiness exist?", There is umpteenth questions which are still unanswered. I wished I could get answers somehow. I sadly sighs as I closed my eyes hugging the photo. For you I'll live. For you.

There are many stories which stayed incomplete and unsaid but, there will be one day other side of the world where these stories will be completed. The love will get their meanings. Some decisions we take is what the destiny stored. You can't change it. What's written is written. The destiny might be cruel but, not the true love. The story remained untold but it's not the end as they'll meet again  someday, somewhere...... Till then......

The end......

Don't kill me please..... This is what I planned and this is what's going to happen.. I know I completely ruined it but, not all endings are happy. So here takes the bad boy sanskar and his girl ragini bye!! Thank you Soo much for showing your love towards them. It's my fav genre and I loved this story.

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Tata, till we met again....

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Happy reading..... But, yes the ending will not be happy 😝😝😝😝😝

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I caresses his frame and keep it on my bedstand. I have decided to start going for job as I can't neglect my responsibility and put all the burdern on anu. I sighed as I walked towards my two teady's which Anu and veer gifted me. For me they were my best buddies but, I kept them in a corner from past 8 months because I think I'll hurt them too. I shook my head as I hugged both of them. "I am sorry chim. keyboo. I know I am bad", I utters as I kept them back on their old place on my bed and wiped my tears which were peeping to flow. I took a deep breath as I got ready and headed towards kitchen. I pour myself juice and drinks it. I wiped my face and goes out taking my stuff. I didn't knocked on anu's door nor I told her. I need to do it, alone. I just took the bus like my older days and reached my destination. Nothing's changed except me. I entered inside and greets everyone, tbh they seemed surprised seeing me and all of them showered their worries seeing me which overwhelmed me. They don't know the actual reason of my sudden fainting that day at staff room but, they knows that I was I'll. "I am fine. I am fine", I told them and give them a small smile. "Can I join my work?", I asked and lady Aliya nodded. I smiled warmly as I begin working, for a moment I felt myself tearing up when I realized it was the same place where I heard that.... "No. No", I shook my head. "he is alive inside me", I makes myself remembered and nodded determined. I started working not before sending a text message to Anu who must be worried for me, to be honest it didn't sooth me but, still helps to keep my thoughts out of reach. After continuous hours of working when the day turned into night , I felt tired and hungry. I quickly grabbed myself a sandwich and also takes my medicines.

"Ragini", the lady called me and I walked towards her. "Here, your salary", she says forwarding the envelope and I looked at her, "but", she nodded her head and blinks at me keeping it on my hand and I smiled at her gently. "Thank you", I murmured as I kept it safely on my purse. "You can go", she told me and nodded and changed myself into my clothes. I walked out as I holds my purse . I waited for my on the bus station. I bus arrived after 5 minutes and I entered inside occupying a seat at back staring outside. After few minutes of travelling it reaches my destination and I stepped down. There are two more buses I need to take. I looked around and found 2 men in their mids present. My instincts give me bad vibes as I clucthed my purse and starts walking rather then walking. While walking I realized something that's it's the same deserted area where I have met him for the first time and misunderstood him. My eyes become teary remembering the day, I didn't realized when someone snatched my purse and starts running. Realization strikes me and I widen my eyes, "Nooooooo", I shouted as I runned after the two person, the same who gives me bad vibes. Tears streams down my eyes remembering the day when it happened with me and I met him. "Moment of distraction", I heard his word and speeds up. I hyperventilate for breath as I lost my way. "Noooo", I shouted as I fall on ground with thud. "Again.... Again..... Again", I shouted hitting my fist on ground hurting my knuckles while tears streams down my eyes. I hiccuped crying hiding my face. "Why I am so unfortunate? Why?", I muttered. I look up in the sky and closed my eyes, I felt a water droplet on my face and opens my eyes staring at the sky soon it started raining. My eyes widen as I looked here and there to find a place to hide while my eyes fell on something from far. My heart beat paced loudly as I looked around and found myself at same place after several months. My tears mixed up with the rain drops as I walked lifelessly towards the same gigantic park. I was drenched as I looked around and saw my reflection running out of the park and saw some other men's running after me. I shut my eyes tightly, the thunder striked and I hugged my body being scared. I looked at the park infront of me, still beautiful and scary. My heart felt heavy with each steps I take. I stopped as I saw myself standing at the same place hiding behind a tree. I walked towards there and stopped looking behind the tree. My eyes widen and my body shivered seeing the three silhouettes.

The thunder striked again and I saw their faces, I tightly clucthed the tree and identify the same who snatched my person and one person back was facing towards me. "You can do it ragini. You can do it", I uttered with my shivering lips as waters dropped down my face. I shut my eyes remembering all the fights sanskar teaches me and looks on determine but, before I could react I saw them hitting the person with something strong. My eyes widen in shock and I gasped, "Ayyyyeeeee", I shouted on my top voice coming out from behind the tree. I looked around and found a sharp branch piece. I looked at them angrily and marched towards them while they looks at each other and throws my purse and runs away, " you both.... Stop.... Stoppp", I runned after them but, they both jumped out from the park. "Blooody ******", I clenched my teeths and throws the branch angrily. Suddenly, realization struck me and I remembered about the injured person and I rushed back to the place. My steps froze as I saw the person lying , I hurriedly rushed towards him and looked around for some help. I couldn't looked at him properly because of the darkness around. I moved towards him with trembling hands and bends on my knees sitting besides him, I hold him from his shoulders and makes him turn, the thunder striked and I gasped looking at him. My heart dropped on my chest, my eyes widen and my lips shivered. Tears rolls down my eyes as I moved my trembling hands towards his face,"S..Sans..kaar", I cried looking at him uncouncious. "Sanskar....sanskar....", I shouts shaking him. My hands trembled and I forgot to breath. My whole body shivered while tears didn't stopped. I smiled as I cupped his cheeks while water droplets fall on his face, "you are alive... You are alive", I cried when I felt something metallic on my hand. The thunder strike again and my eyes widen in shock seeing the blood on my hand. I looked at my hand and then at him, "Sanskaaaaaaaaaaaar".

To be continued.......

Sanskar is back😍😍😍 kesa laga???? 🤣🤣🤣 I hope you all like it..... So here it is as per you asked now it's time for hmw which I'll start writing 😋😋😋😋

Do you really think he'll die or not? Give honest reply.

And how's the update? Are you still upset on ragini for what she did or she has already suffered? What's your call? Since the next will be last part... So, do tell me what do you feel about all the characters in this story? Was it worth reading or not? And would you still love the story if it's not a happy end? Do answer these questions otheriwise no update😎😎😎😝🤣🤣#selfish me.

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