In hopes you're on the other side, talking to me too, or am I a fool who sits alone, taking to the moon

"If only you know how much I miss you Koa, life has been hard without you." I sat up against my brothers vacant room door

"I hope it's treating you well up there, I hope you're singing with the angels right now... I miss your voice, it's been a month since you've been gone and I feel as if I forgot how you sounds. I listen to your funny voicemails you left me that one day we were bored and home alone messing with our phones... I listen to them every night and hug that leopard you won me at the fair." I felt tears escape my eyes

"Papa and I are just barely moving on. Him and I still come here every night and talk to you, sometimes when I'm feeling down I come to your door and talk more, I hope you hear us. We miss you so much Koa. Mom came to grab the rest of her stuff. She didn't bother to come to your funeral but it's ok." I wiped my tears

"Macy came last week, she misses you too. I miss seeing you and her together, after you... you left it was like she went with you." I took a deep breath

"Is Milo up there? I miss that stinker... remember on Thanksgiving when he stole your turkey leg? That was something." I giggle

Just then the doorbell rang,

"I'll talk to you later, brother. I love you and I miss you." I say

I got up and walked to the door and I saw Andrew Cole standing there, I wipe my eyes and open the door,

"What do you want Redley?" I sniff

"You alright?" He asks looking into my eyes, I felt like they were piercing through my soul, they soften.

"What do you need?" I ask stepping outside and crossed my arms

His ice blue and grey eyes switching back and forth looking at one eye then switching to another and repeating,

"What Andrew Cole!" I say strictly

He pulls me closer to him and holds me against his chest hugging me, it's like he knew I needed one.

"Andrew Cole?" I question

"Just shut up Remi." He says

I stay quiet and hug back and close my eyes we stay there for a moment, I take a deep breath,

Breathing in his minty cologne is intoxicating. Remi, what are you doing?!

I push off of him and he lets go slowly and lowers his hands down to my waist, he looks into my eyes again like how he was before, and I swallow feeling the tension in the air,

He puts his forehead on mine,

"I'm sorry Remi." He says huskily and takes his head off mine and looks at me again,

I grab his arms and put it down to his sides

"What did you want Andrew Cole." I said

"Présenter mes excuses et te traiter mieux, mon coeur ." He says and turns around and starts walking to his 2008 black Jeep Wrangler,

I sigh and go back inside. Stupid guys.

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The weekend flew by and soon it was a cold Monday morning. I make my way to social studies and see Andrew Cole Redley early to class and of course he was surrounded by a small crowd of girls around his desk and my desk also. I walk towards my desk, and stop behind the crowd of girls,

"Excuse me." I say

"Wait your turn." She rolls her eyes

"Well you're covering my desk and I'd like to sit down." I cross my arms

She looks back and glares,

"I said wait your fucking turn." She pokes my chest

I clench my fists

"Move out of her way and let her sit." I hear him say strictly

The girls move out of my way and make their circle smaller still gazing at Andrew Cole,

"Oh my god Cole you remember the—"

"Sure."

"Oh and do you—"

"Yep."

This is the first time I'm hearing him yell at the girls who adore him, I giggle and look down only to put my head back up,

"Remi. Can I talk to you?" I hear

I look at the doorway and there stood Marcus, I stand up I then feel a hand grab my arm, I look behind to see Andrew Cole looking at me narrowing his eyes,

I pull my hand and walk to the door,

"You have three minutes." I cross my arms and stand at the door way,

I look into his eyes, bloodshot, wow he really let himself go.

"I f-fucked up Rem. I'll prove to you that I'm worth it." He stutters and grabs my waist

"You sure did fuck up Marcus, you should know I won't take you back. I told you how I felt about drugs." I try to push his arms off of me but they won't budge

"Take your hands off of me, Marcus. Please."

I feel him grip harder and harder, I start to wince in pain and I feel the tears forming in my eyes,

"I p-promise Remi. I-I'll be better." His drowsy, red eyes fix upon my breast,

"You're high aren't you." I say in disgust

"I maybe but I know you feel it too, let's get out of here." He bites his lip

"Please stop." I plead

He starts moving his hands higher and I hear things move behind me, I then see Andrew Cole out of the corner of my eye,

"She said stop Tammel." Andrew Cole pushes Marcus off of me,

"This is why you don't want me anymore!" Marcus yells

"Because you wanted this—this dickhead?" He points to Andrew Cole

"Marcus stop." I cry

"Leave her alone Tammel." Andrew Cole says

"Shut up Andrew Cole!" I turn my head to him

"You want a man don't you Rem? I'll take better care of you than him just watch!" Marcus then leaps forward tackling Andrew Cole, they both stand up and Marcus throws a punch hitting Andrew Cole,

Andrew Cole then hits Marcus back and they were in a full on fist fight.

"Stop!" I yell

"You both are being immature!" I exclaim

"Stop it!" I run to stand in the middle of them and I get hit in the head and fall to the ground,

Marcus looks at me in terror and turns around and bumps into my teacher

"All three of you, principles office now!" He yelled

Andrew Cole holds out his hand but I get up, I brush past both boys and make my way to the office.

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It's been the whole the day and all I've been doing here is sitting waiting for my turn to talk with the principle.

I wait in the deans office while Andrew Cole gets his lecture, Marcus has been suspended and I'm assuming that I'll be getting the same punishment.

The door swings open and Andrew Cole leaves the principles office,

I walk in and sit down,

"Alright, let's see what we have on Remi Mallas." Mr. Savis says looking through a thin folder, I look on his desk behind him and see two thicker folders,

"Hmm. Ms. Mallas, you haven't been in my office for two years. Ever since the food fight fiasco, I'm assuming you learned your lesson. Did you not?" He asks

"I did sir." I said

He hums and taps his fingers together leaning back on his chair,

"In-house for tomorrow." He sits up and hands me a paper

I took a deep breath and nod,

"Got it?" He asks

"Yes sir." I reply

"Dismissed."

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I walk out the office and to the parking lot to see Andrew Cole crouching in front of his car with his hood open, I scoff and walk past,

"Hey...uhm Remi?" Andrew Cole said

"Leave me alone." I reply

"Wait wait wait." He said stopping me

"What!" I exclaim

"Can you start my car?" He asked

I roll my eyes and sit in his driver seat and turn the key, the car started and turned off again,

"Can you do it again?" He asked

I turn back the key and started the car again, same thing,

I get out of the front seat and close the door to walk to the front of the car,

"I don't know what happened." Andrew Cole says putting his hand on his face

I turn on my phone flashlight and shine it at the engine,

"What are you doing Mallas?" Andrew Cole asks in despair

"My brother was good with cars, and I helped him out when he needed it," I continue looking around and found my way to the battery of the car and laugh,

"Your battery is dead, you'll need to jumpstart it." I explain

I look back and Andrew Cole still had his hand on his face,

"Do you have a car?" He asked

I laugh,

"No. I walk home everyday." I said

"Looks like you'll have someone to keep you company on the walk from now on until I fix my car." Andrew Cole said closing his hood and locks the door

"No, you can call yourself an Uber." I said and start walking

"Hey!" He said chasing after me

"Andrew Cole you're retarded." I state

"Just like your other friends." He smiled

"We are not friends." I said

"That's rude." He said

We continued talking and he walked me home, I lay in bed thinking,

Andrew Cole Redley, walked me home. Why can't I wrap my head around that? He's being strange, looking out for me and just being nice. Not to mention the fact that he speaks French. Ugh I need to talk to Sky.