Chapter thirty-one: Show me

O L I V I A

Kai called me and convinced me to come to his place after work. I wasn't feeling very well, still reeling from my anxiety attack and I knew Sam was at her parents' so I didn't need much convincing anyway. I took the elevator up and rang the bell. Kai opened it almost immediately.

He greeted me with a hug. "I gave you the key, mon amour. You can use it."

"Okay," I mumbled, clinging onto him tightly.

"What is wrong?" He murmured in my ear, shutting the door closed as he pulled me inside.

"Nothing," I muttered. "Just stay like this for a while."

"Livvy . . . "

"Please, Kai," I begged.

"Alright. Walk to the couch with me?" He asked gently.

"Hmm," I agreed, making my legs move. When we collapsed on the couch, I climbed on his lap and hugged him tightly again. He squeezed my middle and patted my back comfortingly.

"Wanna talk about it?" He questioned after a while.

I took a deep breath.

"No," I admitted. "But I should. I promised I would. I don't want to fight, though."

"Okay," he kissed my shoulder, "I'm listening."

"So, someone was pretty explicit with me today. And I have been getting envelopes with bitchy articles about us on my desk every day this week," I told him. I felt him stiffen under me.

"Did they physically harm you?" He asked, his voice having a dangerous edge to it.

"No," I breathed. I felt some of his tension evaporate.

"Why haven't you done anything about the envelopes yet?" He questioned quietly. "You mentioned it earlier this week as well. Report your boss them. I'm sure they would do something even if you guys don't get along."

I almost felt like I was ten and was complaining about bullies.

"I didn't want to make a big deal out of this, but I can't take it anymore." I whimpered.

"I know this seems a lot now but trust me this will blow over." He hugged me closer.

"I hate this," I murmured. "Plus you seem to be hiding something from me, too. It's too much, Kai."

He stiffened under me. "Do you trust me?"

I clicked my tongue in frustration. "Why the fuck do you think I'm still here?"

"Li-"

"You know what?" I exploded. "They think that I'm the one coming in between you two. They hate me. Even my coworkers are talking behind my backs and calling me a homewrecker."

I wanted to tell him about Charlotte and Michael, but I was scared of his reaction so I left it out.

"Jane and Brian?" He asked hesitantly.

"No." I pulled back to face him. "They know now. But the others?"

"What do you care what the others think?" He asked.

"I do," I said simply. "I fucking do."

"Then don't," he coaxed. "That will bring you peace."

I hated how we were running in circles.

"Kaison," I shook my head in frustration, "It's not that simple."

"Why not?"

"Because to the world, you are hers!" I nearly shrieked. "And the world matters to me."

"I am yours," he tried to placate me. "You know I am."

I felt the emotions I had been trying to bottle bubble up to the surface as I burst out like a dormant volcano.

"Are you?" I cried. "Because every time I see those articles and blogs, I feel like I intruded on something I had no right to even look at."

"Oh, mon amour." He pulled me to him, looking tormented. "I love you. I am yours. I promise."

I clenched my eyes shut, fisting the fabric of his shirt in my hands. I inhaled his scent and tried to stop my mind from racing in the wrong direction. Kai was mine. I was his. Period.

But the fire in my veins wanted more. It wanted more assurance. It wanted to stake its claim. And so I pulled back and smashed my lips to his hungrily. He responded almost immediately, seeming to understand what I wanted and what my body needed. He started slow and hesitant, keeping me in check almost as if giving me time to back out whenever I wanted to. But I didn't want to back down and he caught on fast enough. It didn't take long for it to escalate from there.

His hands traced the curve of my waist deliciously before it came to rest on my lower back, pulling my body closer against him. His lips moved against mine in a dance as old as time. His hand cupped my face and his thumb stroked my cheekbone as his lips worked their magic on my mouth. His breath fanned my cheeks and that made my breathing stutter almost embarrassingly.

My hands were around his neck, one busy crushing his face to mine and while the fingers of the other tangled in his unruly hair. His hand was clenching the fabric of my dress at my back and so it was hiking up slowly. He didn't seem to notice, keeping up his assault on my lips. I couldn't breathe and I was getting light-headed, but pulling back then seemed like a sin. It felt unfathomable. He was my drug and I would never deny him.

When he removed his mouth from mine, a grunt of protest broke free from my mouth, only to be cut short by a moan that escaped me when his lips trailed down the side of my lips, down my jaw to my neck, leaving a trail of blazing kisses in their wake. My eyes hooded shut and fell back in ecstasy. He took full advantage of that, and finally found my sweet spot and nibbled on the skin there.

Ah, that was definitely going to leave a mark.

"Kai . . . " I moaned as sensation after sensation overwhelmed me to the point where I was gasping for air. In response, he groaned before covering my mouth with his again.

"Fuck, you feel so good," he muttered against my lips. "I love you so much."

"I love you," I mumbled back breathily. "You have no fucking idea how much."

Without breaking the kiss, he gently guided my head to tilt to the angle he wanted. He pulled back just a little, pulling my lower lip between his, sucking on it. My legs turned to jelly and my brain lost all its thoughts. All it knew was Kai and the way he made me feel.

When my legs literally quivered, he chuckled. The vibrations did strange things to my body. His arm tightened around my waist as mine moved to his shoulder to stabilize me. His hands went down my sides, down to the back of my thighs. Sensing what he wanted, I tried to help him, wrapping my legs around his waist and locking my ankles as he got up and started moving.

He stopped when we entered his room and reached the bed, laying me down gently. I unwinded my legs from around him as he climbed on top of me. We shifted till we were comfortably in the middle of the huge bed. Never once did our skins lose contact.

When our kiss resumed, I roamed my hands over his torso, feeling him just as he felt me earlier. But I quickly got frustrated. My fingers pried around till they found the hem of his t-shirt and tugged it upwards. He broke the kiss momentarily and quickly threw it off in one fluid motion, coming back to kiss me again.

While his tongue plundered my mouth, my hands traced his abs which shivered under my touch. I moaned again when his teeth bit my lip slightly but his tongue was quick to soothe the ache that his teeth left behind. My breathing faltered again.

"You like that, don't you?" He asked, still feeling me around with his mouth and hitting all the right spots.

"Yeah," I cried, gripping his shoulder as he detoured back to my neck. My body arched up involuntarily but his hands pushed me down again. For some reason, that turned me on even more. "Fuck."

"We should stop." He breathed heavily against my neck. "I won't be able to hold back much longer."

"Then don't," I whispered. His body stiffened.

He looked up at me. "I'm serious," he rasped with evident effort.

"So am I." I pulled the hair at the nape of his neck. "Show me you're mine."

"Livvy, are you sure about this?"

"Yeah," I murmured looking deep into his eyes. They looked almost black. "Now do it, Kai. Show me what you've got." I leaned in, brushing my lips against the lobe of his ear. "Don't hold back."

He shivered a little, his body trembling with tension. I pulled back to look at him with a cheeky smile. He stared at me intensely for a good ten seconds before he groaned and tugged at the bottom of my dress roughly, wordlessly telling me to take it off. I lifted my ass off the mattress to assist him.

"Your wish is my command," he said. His breath hit down my neck and the look on his face melted the remains of my gooey brain even before he began subjecting me to his sweet torture.

Little did he know that in my mind, it was the other way around.

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I woke up with the sun, feeling a weight pressing down on me. My eyes felt heavy and my body felt sore. Kai was lying diagonally across the bed with his head on my chest. His arms were wound around my middle and his legs were sticking out of the comforter, the ankle of one dangling off the bed.

I took this moment of inactivity to stare at him.

He was gorgeous.

Locks of his hair fell onto his forehead while a lot of them stuck out. They were messy from when I put my hand in them. He was breathing hard and lips- oh sweet Jesus, his lips- were still red and swollen from my kisses. They were parted slightly with sleep and that made me want to kiss them again.

As if hearing my thoughts, he stirred. His eyes squinted open and his face moved up slightly to look at me. When our eyes connected, his face broke into a sexy smirk.

"Bonjour, mon amour," he greeted me hoarsely.

"Good morning, Kai," I said, pushing his hair back from his face. His eyes closed and he hummed. Taking the hint, I kept it going for a while.

"What time is it?" He asked after a while.

"I don't know," I replied. "But I need to go home and change clothes before I show up for work."

He groaned lowly. "Do you have to?"

I sighed. "I do."

"Can't you call in sick again?"

"Nope," I told him sadly. "I have taken a lot of leaves this month."

"Bummer," he muttered.

"Tell me about it." I groaned. "I know you're loving this. I am too. But I have to get going."

"In a minute," he mumbled. "And don't stop."

"Alright." I chuckled, stroking his hair as he gripped me tighter.

"How are you feeling?" He asked.

"Great," I answered. "Why?"

"Well, you know," he trailed off. "Are you sore?"

"Ohhhh!" I laughed. "I don't know. I have to get up for that. Let's hope I'm not."

"That's futile," he muttered. "We should've stopped after round f-"

"Oh, God." I snorted, reddening. "Shut up. I'll be fine."

"When was the last time you had sex?" He asked me curiously.

"Been a while," I said thoughtfully. "A few years, actually."

His brows pulled together. "Who was it?"

"Kai." I sighed.

"I know it wasn't me." He tried to say it nonchalantly, but I could tell that it meant something to him. "Tell me."

"What's that got to do with anything?" I attempted to dissuade him "You don't even know the guy."

"So? I just want to know the name," he persisted. "You know my last too."

I exhaled in defeat. "Fine. It was when I was in college."

"Name?" He insisted.

I moaned internally. It was clear as day he was not going to let that drop.

"Gabriel," I gave in. "His name was Gabriel."

"Meh." He scoffed. "Kaison is so much better."

And just like that, all better.

I laughed, pecking his lips. "Sure." 

"Uh hun." He pulled back sulkily. "You haven't brushed your teeth."

I pulled his face to mine with my hand. "I don't care anymore."

"But now I do," he resisted.

"Kaiiii." I pouted.

He looked down at me and make sure to give him the puppy eyes. I saw his resolve break and a second later he was kissing me as if we did not do what we did last night.

"Holy shit, slow down." I giggled breathily when his mouth moved to my neck. "I have to make it work on time."

"Fuck," he cursed, leaving one last hickey before he pulled back and lay down on his back beside me. His chest moved up and down rapidly. I pulled the sheets up to my shoulder and curled up next to him. His face turned to kiss the top of my head.

"Will you have breakfast here?" He asked.

"Hmm, I don't know. Maybe. Depends on what time it is. Speaking of--" I detached myself from his side with much effort, making sure the covers were around me as I sat up. "--I need to start my day."

"Me too." He pulled himself up with a groan, picking up his boxers and putting them on. Then he walked over to my side and just stood there, watching me. I had made no effort to move, feeling lazy. 

The concern in his eyes made me roll mine, propelling me into action. I swung my legs over to the ground and stood up. I stumbled immediately, wincing when a sharp sting radiated from down there. Kai, caught me instantly, prepared.

Why the fuck did I insist we keep going despite knowing my body wouldn't be able to take it? I am a fucking idiot. 

I colored up, closing my eyes. Embarrassed was an understatement. "Umm."

"I knew it!" He swore. "Be more careful, Livvy."

Too late, bub.

"Don't worry," I squeaked at him, opening my eyes and staring at my feet. "I'll be fine in a while. I just, uh, need to walk around and get used to the feeling."

"Are you sure?" He sat me on the bed and gathered all my clothes and handed them to me.

"Yeah," I didn't meet his eyes, "I'm sure."

"Okay," he replied hesitantly. "You need my help getting there?" He pointed to his bathroom door.

"Nope," I popped the 'p'. "I'll be fine."

I stood up under his watchful gaze, this time prepared for the sting, and waddled into the bathroom. I worked slowly, putting on my clothes and then I unlocked the door.

I washed my face which was tinged with a reddish hue. My blue eyes were sparkling bright. My eyes trailed down to my neck and the color in my cheeks intensified at the number of love bites waiting to be covered with a concealer. I thanked God I had one in my purse. I usually used it to hide my dark circles.

I pulled my mussed hair back into a claw clip and surprisingly, more hickeys came into view. I shook my head to clear it of the stupid self-conscious thoughts and got to work. I used the brush that Kai had given me the last time I had come and brushed my teeth. Just then Kai came in, taking his own brush and starting his routine, this time with his sweats on. His chest was still bare and I could see the marks I left there too. I could only imagine how his back looked like and that made me wanna run and hide.

One look into his eyes and I knew he knew what I was thinking. They were twinkling with mischief. I averted my gaze, overcome with shyness and he was quick to get my attention back by nudging my shoulder with his and winking at me through the mirror. That made me snort and my shyness evaporated again.

A few minutes later, we were sitting in the kitchen as he made pancakes and I watched him. We ate together. We did the dishes and then resorted to talking on his balcony. Keeping a keen eye on the time, I sighed when I realized that I really couldn't stay any longer.

"You need to go," Kai deduced from my expression. He didn't even have to look at the time himself.

"Am I that transparent?" I asked him. In response, he just shrugged.

I got up and made sure that all my belongings were in my purse and then I turned to Kai. I put on my slip-ons. I was planning on wearing them till the blisters healed, fuck the heels. Together we walked out of his apartment and called for the elevator.

I smiled at him. "See you tomorrow."

"What? Why not tonight? After I'm done with my PT?" He frowned. "Better yet, you could come with!"

"I can't," I said apologetically. "I promised Sam I'd spend time with her."

"Is there any way I can kidnap you?" He asked as it arrived and the doors dinged open.

"Without being caught? Nope." I laughed. "Bye, babe." I kissed his cheek.

"Bye," he kissed the corner of my mouth. "Have a great day, mon amour. Take care."

I grinned at him, knowing I was glowing and also knowing that he was the one who had caused it. "You too."

The elevator doors closed on the smiling face of the love of my life. I was giddy.

This is what I've been missing all these years.

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A/N:-

They did it. Yup. Finally. Now you guys can fill the comments with 'robbed' because well, I did rob you of some hot smut. I'm one vicious minx, aren't I? *laughs evilly*

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xoxo.