BACK - 2

The sun is setting.

I sit and watch. I watch it go and I watch the moon rise. I watch how the sun gives the moon light, keeping the night sky as lit as possible. I used to find it eerie when I was younger, yet now I feel...serene.

Emma used to give me light, I just wished I told her that.

I'm broken out of my thoughts as she puts her arm on my shoulder, making me turn around.

"Are you okay?" I nod slowly, and she smiles .

She takes a seat besides me, before holding my head in her hands, "Good. Now are you seriously okay?"

I shake my head.

She doesn't say anything, except she holds me. I hug her and bury my face in her shoulder to hide it, so she doesn't see my tears falling from my red stained eyes. The tears that are full of regret because I was stupid.

Emma's probably moved on now, she probably got tired of waiting for me. Waiting for her boyfriend but more importantly supposed best friend.

Best friends don't do what I did. They don't put each other in pain, they're supposed to take it away. They're supposed to help, not add to the problems we all face in life. I was possibly the worst best friend she could've ever had.

I don't know what my eighteen year old self was thinking.

I had a close-to-perfect life.

A future set. I saw Emma in that future, yet I let her get away. I went away.

The guilt kills me every day. It's like a shadow, except it doesn't go away when it's dark. It's there through it all to taunt me and tease me. To remind me that Emma isn't mine anymore and it's all my damn fault. I did it all to myself.

I'm the only one to blame for the misery I've felt all these years.

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Author's Note: Issac :(

YOU: WHO THE HELL IS THIS 'SHE'?

ME: Smirks evilly I told you there's SO much to come in this book ;)

BYE!