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August, 2016 :

'There's a little mole on his eyelid.',Seokjin noted,a small smile gracing his lips as he wiped off the sprinkle of tear from the corner of his left eye.

Soothing streaks of moonlight seeped through the only window of the cottage and drenched Taehyung with it's silvery glow.

Seokjin sniffled quietly,chuckling at the way he had been staring at the younger's sleeping form for who knows how long.

The boy looked even more gorgeous under the moonlight.His red bangs falling upon his eyelids,brows knitted in the tiniest frown,long eyelashes sprawled across his eyebags,making him look like a delicate little being.

Seokjin's eyes landed on the mole upon the tip of Taehyung's nose. The small grail-like imperfection giving the boy an even more adorable look.

His sharp nose,thin,pink lips which were looking a bit reddish at that moment,another mole on the lower one,his chiseled jaw and chin,every other feature of the younger was trapping Seokjin's gaze bit by bit.

Gorgeous would be an understatement,Taehyung was looking ethereal.

Seokjin chuckled once again,rubbing the bridge of his nose to wipe off a single drop of tear pooled at the spot.

He exhaled an unstable breath and bit down on his own lower lip while gazing at the mole on Taehyung's swollen one.

It called him in,drowning all of his senses in a soft,sweet temptation. And Oh was he giving in?

Licking his lips,Seokjin tried to divert his attention anywhere else.He scoffed at himself.

'Since when have you lost your resistance,Kim Seokjin?!'

'Since tonight.',a meek voice answered inside his mind as he looked back at the younger infront of him.

For heaven's sake! How was he supposed to control himself when the boy's lips were formed into a small, endearing pout?!

'Darn it!',he decided before slowly leaning towards the pair of soft,supple flesh.

He stopped a few inches away from the younger's mouth,inhaling a small amount of breath,contemplating as his eyebrows furrowed.

A couple of seconds later,something happened that Seokjin wasn't expecting at all!

He was still in a dilemma,when Taehyung,whose eyes were completely closed,leaned in on his own and connected both of their lips.

Seokjin jolted on his spot in surprise,his eyes fluttered close as he started reciprocating almost in instinct.

The younger's left hand reached out for him underneath the single blanket they were sharing. He clutched at the curve of Seokjin's tiny waist, pulling him closer while their lips were busy in clashing with each other.

"You weren't asleep?!",Seokjin gasped for air,lolling his head to the side to give Taehyung the access to his bruised neck.

The boy never answered though.He slid his right hand beneath the older's waist instead and lifted him up.

Seokjin yelped,grabbing Taehyung's forearms for support when he was being settled upon the other's chest all of a sudden.

Nibbling on his lips,he peered down at the younger who was gazing up at him with an unreadable look in his sharp eyes.

"You okay?",Taehyung finally worded out as he caressed Seokjin's hair gently.

The older averted his gaze.

"Y-yeah...why?",he muttered, closing his eyes because the boy's fingers,which were now grazing the side of his neck, were leaving a trail of goosebumps on their way.

-"Do you have someone,Seokjin?"

Seokjin's eyes opened in a quite wide way.

"I wouldn't have been here if I had,Taehyung.",he frowned, voice a bit stern as he answered.

Taehyung smiled in a way that seemed a bit sad to the older.

"I know... What I meant is that... Do you have someone in you heart whom you can't have in your arms?",he asked again, eyes searching something inside the other's caramel brown orbs.

"No...",Seokjin mumbled.

"No?",the younger raised his brows, tilting his head a little and Seokjin felt as if the younger could actually see his soul and hear his every little silent thought.

"I- I don't know...",he breathed,swallowing the uncomfortable feeling in his throat.

"You....don't know...? What is making you so unsure, Jin-ssi?",Taehyung asked softly, caressing Seokjin's arm and hip in small circles.

"Me...",the older confessed, shutting his eyes as he hugged Taehyung as firmly as he could,resting his head upon the younger's chest.

"I'm so confused at times... I...don't even know if I...like him the way I'm assuming or not."

"I don't know whether.... whether I want him or just want to want him..."

Seokjin rubbed his cheek against the younger's chest when he felt Taehyung's hands kneading the muscles of his back.

"What if I actually don't have such feelings towards him? What if...what if my heart is just desperate to have someone?I'm so...so confused!"

"Have you ever tried to confess your dilemma to him?",Taehyung asked,his voice calm and tender as he stroke Seokjin's nape.

"N-no...I don't want to.He is someone... really close to me.I don't want to ruin what we have between us just because of my confused soul!I had never thought of him like this before.I have no idea what just happened to my mind all of a sudden!",the older's voice wavered, a lump forming in his throat,the ends of his lips tugging down.

-"I think it would be easier for you to understand your own feelings if you tell him everything..."

-"But-"

-"Because if you don't... The 'what ifs' and 'maybes' will haunt you forever..."

"And I guess, that's even more disturbing than a heartbreak..."

"I know! Gosh you're not the psychology student! I am!",Seokjin whined,smiling at the way Taehyung chuckled softly.

"Now you tell me!",he lifted up his head and looked at the younger's face.

"Do you have anyone in your heart?!"

Taehyung tipped up his chin,gazing at the ceiling, pretending to think hard.

"Actually... No."

"Really?! With that face of yours?!",Seokjin blurted.His eyes twitched in embarrassment when the younger smirked a little.

Taehyung shook his head.

"There had been a lot of flings but...never found anyone whom I could give everything of mine."

"Why?",the older mused, doe eyes staring at Taehyung with curiosity filled inside them.

"Never found that magic in anyone.",the boy shrugged,earning a giggle from Seokjin.

"What magic?!",The older tilted his head to the side,the corners of his eyes crinkling as he continued giggling in amusement.

Taehyung remained silent, observing every minute details of the older's face intently.

"Can you do something for me,Seokjin?",he requested instead and Seokjin stilled.

Taehyung's eyes watered and his Adam's apple bobbed up as he swallowed.

"Can you please be sure about what you exactly want? Whether you want...him or not?"

"Please...",his voice was so small and his wide eyes so glassy,that Seokjin couldn't help himself from leaning in and capturing the younger's lips.

Taehyung exhaled a shaky breath,lips chasing the other's in a sudden desperation.

Seokjin couldn't understand what exactly got into him all of a sudden that he bit the younger's bottom lip and tugged at it slightly.

Taehyung squeezed his waist as a reply before flipping their positions,causing Seokjin to gasp.

"I thought you said that you will let me go once the rain stops?",the older panted, grasping the other's arms in anticipation when Taehyung widened his smooth,bare legs, placing them on his shoulders.

"I thought you said that you don't want to waste this night?",Taehyung retorted, running his hands all along Seokjin's torso.

He looked at Seokjin's eyes searchingly, brows furrowing in a silent question.

The older relaxed his head on the pillow and sighed,which followed by a quick nod.

And that was all the younger needed to align himself infront of Seokjin's warm,still wet cavern.

Their lips rubbed against each other when Taehyung pounded inside Seokjin.

Broken moans and inhumane growls erupted from their throats as they inhaled each other's breaths and exhaled in each other's mouths.

Seokjin's hands found their way towards the younger's face,whimpering in over sensitivity while he thumbed the tears away from both of his cheeks.

With Taehyung's lips on his own,his large hands roaming over every inch of his body,a number of shallow, labored breaths in his lungs and a racing heart inside his chest,Seokjin realized something that his mind refused to admit at that moment.

He didn't want that night to end.

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