Maya was not happy at all when I told her what happened with dad. She was ready to throw hands but Mingi kept holding her back from storming out the house. I kept telling her I was over it but she said that doesn't matter because she's not over it.

So here I am on a Saturday afternoon cooking frozen shrimp pasta. I rub my stomach humming a soft tune. The other day at Haechan's house his parents surprisingly embraced me and said they can't wait to see the baby.

That's if it's even Haechan's.

I shake my head. I promised the boys I wouldn't stressed anymore because that day took a serious toll on me. Part of me is kind of worried because today is the mayor's luncheon meaning Changkyun and Jungkook have to deal with a bunch of stuck up politicians.

Ever since the movies Wooyoung has been texting me everyday if not every other. He's a nice distraction for all of this but he doesn't deserve to be a distraction. Then we have Jaehyun and Woosung who I don't really know their motives.

I curl up on the couch with my pasta while Cinderella 2 plays on the screen.

You know this is what I call self care! A quiet house, a good movie, decent enough food and me. The baby hasn't made me throw up in a day or so, so that's great! I've finally came to grips with the fact my dad is shitty, so growth? I don't know about y'all but I'm killing this life thing!

You don't know who your child's father is..

Those intrusive thoughts will humble you every time.

After finishing my food, I scroll for a bit on twitter and instagram. Nothing too interesting except the fact Mark and Haechan decided to go on a hike knowing how much they both hate walking.

So I am confusion.

I pause my scrolling once I see a picture of the Mayor's luncheon. Changkyun, his parents, and Clover all pose for a picture. He doesn't look happy in the slightest. A little further down is a picture of Jungkook, his parents, and the mayor. He doesn't look as miserable as Changkyun but it's still there.

The more I got to know them the more I felt for them. Portraying an image sounds exhausting, I mean hiding this pregnancy from my mom was tiring enough.

I hear a few knocks at the door. I'm not even that far along but I feel like I still have a faint waddle when I walk. I open the door and gasp. Jin smiles politely before bowing.

Jin: I got three doors slammed to the face before I remembered what apartment was yours.
Me: What're you doing here?
Jin: You're coming to the luncheon with me.

I choke on air.

Me: I'm what?

His right hand has three bags of dresses.

Jin: The luncheon hurry up and let me in.

I step aside and he lays each bag carefully on the couch.

Jin: None of these are bodycon. I know you don't have a belly yet but I'm pretty sure something like that would be uncomfortable.

He laughs.

Jin: Oh my gosh imagine wearing a skin tight dress and your baby decides to kick. The whole party is going to scream what the fuck is that while running.

He's tickled with himself and I'm confused.

Me: Why am I coming to this luncheon?
Jin: You're coming as my plus one.
Me: Does Jungkook know?
Jin: Now where's the fun in that?
Me: Jin!

He sighs.

Jin: As much as I love my brother I need him to grow up enough to where he can face my parents. Seeing you there might put a little fire under his tail. I want him to know he shouldn't be afraid, he doesn't have to be.

So much for selfcare.

I eyeball the dresses carefully.

Me: I'll take the black chanel and you're not getting it back.
Jin: Deal!

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Oh man you ever walk in somewhere and know you don't belong?

Jin: Bring your confidence back up. If you sink low they'll sniff you out like a wolf looking for a lamb.

On our way deeper into we're stopped by a few people so they can say hi to Jin. They compliment me on the process but I don't know if it's real or a sarcastic snobby one.

"Is this your girlfriend?"

"How cute?"

"Who's daughter are you?"

Or they just stare in awe like I'm a new exhibit at a zoo.

The closer we get to his parents the more my knees turn into jello. "Tighten up" is what he keeps whispering so I do deep breaths. Jungkook notices us before them and his whole body turns red, his eyes widen to the size of saucers.

Jin: Dad, Mom.
Mrs.Jeon: Jin darling you're late.
Jin: I was picking up my friend Jasmine.
Me: Nice to meet you both.
Mr.Jeon: Jasmine how do you do?

How do you do? I thought people only said that in cartoons.

Me: Great, how are you?
Mr.Jeon: Fantastic. How long have you known Jin?
Jin: Don't turn this into an interrogation dad.
Mr.Jeon: Is it a crime to know about my son's friends?
Jin: Yes, Jk come with us to get some wine.

Jungkook grabs us both by the arm and speed walk off.

Jungkook: She can't have wine and what is she doing here?
Jin: I'm trying to push you into telling our parents.
Jungkook: Right here? Right now? Are you insane!
Jin: Not right now, I mean unless you want to make headlines.

He's so unserious.

Jungkook: I'll tell them when I'm ready.
Jin: Which is?
Jungkook: Whenever I'm ready!
Jin: Well you better do it soon, mom dreamt of fish last night.
Jungkook: No!
Jin: Yes!

I stand there confused.

Jin: Old time saying that when you dream of dish someone close to you is pregnant but in this case..

He looks at Jungkook.

"What the hell?"

I turn around and wave shyly at Changkyun.

Changkyun: What're you doing here?
Me: Jin's idea.
Jin: Oh yeah I forgot your number two. Maybe this will make you hurry up too.
Changkyun: Are you insane?
Jungkook: Yes he is!

Jin shrugs.

Jin: I think it'll be nice to know how your parents feel about you having a baby now versus when that child comes. If the parent saids evil things before it's born then you'll know how to act accordingly when it's born.

We all go silent, he's right.

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had to start writing to get me out of that depressed funk. it's 2:30am and here i am