Dean pov
Do you know how long it have been since I saw Briannna? Hmm? I'll tell you how long it has been, it has been two damning months! TWO WHOLE MONTHS WITHOUT SEEING THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!! And not to mention hearing from her. I know she isn't dead, Nikki would have told me and WWE would be holding tribute to her already. So death is off the counter. How does she know I'm not dead? She won't even do so much as call, text, email, Facebook me. Hell! I have even become more active on Twitter trying to find out what she is up to! But Nikki mostly operates their Twitter now.

I lay on the ground kicking up, this still drives me insane and everyday like a sickness it get worse! I have tried drinking, but all it does is make illusions of her and not get rid of her like I hope it would. I can't so drugs due to WWE strict rules and for dam sure, I'm not losing my woman and my job! I have a some sense.
If I want all the pain to go away she is the only one that can make it go. She is like a cure to my sickness and a cure I need VERY badly. So badly I'm thinking about killing just to get her! She makes everything better, makes life not look like the shit it really is, she makes it realistically amazing.
You know what I need? A shot of whiskey straight to my heart! Yeah, that will be great, I don't know if it is unfortunate or not but she is the shot. I need her so badly! How could she do this to me! I'm not one to cry but tears are rushing down my face as I drag my butt to a corner where I sit, back press to the wall, feet stretch out and hands covering my face and tugging at my hair. She was so strong, so beautiful, so her. She is the one.
The worst part of it all, is that if she comes rushing in now, suitcase in hand, wedding ring off, saying she divorced Bryan for me. I'd do something dumb and leave her. I tell her 'well go back to Bryan' because my pride is way to huge.
"Ahhh! Shit life, then, now and forever! Right universe?" I take my frustration out on the universe, not giving a damn.

Brie pov

Here I lay with Bryan in Mexico where some of my ancestors came from, judging from the fact I'm Mexican-Italian. In my bed, I watch as he peacefully snore. He has been looking much more happy and I'm happy for that but I'm much more sad. Truth be told I miss Dean and hell of a lot. Sure, I love Bryan but Dean was like my happy little pill. The only person who can brighten up my day. Happy little pill, Dean is still a pill though. Overdose on it and you feel like your dying, it can kill you, it makes you feel all upset and woozy. But take the percribe amount and it is like the only thing you need, it makes you feel hell of a lot better. I don't know if the water I take it with is contaminated but he does have side effects of making me also feel like shit and a scumbag. But I take it still, because well it makes me feel so damn good. Maybe, I'm scared if I'm with him 100% I'll get overdose on him, or maybe it is because I love Bryan so much, or maybe it is because I don't want to hurt Bryan's heart, or it could be faith. Either one of those things is keeping me from being with Dean 100%.

I look out the window and at the ocean view, smiling. He could make a war seem so easy, whereas me one kiss can make me come undone. Wish I could be strong like him.
I feel like crap for not contacting him in no way, but can you blame me?! I want to keep him off my mind, get away from the feelings. But it is like he is the only thing that can take the horrible feelings away from me. No alcohol or drugs could ever do that but Dean can. I am getting paranoid. Everyone with blue eyes or his color hair I see I smile because I think it is him but they aren't. I know what I need to do.

I got up from the bed and head to the bathroom, using the toilet, showering, brushing my teeth, doing my hair, applying a bit of make-up and getting dress. I walked back out to the bedroom. "Hey, why are you up so early?" Bryan asked and I bit my lip, I was hoping to write him a note and tell in that but I guess this is good to, harder but good. "Bryan, I love you, you know that. But you aren't the only person I love, I'm going to go back, find that person and stay with them for a week. I need to sort out my feelings, Bryan. Trust me, it is nothing you did. It is just that I don't think it is fair to you. I lied to you so much and I don't want to hurt you anymore. I know you were happy when I came on this trip with you. I'm happy to be with you but not fully. So here is the deal, if I come back after the week I'm all yours, you are the one I want. If not, I'm sorry Bryan." Tears rolled down our cheeks, it is heart breaking but I need to do this, I grab my suitcase and put some clothes that I wore in it, since it had the rest of my stuff is already in there. "Brianna, you say it wasn't me. Are you sure? Did I do something wrong?" His voice, so weak, so hurt, so desperate..... So heartbreaking. I walked over to him and pick up my laptop, I smiled weakly at him. "No, Bryan. Because of my ways it seemed to be the things you did but it isn't, I was just looking for excuses to make myself feel better. You are amazing. Hey, don't be to down on yourself, I just need to figure things out. If when I do it is you, I'll be yours....... If you allow me too, that is." I kissed his forehead and put my electronics in my shoulder bag. Seems like I got everything. "of course I will wait. Even though you did cheat on me, my love for you will over power the betrayal I feel. By you doing this, makes me feel better that you actually want to figure out your feelings for me. When you do and you come back, know I'll take you back." He wipe tears from his eyes only for fresh ones to come out. I don't know how to feel about what he just said. One hand I'm happy he will be able to take me back and he forgives me already. On the next, I'm piss off he thinks I'll come back to him, but it is cute how much confidence he has. But between it all I feel guilty and selfish since I'm actually doing this for myself. I inhaled deeply and send him a small smile.

"Later Bryan" bye, is for the dead and those who aren't coming back
"Later Brianna" with that I walked through the door and send him an air kiss which he put in his pocket and it made me laugh. After that all he saw was my ponytail swinging from side to side.

I'm going to get to Dean even if I don't know where he is staying. I got in a car which drove me to an airport where I'm hoping I'd get a flight today.

(A/n so I really love this chapter ❤️ hope you did too. I think this may be my favorite chapter on the book.)