Unki surgery main complications hai ..  jaan ka risk bhi hai ... Already she is in last stage ...

Unki heart ki nerve black hoti jaa rhi hai ... Clots ban rahe hai ..  we are trying ... But ajj extra dosage ki waja se unki halat or bigad rahi hai ...

She isn't showing ... Even it is a miracle ke wo us condition main bhi has rahi hai ...

I have seen many cases jaha log apne jeene ki wajah ummeed hi haar jate hai ...

Doctor said as he looked at her ... She was laughing ..  and talking with everyone ... But is it by heart ? ...

Does she even wants to live ? .... No ....she don't want to .. 

She knows her detoriating condition and she just wants to spend her last times ... Laughing and making memories

WO HAS TOH RAHI HAI ... PAR APNA DARD CHUPANE KE LIYE ...

WO MUSKURA RAHI HAI ... PAR WO KHUSH NHI...

USSE APNI PADI HI NHI ... STILL SHE JUST WANTS HER SURROUNDINGS AND HER PEOPLE TO BE POSITIVE ABOUT HER ... BUT ON THE Other SIDE SHR DON'T WANTS ANYONE TO BE BOTHERED ABOUT HER ...

hd could see what doctors can't... The level of sadness her eyes show ..  it broke his heart ...

It wasn't like that he felt pity over her. ...no ... It's not true ...

On the first look of her's he felt attracted ...

But her innocence which is making his heart fell for her slowly ...

But is it all right? ...

Is it right ? ... What he is thinking about her ? ... For the very first time when he saw her he immediately felt his heart at peace ...

Though how much he tried but he noticed her looking at him longingly ...

How he tried not to care but still ... His heart wasn't ready .. 

Today he broke her heart he knows he is at damn fault just because his first love betrayed him ... It doesn't meant like he will break anyone say anything to anyone in his anger ...

He knows that this marriage is just a responsibility upon him ... Which he couldn't understand...

But today ... He wasn't ready ... He was not ready to see her loose her breath her life ...

He wasn't ready when he thought that she is maybe no more when she was not responding

Hus heart was literally bursting ... Not with guilt ....but with the fear ...

The fear of loosing her ....the fear of not adoring her from away ...

After being on the verge of loosing his everything in his life ... He couldn't even thought to loose more ...

When. .. he didn't even got that ...

Usse paane se pehle hi kyu usse khone ki aas rakhu
Main kyu kisi or ka hokar uska hone ka usse ehsaas karu

Bohot shikwe honge is zindagi se mujhe .. 
Kyu usse khokar main phir khud ko tabah Karu ?

Kyu ? ....he whispered... Kept his hand on the glass ... They are so near yet so far ..  but I'd he in the right state of mind to come closer to her ? ...

No ... Hr is not ... Everything around him is happening in a rush which is somewhere making him nervous about anything and everything

He is damn impulsive... And anxious but hides it perfectly with the calmness spread over his face

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Kaisi ho ? .... He entered in her ward where she was resting ....

She was laying straight her eyes closed ...

But by her body language he could sense that she isn't sleeping ...

Her right leg was continuously moving in a different manner ...

Dhe was scared anxious and nervous ...

The hospital is suffocating her ...

She opened her eyes her heart beating faster ... As she felt him ...

His voice ... The amount of peace his presence and his voice held ....she just can't explain it in words ...

His presence is her serenity ...

Her peace and her prosperity ...

Tumhare ehsaas ko hi apna sukoon banaya Maine ... Jahan dekha sirf wahi tumko paya maine ...

Maana faaslein kahi hazar hai tere mere darmiyaan ... Phir bhi khwabo main tujhe har waqt apne pass paya maine ❤️

Mai ... Main thik hu ....she tried sitting stammered anxiously as his presence suddenly made her feel alot of emotions

The incident in the morning rushed through her mind making her ever so vulnerable

How much she is trying to control over herself ... But she couldn't...

Because somewhere or the other her heart is not accepting the fact that he can never be her's ...

Because the way she loved her ....somewhere in her heart she accepted her his ...

She knows it is wrong ... But still she couldn't understand... It is a human nature ... She knows with all her heart that she don't have any right over him ...

But still ...  somewhere in the corner ....there are lots of wishes ..  she wants to complete before dying ...

But she accepted that her wishes will always be buried inside her heart and her diary ...

Maine Maan liya tu mera nhi ... Ye jaan liya ttu khush hai mere bina ...

Phir kyu ye Dil mera tarasta hai tere deedar ko ? ... Phir kyu tere saath itni ichayein baandh rakhi hai maine ? ..

Nafrat toh door ki baat meri mohobbat toh ek tarfa reh gyi mujhe iska gila Tak nhi ...

Yun aitbaar kar tu mujh par ... Tere siwa toh ye dil mera bhi nhi ❤️

He held her frame ... And made her sit properly ...

Without making her uncomfortable with his touch ....she didn't even flinched when he touched her ...

Because she has already submitted her everything to him ...

He has right on her ... But she don't have any ...

She looked at his face close to hers ... She wanted to engulf him in her eyes ...

Tujhe nazro se dekhna hi toh sirf dekhna nhi ...
Teri yaad bhi toh tere deedar ka ehsaas karati hai mujhe ❤️

She was in her own world of serenity ... When suddenly jerked out remembering what happened in the morning ...

"Meri zindagi main tumhari koi jagah nhi hai "

"Mujhse koi ummeed mat rakhna"

"Main tumse kabhi bhi pyaar nhi kar paunga ..."

Her eyes welled up painfully as she moved back ...

He looked at her ... Before she could hide he already saw her in tears ..

Kya hua ? ... Pain hai ? ... He asked ...

She looked at him ...tried to smile but failed miserably... She looked down and nodded ... Trying to cover up not wanting him to know the truth ...

Jhut bol rhi ho ? ....he lifted her chin up with his index finger ... As soon as her innocent eyes met his hazel one his breath hitched ...

That deep brown orbs had the audacity to make his world stop just by a mere eye contact

Nhi .. thik .. thik ..hu ....she stammered moving her face away ...

He held his hand back .. and sat down on the chair near her ...

She consciously with her trembling hands moved her hairs behind her ear ...

She was feeling nervous yet good in his presence

But controlled her throbbing heart not to look desperate

Where as he patiently looked at her eyes movement

By her body language he could easily say that she is feeling conscious in his presence

He patiently waited for her to say something where as on the other hand she was waiting for him to say something ...

Umm ... He broke the silence after some moments

Sorry subha he liye. .. i mean i shouldn't have reacted that way ... Mujhe pata nhi chla ... Kuch bhi bakwas ki gusse main ...

Gusse main ? ....she whispered

Aksar log gusse main soch bol jaate hai ... Jo unke man main hota hai ... Jo wo aise hi nhi bol sakte gusse main bol jaate hai ...

She whispered looking at him with a small painful smile her eyes welled up yet her face had a smile ... a small painful smile making his heart beats louder

Aisa nhi hai ... He tried explaining when she cuts him....

Phir kaisa hai ? ... Jo alfaaz apne gusse main kahe kabhi toh unhe aapne socha hi hoga ... Jab zindagi main apki jagah thi hi nhi toh kyu shaadi ke liye haan ki ? ...

Jab aapko pata tha ke aap kabhi bhi mujhse. .. she was about to say more suddenly stopped realising what she was about to speak ...

Pyaar kar hi nhi paoge ... Her heart completed what she wanted to say in itself ...

He looked at her ... He was guilty ...

Maine samajh liya sidharth apka dard bhi ... Samajh Li apki bebasi bhi ... Maine samjhe apke unkahe alfaaz bhi ... Sab kuch ... Galti hui mujhse ... Apke mana karne ke bawajood i invaded your personal space

Tear rolled down her eyes as she looked up wiping it ...

Maine jaan ke ni kiya ... But i am really sorry ... She looked down ... Even she was guilty ... as somewhere he made her feel that she held no importance in his life ...

Nor she keeps any right over his things. .. she accepted ...

Tumhari galti nhi thi ... I know I reacted much ... He tried explaining himself ... As he knows he is not good at expressing what's inside him ...

I am really sorry ... The words I said ... Maine Kasam se dil se nhi bole ... Kabhi soche bhi nhi ... Kal raat ko bas main bohot jyada disturbed tha ... Phir ... Subha Jab wo frame toota ...

Meri frustration tum par nikal gyi sana ... I really never meant what i said ...

He said ... She looked up at him ...

Ek second chance toh sab deserve karte hai na ? ... Or abhi toh tum meri dost bhi ho ... He whispered..

The hesitation and the fear of rejection was clearly seen ...

Where as her heart melted like a burning candle ...

Dost hai ? ....she asked innocently

Hmm ....he said ... Pouting ...

Ap naraz nh ho mere se ? ....she asked ...

Main kyu naraz hounga meri jaan jab tune kuch kiya hi nhi. .. he said ... Explaining her softly ...

Phir apne kiya ? ... Uthak baithak Karo phir itna rulaya apne mere ko ....she whispered with her breaking voice ...

Making him laugh ...

Gadhiii ... He did situps for her whole she counted ... After ten shr stopped ...

Bs ... He sucked in breath huffing ...

Hm thik hai chlo maaf Kiya apko ... Waisi mere ko nhi pata mere pe kitne din hai toh naraz hokar kya karungi ....she giggles ...

Bakwas nhi Karo ... He ignored her talks ... Where as she pouted but deep down. ... he knew that it can be the reality of her life ...

The mere thought was enough to make him feel like choking ...

He is scared to loose her ... And he understood his feeling he accepted that he is scared ....why ? ....right now he don't even cared to know ...

PAAYA TOH TUJHE BOOND SA BHI NHI
OR KHONE KA DAR SAMANDAR SA HAI 💔

Though Sana forgave him... Because she couldnt stay angry with him ...

But deep down ... Her heart felt insecure and scared that maybe again he will say all that ... Will she be able to bear his hatred towards her again ? ...

No ....so she promised herself that she will try to maintain A safe distance from him ...

Si that nor he will get affected with her presence nor she will get hurt ...

But maybe Destiny has another plans as maybe his heart bloomed with some hopes when she forgave him

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I hope you all liked it ❤️

Barsado pyaar baarish ki tarah ❤️