As the new hopes bloomed in between the two of them ...

Both of them layed on the bed facing their backs to each other ... She was smiling in her own self ...

She is so happy ... She can't even express ... Some new hopes the new feelings the wishes and most importantly peace bubbled up ...

As he is finally taking steps near her ...

He accepted her as his friend... Maybe one day ... He will feel for her ... She smiled but soon her smile changes into frown ...

But ... Will she be there that day ? .... Seeing him falling in love with her.... Falling in love ... Then dieing everyday ... Will she be able to see him fall in love with her ? ...

No ... Her subconscious mind screamed making her vulnerable

His one move towards her and she already started having expectations ... But is it right ?... Her heart was heavy... As she closed her eyes ... Trying to let the darkness engulf her as once she will go in her overthinking face ...

It will again create a problem..

She turns around ... Looking at his back ... He is near her ... But still so far ...

Her heart pains... That ... She won't be able to feel his love ... But why is she even expecting that he will love her ? ...

When ... He himself confronted her not to expect anything from him ...

They are so close yet so far ...

Paas aaye dooriyan phir bhi kam na hui
Ik adhuri si hamari kahani rahi

He stares at the wall laying on his side ... His back is facing her .... A smile covered his face as some hopes bloomed ... Her innocence is something he is attracted towards the most... The way her eyes were shining some moments ago when she was with him ...

But ... Is it all right ? Is it right to adore her .... When he is still in love with someone else ... He felt attracted towards sana from.the day one when he saw her ... But

Is it right ? ....

No ... His subconscious mind screamed ...

Though how much he is hurt ... But still he loved Neha with all he could have ... That now he couldn't love anyone else ... Because... He genuinely felt for her ...

He was innocent... Too pure ... Couldn't understand her intentions.... She left him broken ... And how much he denies ... But somewhere it hurts ..

It would be so perfect ... If he got his love in his life ...

How much he tries but her memories ... That haunts him ... That has caged him that he couldn't
Move on ...

Baaton ko teri hum bhula na sake
Hoke juda hum na juda ho sake

Dil main hai zinda har ghadi tu kahi
Hoke juda hum na juda ho sake 💔

But maybe ... It was just what she is pretending to be perfect ....she never loved him ... She never reciprocated his efforts ... But he was so blind that she used to pretend and he melts under her eyes

The eyes ... Which were always filthy ... But he failed to understand....

Hus heart never felt anything looking in neha's eyes... Then why Sana ...

His heart felt so alive the moment he started in her eyes ..

His heart ...

Who depicted her longingness ...

But why ? ... He don't know...

Maybe ...

DIL KI BAATEIN DIL HI JAANE

it never happened before ... He was always not expressive... But her eyes showed some unknown emotions... The eyes which were blank ....but having some kind of longingness

Which made him restless ... he turns around ... His heart stopped ...

She was looking surreal... Sleeping so peacefully... Her eyes closed her lips quivering ... She was murmuring something ... He don't cared listening ...

His heart felt so alive just be her presence ...

Hf felt overwhelmed all of a sudden ...

She was curled up in a ball .... Her eyes closed ....her baby hairs coming infront of her face blocking his view ...

He felt irritated ... with his index finger ... Softly slides her hairs ... Aside looking at her face in pure serenity ... He felt his world stopped what more he could demand right in the moment ... Looking at her ... Her face showed immense innocence

His breath hitched ....she looked so beautiful....he never adored anyone like this before ...

A mole over her lips ... Uff ... She was looking like a fairy came downstairs from the heaven ...

He rested his hand on her cheek ... Softly caressing her cheeks with his fingers ...

He was touching her so softly ..as of she is the most precious person he is touching just like a baby ..  handling with her care touching her gently not to wake her up ...

She moved a little ... her lips curled up in a small smile as her heart could sense his closeness ...

He felt overwhelmed... But ... Something striked in his heart ... He immediately removed his hand from her cheeks getting up with a jerk ...

He is slowly loosing himself ... It's just attraction ... His subconscious mind reasoned ...

But his heart felt more restless ... To explore her more ....his heart felt to adore her ... Till eternity

His sub conscious mind immediately jerked him ... Making his heart so vulnerable

He runs his hand on back of his head ... Maybe he is angry on himself for loosing his control like this ...

Gets up ... Stares at her for the last time because something is there in her nature her positivity her bive which is attracting him.... He turned around close his eyes cursed himself for thinking like this ... Moved outside ...

She frowns In  her sleep loosing his warmth and his presence

He gets in his studio ....closing the door... Stood taking the support of the door ... turned around

He rested his back on the door ...

Leans his head back painfully ... He can't even understand why he is even attracted towards her ? ..

How painful it feel ... When he still loves someone else and yet felt attracted towards someone else .. 

He felt that as if he is betraying her ... Because somewhere or the other in his heart he still hoped that one day she will come ...and say ..

That she is guilty ... She was distracted .... And he will accept her ... Will never question her ... Because of the audacity how he loved her ....with all her could have and even somewhere his heart knows she will never come ... But he still believes somewhere ...

But ... What about her ? ... His heart asked in pure disbelief ...

Will he leave her ? ... Will he ruthlessly geartlessly break her heart even after knowing how painfull it is when the heart breaks ... But will he still break her heart ?.... even after knowing how innocent and pure she is ... His heart reasoned ...

Baaki nhi kuch
par dil na maane

Dil ki baatein dil hi jaane

He held his head low ... Holding his head in his hands it was bursting he is guilty ... That along with him ...he is destroying one more life which is of her's ... Because now ..  she is his responsibility...

And he is the one who ... Lost in the moment gave her hope ... To be friends with him ...

He leans his head back ...closing his eyes ... Drowning himself in darkness letting the exhausting sleep engulf him ...

..............

She woke up as the sunlight fell straight ... Smiled a little ... Her eyes moved as she looked here and there for him ...

Frowns not finding him ... Because it's only in the morning when she gets to adore him ...

Without any distraction ...ther is nothing in the world that could fascinate her more then his eyes. .. his deep black orbs ... Which engulf her like nothing ...

In which she wants to drown ... Her heart beats faster as she imagined staring at his eyes for eternity...

Instantly a tint appeared on her face ...

She looked down ... Sun kissed ... She was looking heavenly ...

She got up with an urge to see him ... With new hopes ...

She gets out of the room ... Not finding him ... Made her way upstairs to his studio ...

She knocked on the door ...

Whereas he was startled with the sudden noice ...

He got up opening the door ... Finding the most gorgeous lady standing infront of him.... Her one look gave him the sense of serenity which he tried finding last night ...

He cursed himself again.... He was lost in her deep blue orbs ... Which always make his heart restless ...

He stood aside giving her space to come in ... She played with her fingers anxious ... Biting and bruising her lips ... He groanf innerlu finding that innocent movement sexy ... Again cursed himself ...

She Deliberately came finding him ... But what to say ... How to start the conversation she don't know....she felt damn conscious infront of him ... More than conscious she felt shy ....

He turned around going towards his set up ...

She looked here and there ... Trying to get courage to start the conversation where as he busied himself checking something as if it is the most important

Her eyes fell over the photoframe ...

The pic ... Of him and her ... Her heart pains ...

He looked ever so happier then her ... Her heart pained ... As she realised that he could never be that much happy with her ..  she smiled painfully ...

Her feets automatically start to take step near the frame ...

But still something striked ....she had never seen him.that happy after Neha ...

Maybe after her he lost himself .... He always pretended that he is happy ... Always showed that he is calm and not hurted ...

But still there is still something inside him ....which hurts him ..and she couldn't understand... Yet his unsaid words and his eyes that speak emotions...

She couldn't deny that ... more she tries to maintain the distance the more she comes closer to him ...

She picked up the frame softly in her hands ... Looking at him closely ...

He was looking so cute laughing his heart out. .. it was moment captured when he pinned Neha on the couch ... Him above her ... He was laughing ...

She held her trembling her up ...to touch him ....she had really lost him ... Without even getting him ...

Ik khoya khoya Chand tha
Jo tha khafa khafa

Ik toota sa khwab tha
Jo tujhse tha juda

How can someone be more unlucky than her ? ...

Her eyes welled up ...

He turns around ... Felt something in his heart ... The urge ... He lookeda t her holding the frame ...

He never let anyone touch his things ... Specially those things which were damn closer to his heart ...

His eyes suddenly turned red in rage ... As he saw her holding that frame ....

Why ? ...when he never gave her the right to touch his things invade his personal space ...

She was mistaken ..  she absent mindedly... Took that frame ... Looked at it touched it ...

She was mistaken ...

Sana ... He whisper yelled in rushed voice ....she jumped on her place .... The frame collapsed woth the ground ...

Her heart is too sensitive for the sudden voices and shocks ... As the pain arises ...

She moved back ...as the voice of the breaking glass peirced her heart ... She felt sharp pain in her chest ...

He immediately sat on his knees ignoring her detoriating condition giving all his attention to the frame which broke down into peice ...

The only picture left to him ... Which is broken now ...

She opened her eyes....controlling herself ....

She stabled her condition... Looking at him ...she felt damn guilty ...

She got on her knees looking at him closely ... He was too lost ... In the scattered prices of glass just like his heart ...

He picked up the pic with his trembling hands ...jerked it softly the peices of the glass ...

Sidharth ... She called him softly ....making him come out of the thoughts ...

He looked at her blankly ...yet the look of dissapointment and anger in his eyes burnt her soul ...

Wo ...wo ...sorry ...she stammered ... Looking down ... Not able to take his gaze ...

Leave ....he didn't moved his eyes away from her ...

She looked up ... Damn guilty for hurting him ...

Sidharth wo ... She was about to speak when he got up ...

She too stood ... Looking at him ...

I said pls leave me alone ....he said closing his eyes controlling himself not to burst out on her ...

Sidharth hum ...wo usko jod sakte hai ... We can fix it ... She meowed feeling anxious deepdown knowing that her health is detoriating... Because of the sudden shock she got ...

For a normal human being ... It would be normal ....but dhris already suffering with heart disease and her condition is too sensitive because she is already on the last stage ...

Kya gox karogi yaar tum ? ... He yelled ... Looking at her ...

He keeps that pic on the table looking at her ...

KYA FIX KAROGI ?.... YE TOOTA KAANCH ISSE JOD SAKTI HO ? ...

BOLO ... KYA ISSE JOD SAKTI HO ? ... SHE FLINCHED NO ONE YELLED AT HER ... LIKR THIS SHE IS NOT HABITUAL TO THIS HARSH BEHAVIOUR

THOUGH BEING ALONE FROM CHILDHOOD STILL ROHIT HAD ALWAYS TREATED HER LIKE A QUEEN ... THOUGH HOW COOL HE IS ...BUT WHEN IT COMES TO SANA ... He cares the least about anyone ... Knowing how sensitive her freaking condition is ...

She looked down immediately flinching with his voice ...

Her body trembled out of fear ...

NAHI JOD SAKTI TUM .... NA IS KAANCH KO ...NAA MERE DIL KO ...

TOH KYU FIR MERA DARD OR BADHA RAHI HO ? ... BOLO ... MERI ZINDAGI MAIN AA KAR .. KYU MYJHE ULJHA RAHI HO ? ... BOLO ...

KYU ...

KYU MAIN TUMHARI TARAF ITNA ATTRACTED HU ? ... KYUUU ? ... HIS INNER SELF YELLED BUT HIS LIPS STOPPED LETTING THOSE WORDS OUT OF HIS MOUTH ...

Mai ... Maine ... Mai ... Kuch .nhi ...kuch ni kiya s..sachi ....she stammered ... Looking down her lips quivering

Her eyes welled up on the verge of shedding the painful tears .

SANA ... MAI JAANTA HU .. YE TUMHARE LIYE BOHOT DARD BHARA HOGA ...PAR TUMHARA YE JAANNA ZARURI HAI ...

KI MERI ZINDAGI MAIN TUNHARI KOI JAGAH NHI HAI... MAIN JAANTA HU HAMARI SHAADI HUI ... PAR MAIN TUMHE APNI BIWI NHI MAANTA ...

MAINE YE SHAADI SIRF MAA KE KEHNE PAR KI ....SO PLS MUJHSE OR MERI CHEEZO SE DOOR RAHO ...

PLS ....he whispered...the overthinking that came out as anger ... He bursted upon her breaking her heart in peices giving her the fucking reality check that he could never be her's ...

And last night ...she was dreaming that maybe one day he will love her ...

She looked up with her damn painful eyes looking at him with pain ... Making his heart scrunch up ... But he was too blind in his anger failed to register her condition

Her condition is too sensitive that loud noises make her feel pain in her chest ... Even a little stress makes her feel restless ... And painful it is to imagine how even with the loud and rageful sound ...

The pain roses up giving her the reality check that she don't have that much life left in her ...

Her life is too small for any stress but unless ....today. ..

She is heartbroken ... The way he yelled on her spoke to her ...

Tear fell down as she looked down ... Quietly wiped her tears controlling her condition

She stumbled back ... Holding the door closed her eyes ...

To control herself ... At least taking her medicines to let the pain down ...

But is there any medicine to cure a broken heart ? ...

She with damn difficulty made her way down stairs ...

Pehle kabhi na tune mujhe ghum Diya
Phir mujhe kyu tanha kar diya ?

Guzare the lamhe pyaar ke
Hamesha tujhe apna Maan ke

Toh phir tune badli kyu adah
Ye kyu kiya ?

She remembered the last night ....why he showed his concern .... When there is no space for her inn his life ...

She reached her room stumbling as soon as she closed the door she burst into loud sobs ...

Tears rolled down ... As it felt immense painful ...

His words kept ringing in her head repaeting making her vulnerable again and again ...

"MAIN TUMHE APNI BIWI NHI MAANTA"

"MERI ZINDAGI MAIN TUMHARI KOI JAGAH NAHI HAI "

"MUJHSE OR MERI CHEEZO SE DOOR RAHO"

HER heart broke again and again ...

Main nhi aayi apki zindagi main sidharth ... Main sachi apki zindagi main nhi aayi ... Aap toh mujhe jaante tak nhi the ... Na mujhe pata tha ... ke kab aap se mohobbat hui .
. Pehle laga ke ek ehsaas hai ... Ek khoobsurat sapna ... Par jab aapse mili ... Apko jaana ... Sidharth ...

Trust me ... I fell even harder

Kyu aaye mere zindagi main ? ... Mere guardian angel bankar ? ... Kyu aaye meri zindagi main hasi ban kar ? ... Mere hasne ki waja bane ... Khush rehne lagi thi main .... Jeene ki iccha thi ke marne se pehle bas ek baar aapse mil pau ... Aap ko ye bata pau ...

Ke aap sirf ek mamuli insaan nhi ho ... Mere jeene ki mere hasne ki waja ho ...

Main kya hi kisi ki zindagi main jaungi ? ...

Jab mujhe khud hi nhi pata

MERI ZINDAGI KITNI HAI

FRESH tears rolled down .... The pain in her chest was just rosing up ... earlier she felt that ... It will be less by the time ...

But due to loud voice and shocks ... The pain was just increasing ...

She stood up with difficulty

Opening the drawer ... Taking her medicines

She was feeling dizziness ... Her eyes felt heavy all of a sudden ...

As she popped up the medicines gulping it down ... Not looking how much of the dose she is taking ...

She moved back ... And fell on the bed ... Looking up absent mindedly ...

JYADA DIN NHI RAHUNGI SIDHARTH MAIN APKI ZINDAGI MAIN

Apa wakh ho Jana hai
Eh gal pakki hai

Bas sabar jaa kar layi ve

SACHI ... MERI ZINDAGI HAI HI NHI ... PAR JITNI HAI ... MAIN KOSHISH KARUNGI AAPSE DOOR RAHU ...

HER EYES WELLED UP

As suddenly felt her head bursting ... The pain grew more and more ...

She whimpered in pain ... moving on the bed trying to get her phone ...

She is having her heart burst out suddenly ...

She with much difficulty screaming out with pain ... Crying it's unbearable ...

Due to her mistake as she took high dosage of the medicine

Which side effected ... As she felt more painful already the pain was not less ...

She took her phone immediately calling Rohit ...

Her condition detoriating....she was whimpering out of pain ...

Hlo ... She with much difficulty whispered cried more listening his voice right now she needs him near her so badly ...

He is the only person who can console her .

Sana ... He panicked listening her voice ...

Main ... Aa ra hu ... He panicked ...

But by that time she already fainted ...

................

Samajh nhi aa ra kya kahu aap sab
Ko ... Like ... I am really sorry ... For making you all wait ...

Maine granted ni liya kisi ko bhi sachiii ... Kasam lage mere ko ... Maine sachi kabhi Aisa soch bhi nhi ... It's just ...

Maine 3 books bhi complete ki na ... With damn difficulty kyuki ... Right now ... My mental health is tragic ...

But yes I will try not to make you all wait like this sorry 💔