Main nhi milna chahti thi tumse par unki khushi ke liye kuch bhi ...

She whispered standing in front of the cafe .. where she was called by the person ... Holding the hem.of her dress anxiously ...

After all she is an introvert she feels conscious meeting strangers ..

If course she is a stranger only for her ...

Calm down Sana ... Not a big deal ... She whispered to herself not knowing what she is going to face today .

She is gonna loose the most important person of her life ... The reason she is living ...

BUT FOR HIS HAPPINESS... HER ANYTHING CAN BE ON STAKE ...

she's not selfish atleast not when she didn't even know if she is going to live a day more or not ...

She chuckles at her own destiny ... Maybe this is the destiny ...

THANK YOU SO MUCH KANHA ...

apne meri iccha bhi puri ki ... Or mere sidharth ki life main dobara khushiya bharne Jaa rahe ho ...

Kanha apne pass jaldi bulana pls ... Ab itni kareeb aakar unse itni door jyada der reh nhi paungi ... Pls kanha. ... She whispered looking up as if talking her heart to her God ...

Radhe radhe ...

She took the god's name for strength ... To handle the situation

Pls .... The person pulled chair for her to settle down ... Sana did .. smiled at her a little .

It's hurting ... What she has thought in her wildest dream is coming true ...

Her heart beating in a different manner ...

Bolo ... Kya baat karni thi tumhe mujhse neha ? ...

Sana whispered... And she took a deep breath before looking at sana ...

Sana could sense a kind of coldness towards herself in her eyes...

It is obvious she is jealous

Sidharth ke baare main ... Tumhe pata hi hoga ... Main ... I was sidharth's girlfriend... His FIRST LOVE ...

highlighting the words "first love"

She whispered looking at sana ...

Sana nodded her head looking down ... Tapping her hand constantly ... Anxiously ...

Main jaanti hu tum uski biwi ho ... Par ... Shayad Mera sidharth kabhi tumhe meri jagah de hi nhi sakta ... Neha said hurting her with everything ...

Tumhari jagah shayad maine kabhi lena chahi bhi nhi Neha ... It was all Sana could say ...

Tumhare jaise logo ka kya bharosa ... Dekhne par tum uskf standard ki bhi nhi ho ... Neha said keeping a forced smile on her face humiliating her. ..

I feel sidharth is somewhere forcing this relationship with you ... Warna kal mujhse Milne ke baad itna effect nhi hota wo ... Neha said ... A smirk appeared on her face ... As she saw Sana getting awkward yet listening everything silently ...

Tum kya chahti ho mujhse?... Sana asked straight away not having anything left to listen more ...

She felt humiliated ... And unwanted ... Somewhere what Neha said started getting in facts in her mind ...

Maybe he can never love her ...

Main chahti hu tum usse chorh do ... Wo ajj bhi mujhse pyaar karta hai. .. agar uske saath rahogi toh na tumhari zindagi sahi hogi na uski ...

Na tum khush reh paogi or na hi wo ...

Pls ... I hope tum mujhe samjhogi ... I love him ... I really do ... Neha whispered... Her eyes welled up ...

Main koi nhi tumhare pyaar ko judge karne wali neha par agar pyaar hota toh tum unko chorh kar jaati hi nhi. .. pyaar sabse badh kar hai ... Moksh hai wo ... Wo mil jaye toh koi or cheez kabhi mayine nhi rakhti par tumhe pyaar Milne ke baad bhi tumne usse chorh diya. ..

Kitna dukh diya tumne sidharth ko ... Sana said giving her a reality check ...

Main majbur thi ... She whispered

Majburi thi toh tum baar bhi toh kar sakti thi sidharth se ... Par nhi ... Tumhe unhe chorhna asan laga ... Sana whispered keeping herself as calm .... She don't know why but her heart felt right to say that to her ...

But she looked at her as If throwing daggers ...

Mere pyaar ke beech mat ao shehnaaz ... Sidharth tumhare saath kabhi khush nhi reh payega ... Agar wo mujhse pyar nhi karta hota toh ajj tak bhi Mera intzaar nhi karta ... Neha said rudely ... Making Sana ... Quiet ...

Tumne bhi toh kabhi kisi se pyaar kiya hoga ... Pls .... Jab tum uski life se JAOGI wo tabhi mujhe moka dega ...

Jab tak tum ho ... Wo Mera kabhi nhi ho sakta pls shehnaaz ... her tone changed quickly ... But maybe Sana was too naive to understand her cruel intentions

Neha held her hands ... Saba looked at her hurtfully one more time after getting up ... And walking away ...

She don't have anymore courage ... To take more humiliation

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Tum sidharth ko chorh do ...

Wo tumhare saath kabhi khush nhi hoga ...

He is forcing this relationship

Wo ajj bhi sirf mujhse pyaar karta h ....

Neha's words echoed in her ears ...

Main kya karu ? ... 💔

Sana whispered as soon as she got in her cab ...

she just don't get it why everytime it's her ... Why she needs to loose people for someone else ? ...

Why her always ... At the end whether people leave her or she needs to leave them for there good ...

Kya main itni buri hu ? Wo chahti h Mai sidharth ko chorh du ... Kisi ne mujhse poocha ke nai kya chahti hu ? ...

Or Sidharth ? ... Kyu sidharth ? ... Itne waqt hum Saath the phir bhi aapkoujgse koi attachment nhi ? ...

Apka pyaar aapke zindagi Mai Laut aaya SHAYAD issiliye aapne mujhse itni dooriyan bans Li ? ...

Kya main sachi aap dono ke beech aa Rahi hu ? ...

She thought ... Looking outside with tears ...

There are so many questions in her heart but no one is there to handle her ... No one is there ...

She felt so vulnerable....

Nhi Sana ... Mai selfish toh nhi hu ?
... Agar sidharth ko mujhse door reh kar Khushi milegi toh thik h ... Manzur hai mujhe ... Waise bhi ... Unki khushi ke aage kuch nhi. . wo khush rehne chaiye bas. ...

She tried to smile ...

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Reaching her room she saw him laying down on the bed.... Looking at the ceiling blankly ...

She looked at him for a while ... Thinking ...

He is not happy ... He would be happy if there would be Neha instead of her ... Right ? ...

Sana asked herself ...

Did she really come in between them ...

Sidharth deserves alot better ...

Sana maintained her blank face ... Holding her bag tightly ... Decided to ignore him ...

Her mental state is not right ...

Tum kaha gyi thi ... Sidharth got up as soon as he looked at her....

Sana ignored walking towards the closet ...

He felt strange yet hurt ... It was not expected that she will ignore him ..

Sana ... He called her again ... But no response came from her side ...

He held her hand and turned her around ...

He was about to say something but her welled up eyes were saying something else m..

Kya hua ? ... He panicked seeing her tears ...

She nodded her head in no removing his hands from herself ... Wiping her eyes harshly ...

Ignore kyu kar rahi ho mujhe ? ... Sidharth asked trying to cup her face ...

Waise hi ignore kar rahi hu jaise aap mujhe kar rahe hai itne dino se ... She said ...

Coldly.... Making him take a step back from her ... He never expected this kind of behavior from her where as sana was trying hard to hold up on herself hurting him ...

Sidharth agar main apse kuch poochu toh app mujhse sach sach batayenge ? ...

He nodded his head not having anything to say .... .

Kya aap ajj bhi Neha se pyaar karte h ? ...

She asked knowing the answer still asked for her freaking heart to know that he could never be hers ...

It was only her ... It was only her ... From the starting to now ... It was only her ...

He took a step back ... Not knowing the answer...

He never expected her to be like this ... He thought that she will understand him ...

But no ... 💔

She bit her lower lip ... Looking at his hurtful eyes ...

She turned around ...

It's ok sidharth ... I know you still love her ... she controlled not breaking her voice ...

It's ok ....

She wiped her eyes ....smiled a little ...

But what about her tears ...

He looked at her back expecting her to turn ... To say it all a lie ... To hug him ... He expected her ...

But maybe ... He again failed ...

He chuckles bitterly ...

Nor she is able to understand his condition not he is able to understand where she is standing all

Vulnerable

He went away ... Again ... Not having the courage to say anything ..

Her questioning eyes peirced his heart ...

Where as she thumped down ... Crying bitterly ... Hugging her knees closer digging her face in her knees ...

Sorry sidharth....she sobbed hard ...

I am sorry ... Maine apko hurt kiya ...par shayad ye zaruri h ... Ap mujhse door honge shayad tabhi usse mil payenge jisse aap pyaar karte h ...

Waise bhi main kabhi kisi ka pyaar ni ban sakti ... Or na hi mere pass itni zindagi bachi h ... She chuckles bitterly ... Tears rolled down. ..

She broke ... Every wait of her broke today ... When he didn't answered even after knowing what could come still she expected that somewhere ....

Somewhere maybe for the smallest time ... He have felt for her ... But no ... She was wrong always wrong 💔

Kyu yaad karti hu ?
Mittti hu banti hu

Mujhko tu laaya ye kaha ?
Benaam rishta wo bechain karta Jo

Ho na sake Jo bayan darmiyaan 💔

(This song has alll the memories when I wrote my most precious book ...

Darmiyaan ❤️)

Check out that ❤️

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I thought tum mujhe samajh sakti ho ... Nhi pata mujhe ... Na hi main tumhe khona chahta hu ... Na hi Neha ko apne man se nikal paa Raha hu ? ...

Aisa kyu ho raha h mere saath ? ... He held his head ...

The darkness was somewhere giving him peace....

Mujhe nhi pata ... Mujhe nhi pta ke main usse pyaar karta bhi hu ya nhi ..

Mujhe nhi pata ... Bs itna pata h ke mujhe waqt chahiye ...

Thoda waqt khud ko sambhalne ke liye abhi thik nhi main ...

Abhi thik nhi ...

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Ok sorry for being late 🥲🥲

Maaf kardo 😭