Intzaar ... Main toh ... Ajj bhi apka intzaar hi kar rahi hu sidharth ?...

Main jaanti hu ... Main aapke liye apka sab kuch ... Par apka pyaar kabhi nhi ban sakti ...

Aap ajj bhi Neha se hi pyaar karte h ...
She smiles painfully caressing his hairs he was sleeping in her lap ... Nuzzling his face in her stomach ...

Or acha hi hai na sidharthh ... Mujhe toh pata bhi nhi ki meri zindagi kitni h ...she whispered chuckles ...

Han jaanti hu aapko nhi pasand jab main aisi baatein karti hu ... Par meri jaan ye sach h ...

Aapse milna aapke saath kuch waqt bitana meri aakhri icha thi ... Or wo iccha Puri ho chuki hai ... Iske baad agar maut aa bhi jaye toh koi bhi gila nhi ...

Kyuki Maine jitni zindagi aapse saath jee hai ... Bohot hai mere liye ...

Maine aapki khushiyan maangi thi na tab hi shayad babaji ne Neha ko waapas bhej diya ?

Shayad wo nhi chahte Mai aapke saath rahu or aapko dukh pohoche ...

Mujhe apni zindagi par bharosa nhi ... Bas itna chahungi ... Aapke saare dard mere ... Meri saari khushiyan aapki ...

She kissed his head ...

Itna haq toh rakhti hu na ? ... She whispered tears rolled down she wiped immediately

And kept caressing his hairs ... She didn't slept the whole night ...

Sat there attentive ... Just in the wait that what if he needed her and she wasn't there for him ..

She cared for him more then her ...

But today ....she felt tired 💔

Not physically but mentally ... She really felt living her life peacefully with him ...

She wanted him ... For the first time in her life she wanted something just for herself ...

She just wanted to hidr him ... Keep him near her always but maybe her destiny is far cruel to her ...

She kissed his head again ...

Maybe it was there last physical contact ...

Dil chahta hai tujhe batau kitna pyara lagta hai tu mujhe ... Mera intzaar hai ... Meri ibadat hai tu ... Na kabhi khatam hone wala wo ishq hai tu ..  junoon bhi hai ... Or mohobbat bhi ... Sab kuch mera ... Mera kirdaar bhi ... Tujhe shuru tujh par hi khatam ab meri kahani hai ... Tu rahe mere saath ya nhi... Is dil par hamesha sirf Teri hi nishani h ❤️

AKHIR PAANE KO HI TOH PYAAR NHI KEHTE NA 💔

SHE WHISPERED

EYES WELLED UP ...

She slowly wakes him up whispering soothing words ...

He squinted his eyes ... Stretched himself a little opening eyes looking at her face for a second forgot everything that happened last night but just drowned himself in her deep ocean eyes ...

Sidharth ... He was snapped ... Getting up ... Caressing his own hairs ...

Pressing his head a little ...
Last night he was just too close having a panic attack ...

Ap thik ho na ? ... She whispered

He nodded ... Smiled a little towards her ... He is okay ... Having her beside him was soothing to him ...

She smiled too ... Not forcing him to say anything ...

He moved towards his suitcase ... Took out his clothes and moved to the bathroom ... Where as she just looked at him longingly ...

Did she really lost him ?

The question lingers in her mind ...

Where as he stood under shower ... Having the feeling of guilt ...

After the last night he is somewhere feeling that he is betraying Sana ...

Because nor he could be able to express his feeling to her ... And neither he is successful in ending his feelings towards Neha ...

He is confused .. that did he really loved her or not ?

For a second he realises that if he didn't loved her then he would have moved on a long back ...

But on the other hand he wants Sana not neha ...

AB TOH MUJHE LAGNE LAGA HAI KE DHAYAD MAI HU TUMHARE LIYE SAHI NHI SANA ... HE WHISPERED

EYES WELLED UP ... WHAT Could HE DO ?

he is vulnerable 💔

BOTH WE'RE THINKING JUDT FOR EACHOTHER BUT LACK TALKING TO EACHOTHER ...

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it was evening ... The party gonna start soon ... The whole day passed .. he didn't even speak a word ...

Nor she did ... Because maybe she isn't in the condition herself ..

He just looked at her ... Her face lost all colours ...

He still kept quiet not having words ...

As both entered the hall ... His eyes roaming all around ...

Somewhere wanted to see her once ...

Sana looked at him ... Tried to smile but ... What about her eyes ....which welled up suddenly ...

THEY WERE NEVER CLOSE

SHE thought ...looked down ...

Agar hum kareeb hote toh wo ek haadsa kaamil nhi hota Hume itna door karne main ...

Apne shayad kabhi mujhe apna samjha hi nhi sidharth ... Shayad tabhi ajj bhi apko itni hesitation hai mujhse kuch bhi share karne main ... She thought ...

Koi nhi ...shayad ab zyada waqt hai bhi nhi mere pass apke saath ...

Apko apka pyaar mil jaye ... Main bas yahi chahungi ... She smiles ... Looking at him ...

Where as his eyes were dull ... Not finding her ... Maybe she left ...

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The event iassed the flied back to Mumbai ...

It's been three days ... He is back to his normal routine but quieter then ever ...

Distanced himself from Sana ... Drowning in work ...

He used to stay in his studio 24/ 7

Came home to have food... Then back to work no family time ...

Slowly Abhishek and Rita maa started to notice his behaviour

But stayed quiet felt no right to say anything between husband and wife ...

Where as Sana ... She was beyond hurt 💔

The drastic change in his behaviour proved her that ... He was there only because maybe he was guilty or attracted towards her.   

She felt unwanted whenever he came home ... She felt broken ..  when not finding him sleeping beside her ...

Not finding him there for her ...caring scolding her for not taking medicines . .

He left her as if she never existed in her life ...

Aisi bhi Hui thi mujhse kya khata ?
Tune jo mujhe di jeene ki saza 💔

The two days were so long ... For her ... She even skipped her medicines ...

Where as he stayed away just because he didn't wanted to break down ... He didn't wanted to hurt Sana ...

Though he was wrong ... But he never wanted to hurt her again that is why maintaining sone distance just to stable himself a little ...

He is not in the right state of mind ... Need some time alone to gather himself again ...

Next day

Sidharth came inside his and Sana's room ... Just with a thought to have a glance of her ...

He longed for her so much ... But he couldn't come back ...  scared of breaking down ...

Frowns not finding her in the room ... Kept his mobile on charging and left for his studio frowing like a baby ...

He just wanted to see her ... Her one glance his enough to lighten up his world ...

He wanted to be near her ... But far not to hurt her more because he is confused ... With his feeling not having the clarity

Whether he loves her or neha ...

Sana came out after taking a long bath to calm herself down ... She couldn't just hold on to her anxiety

Having instincts that something wrong gonna happen ...

She was lost in her own thoughts ... When his phone ringed ...

Snapping her ... She moved towards his phone ... It was unknown number ...

Important toh nhi h ? ... Ye bhi studio Mai hai ... She whispered before picking up the call .

Just by listening the voice she could understand who the person is ...

"I want to meet you shehnaaz"

The person on the call whispered
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Hiii ...

First of all ... I am sorry ... Really sorry gayab hone ke liye pehli baat ... Papers chl re h yr ...

Dusra reason ... Mental health ki aisi taisi ho rkhi h ... Teenage ... Teesra reason ye ke ... Tumhari writer bohot bewakoof h 😂💔

Dhokha mila hai zindagi main pehli baar cope up karne main waqt toh lagega 💔😂

Sorry sorry ... Chodo ye sab bakwas update enjoy Karo ... Dusra jaldi likhungi ... Gonna end this soon ❤️

Love to you all ❤️