Some moments in his arms an she was feeling alot of peace ... He was always her serene ... Important for her ...

She needs him ...to live ... She needs him in front of her ... Seeing him is her need ... Her heart wants peace ... And he is her peace ... Her love ...

She didn't love him for what he had but she fell in love with him when he had nothing ... That innocent sidharth 

That sidharth ... Who used to be so bubbly ... Who literally couldn't even stay silent for a bit ... when he stays silent ... When he speaks a little changed himself ..

That hurts ...that literally hurts the most to her ... But unless her love for him never ever lessened .... She fell in love with his every phase of nature and personality......

With his bubbly nature and even the silent one with his calm nature and even the angry one she just fell in love with him ....

His heart burst out having her in his arms ...

She was going through a lot alone ... Without even expressing his heart bleed as he felt pain ...

He is her partner right ? .... Till now what did he do for her ? ....she was there she tried but he ? ... He pushed her away from him every time ...

Dealing with heart break and rejection every time isn't easy ... And knowing about how sensitive her condition is ... And what she is going through the mental trauma ...

He held her more tightly in his arms as her sobs were getting slow .... But she held over him more tightly not leaving him for a second. .. she drowned herself in the silence ..  whereas he was fighting with his inner turmoil blaming herself somewhere he is the reason landing up here ...

.but maybe this is normal to feel like this ...when you know in which condition you are ... And you see the people in your surroundings getting bothered and worried for you ...  Unnecessarily and taking care of you ... You feel like somewhere you are becoming a burden over them ...

It's normal ... But the feeling ... The feeling is horrible ...

That's what... is happening with her she is feeling like a burden over every person she loves with her everything over her parents over Rohit ... Over her family and sidharth ...

She wanted to be his partner his friend not his burden ...

He caressed her hairs to calm her down .... Looked up to control himself gulping the painful lump in his throat ...

Sabse pehli baat toh naaz ... He lifted her face up ... Cupping her face wiping her eyes ever so softly as if handling a doll ...

Apne man se ye nikal do that you are a burden over anyone ... Nhi baby ... You are not a burden ... Mujh par or family par toh bilkul bhi nhi ...

Kya kabhi kisi ke bhi lehze se tumhe laga ? ... Ke tum bojh ho kisi par ? ...

Pareshan hona normal hai ... Or hamara haq bhi hai kyuki tum bhi hamari hi ho na .... Bolo ? ... Hamari apni ho tabhi pareshan hai sab ...

Phir kyu aise sochti ho sab pareshan hai tumhari wajah se ? ... Bojh ho tum sab pr ? ..

Maine dekha hai mummy papa ko pareshan hote hue ... Maine ....dekha hai khud ko bhoj bante hue ... Dekha Haj maine unhe Mee liye rote hue ... Mere liye ...

Sach kahu toh jeene ki iccha meri ussi waqt mar gyi thi jab meri maa mujhe pakad kar apne seene se laga kar toot kar royi thi ...

Mere papa ... Jo kabhi nhi roye sidharth ... She held over him Reminsing the past ...

Papa ... Kabhi nhi roye badi se badi musibat bhi aa jaye na unke chahte par shikwa nhi dekha ... Par jab unhe pata chala ke chances Kam hai ... Mere upar apna sab kuch Dene ke baad bhi ... Chances nhi the mere bachne ke ... Wo toot gye the sidharth ...

Wo roye the ... Mai. .. Mai mat gyi thi ... Maine apne papa ko ... Literally apne aankhon ke saamne toota dekha ....wo phir bhi ...

Phir bhi pretend kar rahe the ... Log kehte hai ...

Log ... Mai ... Mai kha gyi ... Apne maa... Baap...ko ... Mai ... She felt problems in breathing tears were no where to stop ...

Mai ... Maine nhi maara unko ....wo accident ....acci..dent ....khoon ... Blood .... Her whole body started shivering in the fraction of second as

She got the flashes from her past ... Seeing her parents are drowned in blood covered ... Dying in front of her eyes ...

She was so vulnerable ....she couldn't even do anything to save them ...

Luckily ... She got saved but that tragic view shook-ed her to the freaking core of her heart..

She could never forget that night ....that horrible night when she saw her parents dying in front of her eyes ...

Shh shh ....he held her frame tighter getting closer to her ... She held more onto him ...

Her whole body was trembling ... Hus heart broke ... Her condition was deteriorating and she was having difficulty in breathing ...

Shh ... Bs ... He rubbed her back to calm her down ....whereas she goes into that darkest phase of life ...

She wasn't in her senses right now she forgot herself ... She cried she didn't stop herself now ....yo cry out let out the pain that was buried deep in her heart ...

Letting out her insecurities and the trauma which society gave to the small little girl ... That little girl who just lost her parents ... And society blamed her for the death of her parents ...

That small little girl ....who tried .. to kill herself ... Yo free herself from every freaking torture the society did on her ...

She was innocent....but ..  she was called wrecked ....she was called unlucky and the death note for her parents ? ...

Is it right for the little girl to bear all these things alone ?..... Knowing that even her other family members left her to die on the roads after parents ...

SHE HAD A FREAKING REASON NOT TO LIVE ...

she is tired of even trying to kill herself ...

She tried ... Sleeping pills ... Overdose of medicine depression suicide ... She tried everything ....but nothing worked ...

Only her disease is her only hope left ... When she had thousands of reasons to die ... Everywhere negativity when she always felt a burden ....when she always felt unwanted. .. then how can we even expect that she will have that urge to live ...

Life always gave her the reasons to die. .. and even the biggest threat over her life ...

Then how can she even hope too live when she accepted that when she will die everything will be alright no one more will be bothered ...

She accepted 💔

Bs kar meri jaan ... Pls ... His voice broke he couldn't see her crying breaking down ... He couldn't when she was supposed to be happy ... Here she is crying her life out ...

Somewhere or is good for her to vent out ... But on the other hand stress is harmful for her ....

This is freaking more painful for him to handle her and watching her broke down ... His heart pains ... As he felt ... Her pain in his heart ...

He couldn't take more ..  when she cries ... It hurts ...

Chup ho Jaa pls ... His voice broke eyes welled up feeling her pain ... Though how much he tries to stop himself ....she had already made a corner in his heart which will always be hers only ...

SIDHARTH ... EK BAAT PUCHU ? ... SACHI BATAOGE NA ? ... SHE ASKED CRYING AND SNIFFING LIKE A BABY. .. ASKED HIM ...

HE NODS HIS HEAD IN YES ...

MERE MAR JAANE SE SAB THIK HO JAYEGA NA ? .... SHE ASKED ...

PHIR I WON'T BE A BURDRN OVER ANYONE... KISI KO PARESHAN NAI KARUNGI NA PHIR ... HER EYES WERE BLANK ... TEARS WERE ROLLING DOWN BUT THE BLANKNESS IN HER EYES ... BROKE HIS HEART ...

Tum kisi par burden nhi ho meri jaan ... Sachi ... Kisi par bhi nhi ho ... Believe karti ho mere pe ? .... Bolo

She nods her head cutely

Toh meri baat suno ...

TUM KISI PAR BURDEN NAI HO...  JAAN HO HUM SAB KI ... IMPORTANT HO .. SABKE LIYE ...

OR SPECIALLY MERE LIYE ... HUM DOST HAI NA ? ...BOLO ....DOST MAANTI HO NA MUJHE ...

PHIR APNE DOST KO CHORH KAR JAOGI ? ... BOLO ?. .. NAI ... NAI JAOGI NA ? ...

DEKHO TUMHARA YE JO DOST HAI NA. .  THODA GADHA HAI ... KUCH BHI BANWAS KARTA HAI ...

SACH MAANO ... USKE PASS WAISE HI BPHOT KAM LOG HAI KHONE KO .... YUM CHALI JAOGI TOH KHUD KO SAMBHAL NHI PAYRGA ...

HE CUPS HER FACE ...

or dusri baat ye meri jaan ... Ke apne aap ko dosh dena band karo .   Tumne kisi ko nhi maara ...

Ab rou nhi hm ... He cups her face wiping her tears ... Where as she closed her eyes. ..

The satisfaction she needed ... The clarification she needed ....he gave her the security ...

His mere words .... soothed her years old bruises .... that's the magic of love ...

Ap mere pass hi raho pls ... She whispered for the very first time ... Wishing him ... To be near her his heart welled up ...

Mai tumhare pass hi hu ... Kahi nhi jaa raha Mai ... He caressed her hairs lovingly .... She was feeling exhausted ... And drained out of energy ...

He carefully made her sit with her back resting against the head rest .... He got up ... And took her medicines ...

Fed her with his own hands ....

And came near her ... He sat near and opened his arms for her to come ...

She without any hesitation and thought throws herself in his arms .... Feeling the comfort of his heartbeats ...

Bs ab Teri baahon Mai jaanam so jaana hai
Jaage hue raaton ke hum

Chal Ghar chalein
Mere humdam

The sound ... Soothes her heart ...

He tapped her hairs and eyes as she fell sleep ....but he ....he was wide awake ...

Sleep was not even closer to his eyes ...

TUMSE AB DOOR HOKAR JEE NAHI PAUNGA ... BOHOT KAREEB HO MERE ....BOHOT AZEEZ HO MUJHE ... NA SOCHNA HAI TUMSE DOORI DO PAL KI BHI ... NA CHAIYE MUJHE TUMHARE SIWA KUCH BHI ... TUMHE KHO DOON ... YE SHEHAR MERE DIL KA GUMNAM HAI... JAANAM ... TUMHARE BINA MERI ZINDAGI BOHOT AAM HAI

Mujhe nhi pata kyu ... Mai nhi jaanta ke tum kyu itni khaas ho mere liye ... Par ab ho toh khud ko Roku kyu ? ...

Mai nhi jaanta hanara saath kab tak hai ... Par ek baat ye jaan sakta hu ke shayad ab mere jeene ki wajah banti jaa rahi ho naaz ...

Mai nhi jaanta tha wo aankhein ... Jo hasa karti thi ...unme itna dard hai ... Main nhi jaanta tumhari us meethi si muskan ke peeche itni kahaniya hai naaz ...

Jaanta hu tumse pyaar nhi karta ... Par kuch hai ... Kuch connection hai jisse mai chah kar bhi khatam nhi kar paa Raha ... Jitna door jane ki koshish karta hu kismat tumhare uthe kareeb laakar khada kar deti hai ...

Tu kon hai meri ? ... Main jaanta nhi hu ... Par tujhse jyada khaas ab mai kisi ko maanta nhi hu ...

Itna janta hu agar tumhe kho dunga toh toot jaunga ...

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Felling in love and still denying ... This is what he is doing but maybe he has his own reasons ...

His life was also not full of roses always

And her's here it is ... The mental trauma ... Every person's behaviour has it's own story ...

Behind the rudest ... There's a past of he / she has been treated ... Behind the silent ... There a story ....behind the happiness there's a story and befind wickedness and hatred there is always a story .. 

So it may be better not to judge people but to know what come they became what they are now ...

Ok so ... I end up ... Here ... Here you go with the new update ... I hope you all gonna like it ... And shower it with love ...

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