"Jungkook! Jungkook!" Shoots into my ear and my eyes shot open. My heart pounds against my chest making my head throb. Its Jimin. His face is concerned and he looks like he's been crying. His hair messedly draped over his puffy eyes making him look tired, maybe he was. "Jimin... Was I.." He looks over at Bella.. Causing me to look at her too. My little Rose on the couch still sound asleep.

"You were crying in your sleep, sometimes screaming.." He squeezes his hands together and then punches his fist into his palm. "You don't fucken deserve this Jungkook. You don't. You have a family and a wife.." He stops short and his eyes water. I sit up and place my hand on his hunched over back, his spin sticking out. "Jimin.. Everything has its purpose..." I honestly don't know what to say, I couldn't even find words to comfort myself let alone comfort Jimin.

He looks at me, tears wedged in his eyes making him look puppy dog like. His bottom lip quivered and his face looked pail. "Jungkook .. I look at you like a brother.. You know that right?" He asks. I nod. Of course I know that but I couldn't find the strength to say so. "I've finally warmed up to Abby... And this happens... I see the love in your eyes for her Jungkook.. You have to know that I'm here for you if anything does happens, to take care of Bella.." I nod.

"Its okay if you have nothing to say Jungkook.." He says looking over at Bella. "I look at her like my own. I would never hurt her." He says. He then looks back at me, his salty tears sliding down his pink cheeks. "I'll buy you a coffee. You look like shit." I say. He chuckles and wipes his eyes.

"Wow. Fucken jerk. When something comes out of your mouth its this?"," what's shit?" We both turn and Bella is sitting up on the couch rubbing her eyes with the back of her small hands. "You hungry baby?" I ask trying to get her to forget the bad word that came out of my mouth just now. I had forgotten that Abby would always tell me that at this age Bella is like a sponge, she'll catch on to anything I say.

She let's out a small yawn then nods. I walk over to her and pick her up. "Daddy whewe's ma ma. I'm wowwied.. abowt her..." I look at Jimin as he grabs his sweater that he let Bella use as a blanket and slips it on. "What do you want for breakfast Bella? A muffin?" Jimin asks helping me out a bit. Bella right away smiles, like she forgets everything and lives in the exact moment. "Cake." She says laughing. "Cake!? What!? You can't eat cake for breakfast" he says laughing.

Was cake their funny topic? I don't get it.. It was their thing I guess... Huh... We walk into the hospitals cafeteria. It was quiet. Barely anyone was there. The people that were there just sat at tables staring down at the cleaned tiles or their food with coffee in their hand, quiet. All you can hear was the people working in the kitchen making the patients breakfast. I look at my wrist watch. I can't see it. My hand is still full of blood. Its dry now.

Looking like a red brown on my skin. I hand Bella to Jimin. "Get me a muffin and a coffee I'll pay you back. I have to wash my hand." I walk into the bathroom and take a quick wiz. I walk over to the sink. I look at myself in the mirror. I look like shit.... Too Much crying. I then remember why we're here. I look down at the sink. I scrubbed the blood roughly, it left a hard stain on my now pink skin from all the friction. The water was tinted with a red.

I finally walk out of the bathroom. I see Jimin and Bella at a table. She's happily eating her muffin. Poking at the chocolate chips and sucking on her fingers. I join them. "Better?" Jimin asks as he sips his coffee. I just nod my head. I stare down at the foam cup, the steam hugging my nose warmly. My stomach growls I take a sip and savor the bitter sweet taste that was in a way, soothing. "Excuse me. Is there a Jeon Jungkook in here?" Its quiet.

I hear chairs screech against the floor as people move in their seat. "Yo... Jungkook." Jimin shakes my arm. I look up at him. "They're calling for you." He says. I turn my head and I see a nurse with a clip board. I grab my coffee and my muffin and rush up to her. "I'm Jeon Jungkook." I say. She looks up and smiles at me, her eyes showing something else. She looks tired, you can tell she had just applied make up to her under eyes.

"Will you please follow me." She says turning and walking out of the cafeteria. I look back at Jimin and he nods his head at me. Giving me a sign that he was fine, Bella was fine. I follow her, "is my wife okay?" I ask. We stop in front of the room 202. I throw my trash in a near by bin. She looks at me from the clip board. "Yes, your wife is just fine. She lost a large amount of blood. she's just fine. But..." The tight grip on my heart loosens a bit but it still lingered.

"But we did lose the baby. I'm so sorry..." She bows her head. My heart skips a beat. My baby is dead... "Sadly she's been unconscious since last night. So she doesn't know about the baby." She turns toward the door. "She's awake now." She says then looks at me. "I'll call the doctor so that you don't have to tell her the news." She puts her hand on the handle, I feel my heart pound against my chest, I feel nervous for some reason.

"You can go in if you want. Do you want to?" She suggests. I stare at the door, mindlessly. "Yes.." I say. She opens the door for me to walk in. I do so and she leaves. I walk in slowly. I hear machines beeping. I move a certain. There she is... My Abby. She's looking out the window. Staring at the blue sky. Her arm draped over her stomach. My heart pounds and my eyes water a bit as I'm happy to see she's okay.

She turns her head as I bump into a chair making it screech. Her eyes look at me scared then a sweet smile spreads on her face. "Jungkook..." She says quietly. She reaches out her hand and I walk over to her and take it right away. Her hand was warm and soft, I can feel tingles in my finger tips, I missed her touch. I can't help but kiss her lips, I have longed for her, she kisses me back. She must have felt the same. "How's the baby?" She asks.

"Bella is great. She's with Jimin down in the cafeteria." I say. She chuckles and sits up in the bed. "No. The new baby silly." She says. My face drops, I can't tell her that the child she held in her womb for 9 months is dead. "Jungkook.." She says with her voice shaking and worry in her eyes. My eyes water as I look at her face, I want to look away so that she can't see the pain in my eyes. "I'm so sorry Abby..." I say. She pulls her hand out of mine.

"Jungkook what are you saying?" Just then the doctor walks in, saving me from saying the words that were burning the back of my throat. "Mrs. Jeon." He says. Abby sits up. "Hi doctor. How's my baby?" He looks up at her from the clip board with a sad expression. "I'm so sorry Abby... We couldn't save the baby. It was born dead." I look at her and she starts laughing.

"You're kidding... Right? My baby is fine. Am I getting pranked? Its not funny. Where's my baby?" Her laughs lower and she looks at me with tears in her eyes. I don't realize that I'm crying. "Jungkook... Its not true..." She says her voice cracking sounding unsure. I sit down next to her and hug her close. "No.. No..." She whispers as she forces her fists against my chest over and over again. I hold her tighter until she let's go and starts crying in the crook of my neck.

Her sobs made me cry harder. I didn't realize that the doctor had left the room and we fell asleep on the bed.

**

"Abigail... Please eat. You need food in your body." The nurse says. I look at her as she puts the food plate on he slide table in front of Abby. She sits there staring at her lap. She's been like this for the past 10 minutes ever since she woke up from the nap and realized that the baby was really dead. Its worrying me, and I can't help but be completely heart broken by this. The nurse bows her head "please make sure she eats or she can't go home."

The nurse says walking out. "Maaamaaa!" I hear Bella outside the door. The door opens and its Jimin. "Hi. How's it been? I hope you don't mind I took Bella back home so she could change. She took a nap and she brought Abby a present." I look at the smile on his face. As I say nothing his smile drops automatically. "Thanks Jimin for your help.it means a lot. But Abby isn't doing so well..." He walks closer to me letting go of Bella's small hand. "We lost the baby.." I whisper.

His lighlty browned eyes look into mine. "I'm so sorry Jungkook..." He says sitting next to me in the small futon in the room. We watch Bella climb onto the medical bed. "Ma ma. I dwew you and me." Bella says putting the drawing in the front of Abby's vision. "And we are playing. Bawbie dolls" she says as she sits next to Abby on the bed. She puts her little head on Abby's arm.

"Ma ma.. Peas be okay.. I miss you..." My eyes tear up as I see my daughter cry. I look away from the picture as it breaks my heart. I see that Jimin is crying. Its hard for all of us. "Maa maa.." Bella cries as she shakes Abby's body. I get up and cradle Bella in my arms and she cries in my chest.

I walk into the small chapel that they have in the hospital. Its quiet. There's a man there. He's kneeling down in one of the pews and he's crying. I go up to the first pew and kneel down. I bow my head and fight the tears and the ball of emotion in the back of my throat.

"God.. Please help my wife be okay. I call out to you because.. I need your help. Right now I am a broken man. Mentally. And you are all that can make me whole again my dear God. I hope you take care of my child up there, since they are an Angel now. I hope they are treating you well... I hope they know that... We love them.. I have never called out to you Lord.. And it may seem that I'm using you.. But I am not. I ask for forgiveness... From all my sins. I want to follow you Lord in the process of healing my wife. I love her so much , more than my heart knows, only you know that Lord. I want to follow in your foot steps. Please... I'm desperate... In your precious name, I pray.
Amen."

This chapter honestly could have and should've been better but its all I could come up with. I promise you that everything will be okay... Okay? So there's nothing to worry about. :) make sure to comment and vote. It means a lot. Thanks! ❤