how do i save myself from everything that i am?

from everything i choose to be.

from the love that isn't mine to keep.

how do i hold on to it when it's out of my reach?

how do i forgive myself for all the bruises and the tears and the cuts?

how do i forget all the caresses, the whispers, the punches to my gut?

how do i live knowing that i've killed you, him, her and him and them to feel something?

how do i feel anything now that there's no one left for me to hurt?

how do i fill the void, now that its brimming and spilling out of me?

how do i kill myself now that you've already killed me dead?

how do i stop?

there's no way to stop, is there?