"You bitch  you   haven't earned enough money  to  feed us  all looks like   your going to go hungry again "

I sobbed at the fact  that  I would go hungry again  because my parents couldn't  get enough  of there addictions and because of this   I was barely  fed if not for my sweet grandparents.

My grandmother raised  me and she taught me to  sew clothes  and forage foods my grandfather taught me  to shoot and hunt prey  which I hated  doing  but grandfather said   its a way of life  anyway  back to my parents

My mum is a whore  she makes money   sleeping with others  and wanted me to join her  in the business  but my grandparents  forbid it  so I sew clothes  to sell at the markets half my payment  goes towards buying  materials ,sewing   thead and  needles  and food for my ill grandparents.

my dad is a con artist who has  conned  half the village  along  with my mum who has broken marriages  my parents  have no shame whatsoever  and say  it peoples faults of course my village  hated me because of my parents  no children  used to play with me  because of my parents .

My grandparents  educated me at home because the other  schools were too  expensive  and my grandparents  were the top lawyers of there  time  and had 3 children  my mum,my uncle Haider and my aunt  Nosheen  when my mum  decided to  try and  get me into the  sex business  my uncle slapped her and said

"You already  ruined your life  and dishonored  the family   name when you became  a raandi(prostitute)  but there is no where in hell  will.i let you  ruin my neices  life"

Mum acted like a baby  and  began  crying  saying  that  I was her daughter and no one could  tell her in how to raise me  my dad on the other hand hated me from birth  because I was a girl  not a boy but yet he  still took my earning and brought drugs.

I was  making dinner for my  grandparents  when the door rang  it was  our neighbour  he  asked me if   I could help him out a bit   when I asked him with what  he said

"My wife  has suits she needs  mending  tonight so can you please  come to my home tonight   and  mend them"

I told him I would think about it  but in reality  I wasn't  going to go   because I  had a bad  feeling  and being around my parents  I kinda  knew that  people had  bad intentions  towards me  because firstly  I was 16  years old  secondly I was fair skinned my eyes were light brown and  I had  light brown hair  and a big  chest .

When he left I told my grandparents  what happened  and they looked horrified  to discover  that there neighbour  had approached  me with such a request  as to go to his home at  night and mend his wife's clothes  but what  shocked me more was that my grandparents  told   me the neighbour  had no  wife or kids  since she divorced  him and  he was impotent  meaning  he couldn't  make kids .

My grandfather phoned my uncle
Who  had  his freinds  go to the  home of the neighbour  I watched  from Upstairs   as 20 men left   the neighbours home and along  with them my parents who looked hacked off  they were cursing my uncle  and grandparents  who just  told them to never return to the property.

When my uncle  thanked his freinds and   came in he hugged me and said

"Are you ok sanam thank heavens you thought to tell  mum and dad  everything  the neighbour  said    because if you hadn't  and gone to  his home   then you would be dishonored good girl now go to sleep I will feed  mum and dad"

I went to my room and    sat by the  door until I heard uncle leave  and then I  stayed up   by the  banisters and I heard uncle  say

"Mum  dad  its getting dangerous  for sanam    to be here  I know we all  love her  greatly  but   her mum and dad are upping there  game  I have had to  have my loyal freinds  gaurd  the house and have had to  remove   men   and hidden cameras   from.your home.

She so young and  beautiful  and untouched but her life will become hell  if we don't  stop this"

"How do we do that my son"

"I hate to say it  but   sanam needs to get  married  thats the only solution  i can think of "

"BUT SHE'S  A CHILD  AND UNDERAGE  NO I WILL NOT GET MY GRAND DAUGHTER MARRIED"

"Listen to me mum  its the only  way sanam won't be  harassed  do you want men   following  her  to sell clothes and when she's shopping   sanam is  not  safe"

I went into my room and cried  because I felt unhappy  that my family was bickering  because  I was being Harassed  by men that night  I had a dream about   being in a  gorgeous  garden with  flowers  everywhere  and a huge clear lake I wanted  to  walk towards  the  lake but felt hands on my  shoulders  I turned to look and saw a woman  she was beautiful  her hair was black as ink  her skin  was a lighter olive  colour  and her eyes  were  jade green.

The lady looked  kind and sweet  but sad I wanted to.help.her  so I asked her

"Are you ok ma'am"

  she looked up and smiled then she said

"Yes I am.ok sweetheart   just thinking "

"About what "

"My family  I have a husband  and  a son  I also have a brother in law and  two sister in laws  and I miss them  greatly "

"Why where are they and how come your not with  them"

"Its complicated  anyway  why are you so sad  honey   a beautiful  girl like you   shouldn't  be   upset"

"Beautiful  huh  sometimes  I wish I wasn't so beautiful  its like a curse for me "

"How so "

"You see  my mum and dad are getting  men to try and rape me so that I can become  a prostitute  like my mum and   so that they can  sell  my beauty and  make a ton of money"