Cervius Havoc Sandoval-Buenavista

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"Look who's back! If it's not the one and only, Cervius Havoc Buenavista!"

Napatingin ako sa pamilyar na boses ng pinsan ko. With a smile, I turned around and faced her. I like it when I hear my complete name. It reminds me that I am a powerful person, worthy of their respect.

"And yet, you and your mouth remained the same, Amasha. You are disturbing the peace of Maraya. Shut up." I made a face and rolled my eyes on her.

Binalik ko ang tingin sa malawak na lupain ng Maraya, the place of love and peace, where the green meets the blue. Pero habang nakatingin ako dito, wala akong maramdaman na kapayapaan dahil sa iniisip ko.

That man has always been invasive in my thoughts. His memory keeps me awake and un-focus on my work. Sa isipan ko ay pinapatay ko na ang lalaking 'yon. He was a mistake! A disaster in my life.

Inayos ko ang gloves na suot ko at binalingan ang kabayo na nagpapahinga malapit lang sa akin. I am in my equestrian outfit riding Mommy's horse, Isabela out in the field of Maraya. I decided to rest and hide from the sun below this huge tree overlooking the greenery of Maraya.

"I missed you too, Cerv. And no, peace can never be peace when it's you. You are a walking red flag. Dapat lang talaga na Havoc ang iyong middle name."

Can't she shut up? This girl is irritating. Wala siyang pinagkaiba sa anak ni Tita Glenda. In fact, all of them are noisy.

Red flag? Girl, so overrated. I don't believe in that. If a man is an asshole, then he deserves to be called as one. You don't need to label him as a red flag just to make your fuck-up decision fancy.

"I don't align myself with trendy nicknames just so people can label the attitude I have. I am Cervius. No more, no less." Now, if people don't like me or my attitude then I don't give an F.

Amasha did not reply. Halatang wala ng magagawa sa magaspang kong pag-uugali. People in this place are too surreal for me. All of them are kind, and walking in smiles is natural for them. And I am not like them. I can never be like them. I have my kuya Hacob to do that work. Total, everybody loves him more than me, so I don't bother with what people think of me.

I only care about Dad and Mom's comments on my life. They matter to me more than anyone in this world.

"Maraya is peaceful. Still peaceful." I whispered watching the people work in the fields under the blazing sun. The sun's heat doesn't bother them. I wonder how these people can still smile. Their work seems hard and laborious, yet they act happy.

Is it because they have their partners to look for them? Or because they have someone to talk with? O baka dahil may kasama lang talaga sila?

I don't know.

"Maraya will always be peaceful. Thanks to Tito Jakob and Tita Ishie, this place will remain as one for a very long time." Tiningnan ko si Amasha by the mention of my parent's name.

How can I not give credit to my family's contribution to this place? I must admit that my family is an influential icon in this place. Even Tito Cyrell's position in the senate could not outgrow the love of the people towards my parents.

"So, why are you home, Cerv? You get bored with the city and decide to bring your evilness back here in Maraya? I have to admit, medyo nabo-bored na ako dito simula ng umalis ka, but now that you're back, I am expecting a big disaster from you." She raised her brow playfully at tinusok-tusok ako sa tagiliran.

I rolled my eyes on her. Medyo natatawa na rin ako sa pangkikiliti niya sa akin. I must admit that I really missed the people here, especially Amasha and the other girls.

"I'm not as evil as you think I am. After all, I am a Buenavista, and no one in the family is evil." Tinanggal ko ang gloves ko at tinapon sa damuhan. Pinalaki akong tama ng mga magulang ko, so, when it comes to Maraya, kahit na kung ano kagaspang ang ugali ko, I must tone it down.

"Bakit ka ba kasi nandito? Where is Atasha?" Ang tanong ko sa kasama ko.

Gulat nga ako at nasundan ako nito dito. Looking at Amasha's outfit, pareho kami ng suot, at 'di kalayuan sa amin ay ang kabayo niya.

"Atasha is with your brother, kuya Hacob. I heard that people are celebrating the good harvest. They must be with the farmers." Ngumuso ako at tumango.

Bakit ko ba nakalimutan na sa pamilya, it's Hacob who dominantly interest the ranch and the hacienda. He's just like dad. Both adore Maraya. On the other hand, I am my mom's replica—maarte.

"Alam mo, we should be there also. Dapat makita ng mga tao na marunong ka rin. Na hindi lang kaartehan ang laman ng dugo ng isang Cervius Havoc Buenavista!" Kumuha ako ng damo at tinapon sa babaeng kasama ko.

"Marunong ako. I'm just not like them. Talagang hindi pang-Maraya ang nakagisnan ko. I am for the city, Amasha." Ang rason ko sa kaniya.

"Bahala ka. Basta ako, tawagan mo lang ako at dadating kaagad kami ni Valerie para samahan ka. Huwag lang 'yong sa impyerno, I don't belong there." Pareho kaming natawa sa sinabi niya. Valerie, ang anak ni Tita Glenda ang isa sa pinakamalapit kong kaibigan sa lugar na'to. Just like me, ang arte rin ng babaeng 'yon.

"Maiiwan n akita d'yan so you could think whatever you need to think. Just don't jump on the cliff, Cerv. I don't want you dead lalo pa't virgin ka pa." Mabilis kong pinulot ang stick ko at umambang batuhin ang gaga pero nakatakbo na siya sa akin palayo.

Me? Virgin? Of course not.

A gentle breeze of air made me close my eyes. I opened my eyes to see the leaves and branches gently swinging the trees around me.

Bumalik sa isipan ko ang lalaking kanina ka pa iniisip. Kahit anong paglilibang ko sa aking sarili ay 'di ko magawa. The image of him on top of me, claiming me and my virginity never leaves my mind!

Napahawak ako sa labi ko. It has been months, yet the feel of his lips against mine lingers. Hindi ko mawala-wala sa isipan ko!

Kailangan ko pang umuwi dito sa Maraya because of what has happened! I can't believe that man at pinapahanap pa talaga ako sa mga tauhan niya. What does he even want from me? Kung tutuusin ay nakuha na niya lahat sa akin. What more does he want?

Ano pa ang kailangan mo sa akin Eludes?! You and your dick will pay the price kapag kumalat ang balita na pumatol ako sa isang katulad niya.

A manwhore! Uhaw sa laman.

Thinking of it, "Pinahahanap mo ba ako dahil sa kagaguhan mo, Eludes? You're looking for me just because you can't accept the fact that for the first time in your life, someone like me, a gay was able to seduce you?" Men and their ego. 

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Note: For those who have read the initial details of this story, kindly respect the changes I made. Thank you po!