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Dear Reader,

Listen to the music while reading the story....

Believe me, you won't forget the feelings~

 ~You'll live in the story~

Are you a clown?  

 Yes

Why are you always laughing so wickedly?

Ask yourself why you keep coming to see me in the circus more often

♠️

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" It's because I destroy meaningless things"

My voice cracked as if it turned in to a whisper.

Faith's lips pursed in to a thin line. Her eyebrows furrowed.

I watched her quietly. 

I felt as if I'm staring at my own little self from the past.

Naive, weak, sweet but stupid.

She dared to raise her voice.

Her silence was agonizing.

Her clear frosty eyes were piercing mine.

I just keep blinking against them.

Her gaze is soft

But I'm sinking  slowly and painfully,

right in to her shadow

The longer I get lost in her clueless eyes, the more guilt intoxicated my soul within.

' What's happening to me? '

' Don't look at me like that....just like you understand'

" Unni? "

" Hmm?"

" I can't understand"

I was falling apart, crash-landing myself in a whole unknown space

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There's no real difference

between

The eyes of an understanding person

&

The eyes of an misunderstanding person

My hands unconsciously went up to my chest , feeling the rhythm of my heart beating against my palm. 

It wasn't usual but it wasn't unusual at the same time.

The only thing I knew is...

It wasn't lying

But....

How can I make her understand

when

I myself

Can't UNDERSTAND?

My words kept haunting my mind 

I

Destroy

Meaningless

things

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All those words that left my tongue..... 

feels like they came from someone else

But still 

It's my voice 

A hot tear rolled down my cheek, meeting a corner of my lips

I stood up  without actually realizing it.

This isn't what's supposed to happen

I dragged my sleeve up to remove the uncontrollable tears wetting my cheeks.

I picked up Faith and ran downstairs.

I could hear her faint voice dissolving in the air.

I handed her over to a random doctor I met on my way and ran....

ran..

and ran...

without stopping

I ran

At one point, my knees went numb and my weak body laid perplexed on the cold ground.

Eyes lingering from one star to another...

I was lost in the beautiful art in front of me.

My heart sang  it's usual melody...

Peaceful breath embraced my lungs...

and

Liveliness touched my soul.

The cold wind washed me and the fire in my body ceased.

Coldness always felt home to me and my withering heart. 

But my loving moment was eventually devastated in a matter of a second, when a piece of cloth flew from nowhere and landed on my head.

I deadpanned as my mouth slacked with exasperation.

" Get in! It's cold outside " 

His voice was foreign yet warm.

I struggled to get rid of the cloth hugging my head.

" Nice acting by the way "

I could feel his smirk.

His attitude got on my nerves as my arms snatched away the cloth in one go.

Hey my dear readers,

Hope you enjoyed this chapter..

I know it's a bit of confujin, but hang in there and I bet you'll get it soon.

Thank you for reading.

Please take care of yourself!

Have a nice day / night 

Ciao~

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