Spiderman No Way Home spoilers in case you haven't seen it yet

Dear Diary:

I can't believe what happened today. During lunch, the homecoming committee, AKA Liz, asked me if I could hang up a bunch of homecoming flyers around the school. Of course, I wanted to say no at first, and then I realized maybe they'd respect me more if I did this for them, so I did. At first, I was worried I would be late to my next class.

But thank God I did it. Because while I was running to try and make it to class in time, I ran into maybe the cutest boy I've ever seen. His name is Peter Parker and he's maybe the cutest boy at the school. He's got cute brown hair, cute brown eyes, a really cute smile- okay, everything about him is cute!!

He helped me pick up my stuff, including the bajillion flyers that went all over the floor, and then took me to the nurse. I've got a nasty bruise on my knee and a small paper cut on my arm from the papers, but I don't care. At least the visit got me a nurse pass and I wasn't counted as tardy to my class.

I totally have a crush on Peter Parker, though, and don't quite know what to do about it...

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

Peter Parker is in three of my classes. I can't believe I've never noticed him before, but maybe it's because he sits in the back of the room and rarely answers any questions. When he does, he's right (of course).

I haven't talked to him since we (literally) ran into each other. It's too scary. He's so cool, I'm surprised he isn't more popular. Whenever we make eye contact, he always smiles at me. Once he did a little wave. Maybe he likes me back?

I've noticed he only has one friend, Ned Leeds. They hang out a lot and I heard them talking about Star Wars one time. Nerdy and cute. The more I learn the better he becomes.

My whole thing is I don't know if he likes me back or not. So, my plan is to try and become his friend. It might be hard since he's super closed with Ned, but I'm going to try. I'll start small, offering him gum in class or something, maybe even grouping with him on a project. Luckily we have a class together he doesn't have with Ned so I cam be his friend in there.

This feels like manipulation, but I'll do my best to be as genuine as possible. Cause, I mean, I'm not trying to manipulate I'm trying to be his friend (and maybe more).

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

Jeez, okay, it's been a long time. I've really forgotten to update this little book on my life, haven't I? Well, I'll just skip to the good parts:

Peter and I are pretty good friends at this point. I've met his Aunt May- who is the sweetest person- and we've hung out after school a bunch. He hasn't met my parents for good reason, but I told him about why I don't really like people coming to my house.

But something weird is going on, and I guess I can call this the "bad" part: he's totally hiding something and Ned is in on it. At homecoming, he went with Liz because he totally had a crush on her. He was excited when he told me about it, but then when I saw him arrive he looked really shaken and scared.

I would've asked what happened, but he talked to Liz briefly and then ran, and I mean ran away. When I wanted to ask Ned, he left too. I hung out with this girl Michelle Jones or MJ instead. She's chill and I think she's got a crush on Peter too.

She's so cool though, I just don't want to hate her. Maybe I'm going slightly insane, I mean, I don't even know if Peter sees me that way or if I'm just his friend.

Boys are complicated.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

Peter has a thing for MJ, I think. He's still my friend though, in fact I think we're pretty good friends (never as close as him and Ned, but getting there). He's still hiding something though.

The worst part is that I think I'm friends with MJ, so of course I like her and don't want to make her upset by going after Peter when she likes him.

It's going to be weird tomorrow. We're going on a field trip to the MoMA. Peter and Ned are going to sit next to each other and then MJ and I are going to sit next to each other. I hope we'll have fun together because it's the MoMA, so I think it'll be fun.

We'll see.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Oh my god.

Five years. I just lost five years of my life.

I just showed up in the middle of the freaking museum and scared the shit out of myself and others. Half of our field trip was there too, looking just as confused as me. I found Ned and MJ pretty quickly and we freaked out together. We didn't know where Peter was at all.

Just one of our teachers was here, and he didn't know what was going on either. He managed to gather all of us up in one big group and calm us down some so we wouldn't continue to freak people around us out.

Oh yeah, we weren't the only people to randomly appear. As I stood looking around I saw many people suddenly appearing. It was like they were being created from dust. That part I don't think I'll ever understand.

Authorities came to the museum pretty quick and it looked like they didn't know what was happening either. I almost lost it when they said it had been five years since we were last seen. MJ had gripped Ned and I'd hands at that and I fought tears.

Because five years is a damn long time and I just lost it.

I was lucky my house is still my house. Obviously I was scared at first that things had only gotten worse over the five years, but they must've finally realized divorce was the answer because my mom didn't have her ring on anymore and had a new boyfriend. He's nice, I don't mind him at all.

Mom called dad when I came home and for just brief moment in time it felt like everything was peaceful between us. He didn't stay long, though, and left to go back to his house after agreeing we'd get together soon and discuss stuff.

The 'stuff' probably being custody laws and all that since I'm technically still 16.

I'm also probably going to start therapy.

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Dear Diary:

Peter's safe. I don't know what happened to him and I don't care at this point. He disappeared or 'blipped' like Ned, MJ, and I. We all had a weirdly emotional moment when he found us at a school thing.

And news of Tony Stark's death came with it. Peter had been doing an internship with Stark for a few months before the blip. He was sort of like a father figure to Peter, and he died saving us from what caused us to disappear in the first place.

I felt really bad for him, and still do. He seems to be okay for now but I can tell he's not. I think this might bring us closer? I don't really know for certain. It's not like I want to use this trauma to bond us but at the same time: how many people are really going to understand this?

Oh, super random, but I was issued a new ID that had a special mark on there to identify the fact that I had blipped. I'm kind of surprised the government handled that quickly. I'm going to guess a lot of underage drinkers were technically considered overage.

Anyway, we have to redo our partially missed year of high school now and a bunch of kids I babysat are now in the same grade as me... it's weird as hell but I'm trying to move past it.

To be honest, nothing could get weirder than this situation we're in.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

So we're going on a field trip to Europe! I'm so excited to go and literally cannot wait. Peter, Ned, MJ and I are going to have so much fun! I honestly don't care that much about Peter's whole plan to ask MJ out because it's Europe which is so cool!

I genuinely can't wait because I've never left the country before because my parent's haven't ever wanted to nor have we ever had the funds to do so. All in all, this is awesome!

I wonder how beautiful Europe is. It seems like one of those places they take beautiful pictures of and the real side of it is kinda ugly. I guess we'll see!

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

I should've known the school was going to put us in a crappy hotel. It's super rundown and falling apart everywhere. Part of me isn't worried about it, though, because I know I'll be spending a lot more time outside of it in Italy!

Yep, first stop on the trip is Italy and I can't begin to write about our day so far. We dropped our stuff off and then decided to look around the city. I hung out with Peter and Ned.

Then, this huge water monster showed up and freaked all of us out. I don't even remember where a lot of us went. MJ and I ran around and found our class and stayed with them while we watched this flying guy save us from the monster. It was... man it was insane. I don't know if I've ever been in such a scary situation. I mean, the whole blip thing was stressful, not really terrifying like this was.

We got back to the hotel and I watched some of the news with Flash and the others but I got tired after a point and went to my room.

I hope that was the only excitement of the trip.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

So, a lot to report: we went to Venice and stayed in the maybe the fanciest place I have ever been to. And I mean it's the kind of place millionaires would stay at for a weekend getaway. We gathered in the lobby to go to the Festival of Lights, but I got tired of waiting and just slipped out.

Really regret it, though, because another monster showed up- this one was made out of fire. The flying guy from the water monster was there to save the day, but I think he may have died. I'm not sure yet.

But there was someone else, a Spiderman-knockoff. He was in all black and I think his name is 'Night Monkey'? It's weird but whatever.

Oh yeah, and everyone was super pissed at me when I came back to the hotel since they had no idea where I had gone and were worried. I'm all good though, just traumatized further.

Sadly, because of all this, we are going back home. The school and everyone's parents got scared of all the bad guys and want us home soon. At least we get to fly out of London, I hear.

At least I got to go to Europe, even if we didn't get to experience the full trip.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

Holy shit. That's all I feel like I can say. Holy shit. While on a bus on that Tower Bridge in London, this huge-ass monster showed up. Our driver abandoned us, too. I ran with Ned and MJ.

This is random and weird but it felt like they were trying to peel off from the group alone at one point. I gave them a confused look and then MJ grabbed my arm and we ran together. Flash followed us. We met this guy who said he worked with Spiderman which meant something I guess. Honestly a lot of that day is a blur because of how terrified I was the whole time.

There was one point we were being chased by a drone- yeah the monsters were made of drones- and hid in this vault where we revealed our secrets. My initial secret was the one about how I'm in love with Peter, but I knew that wasn't a good idea with MJ there so I just said something about my parents.

Anyway, we got out okay because Spiderman was there to help- not this weird Night Monkey guy. I think he was a one-and-done.

But yeah I guess we're all okay. I'm currently writing on the plane back home. I think after the whole thing Peter and MJ started dating so that's pretty great I guess. I'm working on ignoring it for now to let my mind settle, but I have to accept it at some point. I just don't know how that will go.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

I'm gonna lose my fucking mind. Like, I'm beyond pissed off right now.

My best friend and the person I've basically been in love with for years, is Spiderman. I don't even care about the whole 'murder' thing because he's been lying to me! And I'm pretty sure both Ned and MJ knew and have probably known for a while.

I'm ignoring all of Peter's calls and texts and I'm confident in the fact that he won't be coming over to my house considering most of the public hates him now. I hate him, too.

But at the same time I still feel like I've still got feelings for him but they're being buried so far deep down. Even if he hadn't been lying to me this whole time he's with MJ now so it doesn't even matter.

God I'm so fucking stupid. This is the worst.

Out of all the ways I could have been hurt by this impossible crush, this was maybe the least expected and most painful.

Great, now MJ and Ned are trying me. I hate everything and especially them.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

The first day back at school was today. Crowds lined the entrance to the school and a lot of people were yelling questions at me since I know Peter. There were even metal detectors and security guards at the doors to make sure nobody would try anything.

I saw all three of them today. MJ was first and I brushed her off and walked right by without looking at her. After I did it I felt guilty but moved on. Ned then tried to say something to me during a class and I just glared at him.

Peter didn't approach me or anything, but he kept looking at me. I tried not to look back, and if I did make eye contact with him I'd make sure to look hurt because I was- am hurt. He needs to understand that.

I don't know if or when I'll be ready to forgive him, that's for damn sure.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

We're a few days into the school year, college application time. I think this is what inspired Peter to finally talk to me. I found a note on my desk when I walked into one of our shared classes- science- that asked to meet up in this obscure area. I met him, Ned, and MJ there before they took me up to the roof.

It was hard, but I contained my excitement from being up there.

Then, we talked. I listened to Peter (didn't interrupt because I can at least show decency) with some comments from Ned and MJ, then they listened to me.

He talked about the other two accidentally found out and he didn't exactly plan on telling anyone, really. Everyone who knew about his identity before found out on accident, pretty much.

That didn't really help, especially because they did get to know and it was okay and he still thought not to tell me.

But then it was my turn, and I got to tell him all about it. Them, really.

What sucked is I do the thing where if I get really pissed off and mad, I'll start crying and all that which is the worst. I took a few deep breaths before Peter just decided to come up and hug me.

Doesn't mean I fully forgive him. My crush hasn't gone away though which I just think is dumb and rude. How can I be mad at someone I'm pretty much in love with? It's inconvenient.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

So I caved. I finally talked to Peter and said that I was extremely hurt, but I can't go on without him (as a friend) and told him he was far from being totally out of the water, but he was getting there.

This also came up because of early admission deadlines for college. We had planned last year that all four of us would apply to the same college, the dream being MIT but matching backups as well so we'd stick together. If I'm being honest with myself, I was really glad that was still the plan. I didn't really want to have to start over.

I've kind of talked to Ned and MJ again, too. I just really miss having my friends... but I can't just go back to the way things were.

Anyway, I need to finish my last college essay and then I'm all set for applications. We'll see how this goes.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

Every single one was a rejection. Just because I'm friends with and know Peter. I should have listened to MJ, expect disappointment and you'll never be disappointed, especially with MIT. When we were together, I was okay and accepted the rejection like a champ.

When I got home, I came to my room and haven't left since. I only just finished sobbing, too, so there might be a few stains on this page.

My mom tried to reassure me there was more to life than college, but for me, that was it. My skills don't transfer to the military or to a skilled labor of any kind, and SHIELD doesn't really exist much anymore so even if I was qualified, I can't join that.

Everything has gone to shit. And I can't even stop thinking about it because it's so huge. My entire future is gone with the blink of an eye. How can I not hyperventilate?

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

Peter fucked up. He told Ned, MJ, and I all about it. I mean, it was sweet, him trying to get us another shot at MIT, but he also released a whole bunch of bad guys into our universe (we're not alone, apparently??) and now we are going to help him find them.

Also, met Doctor Strange, he's kind of a dick.

Back to the important stuff: so far we've captured this Doctor Octavius guy, a sandman, and a lighting man. Oh, and a tree and the weird dinosaur Doctor Strange picked up. It's been a wild night- I'm not even home. Peter insisted we stay here in this weird underground place (Undercroft, maybe?) so we are safe.

He's still out fixing some power lines while we just sit here and look for another guy we heard about, this elf looking thing. Haven't found anything yet

Oh shoot, I fell asleep writing, so I might as well continue on this entry.

We got to meet the elf guy, or Doctor Norman Osborne. The poor man seems lost and confused and is obviously struggling with a greater mental evil. He seems like a very sweet and generous guy.

We chatted for a minute but then Doctor Strange came by, magicked him into a cell and then he and Peter fought in this mirror dimension thing? Anyway, it was a whole thing but now I'm with MJ and Ned at Ned's place because there's this whole plan and all this stuff and I don't really understand everything.

But now I'm bored. We're not doing much because we're waiting for word from Peter. If he gives the wrong one, we press the button on the weird box thing. Again, don't really get it.

Anyway, I'm gonna stop writing now.

Signing off, (Y/f/n)

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Dear Diary:

Oh my god so much shit has gone down I don't even know where to begin. Chronologically seems to be the best way about it.

So, the bad guys broke out and Aunt May was killed. While trying to find Peter using Doctor Strange's magical ring thing, we found two other Peter Parkers. I... I don't even know, man. It's super weird. But, we all managed to find our Peter, and we're now working in a school science lab to cure the bad guys.

We all had our moments to give our condolences to Peter. I gave him a hug and really wished and prayed it would never end. When MJ kissed him I looked down to stop from seeing it.

And apparently I'm not as subtle as I was hoping I had been. One of the other Peters (I don't know how to differentiate the two others tbh) asked me about it. We had a whole conversation where I tried to insist I was just one of his best friends and nothing more, but he finally got me to say that I like him. Well, that's what I said. He knew I meant love.

The strange thing is that I just view the other two Peters as friends, really. I mean, at first I was worried it was a universal thing where I would always fall in love with him but never get the chance. But it seems that the other me's out there are also just his best friend.

Or maybe Peter is an idiot in every universe. I haven't decided which.

The other other Peter who does kind of look like a youth pastor is pretty cool, too. He's really only been nice to all of us after his initial encounter with meeting the other Peter. That was a strange moment, I don't think they trusted each other yet.

But now, they're kind of like brotherly. It's sweet in a way.

They've finished up their cures it looks like, so it's time to get ready for the plan. Ned and MJ are gonna do their thing, and I get to do a thing, too! One of the cures is a bit more complicated timing wise, so I'm going to be crouched down and hidden, then when I get the word I have to mix two elements of the cure together and throw it to the Peter I got the word from.

It'll be scary, but I can't wait!

Signing off, (Y/f/n)