okay so i've had a crush on a guy for a while right let's call him... josh (that's not his real name)

and i'm graduations from eighth grade rn and then i've liked him since like end of sixth on and off. so i like fell hard for this boy because he's one of my closest friends tbh and my closest guy friend.

i became like severely obsessed with everything he did and all that like all those crush tings

and then covid started and i didn't see him and i finally got over him...

UNTIL FOUR MONTHS LATER IM OVER HERE  CLOWNING

so pretty much like i had seen him and stuff but didn't really think much of it and then we had to separate my classes for this game right and i was with my friends and i felt someone bump into my arm lightly and i turned around and looked up and

he was there

and ngl he got kinda hot... and TALL

like he's even more attractive and i'm like

cRAP

like i had just gotten over him and suddenly i was lost for words

me and some of my friends went hiking and there were five of us okay it was my friends (c)and (a) and then josh and another dude who's another close friend of mine and let's call him joe and when i came with them i was walking slightly with josh and next to him and joe went AWW I SHIP and josh was like f*ck off and i just was super uwu the whole time with him but didn't wanna show it so yeah

i'm screwed.

i have fallen i can't get up so if anyone is able to, can we get calum hood to come and help me because i think that's the only thing that can fix me