Author's POV

09:45 AM |At the palace's garden|

"Loving you is one of my mistakes...but...I didn't regret it..." His voice came out almost in a whisper tone, trying hard to catch more air as he still have something to tell her before he die, mustering all his strength, he lifted his hand, caressing her cheek and wiped away the warm tears streaming down from her eyes, looking at her face for the last time as long as he could.

"Always remember, I...love...you. Life or death, my love will stay the same. Be happy...with him...you deserve him...more than me..." His hand fell down to the floor as his eyes shut close, not breathing anymore.

"No, Hyun wake up! Please don't leave me! Stay with me please! No, no...please." She cried hugging his lifeless body, hoping he'll wake up but no...he can't anymore, his dead. "Hyun please wake up...I love you..." The words that came out from her quivering mouth realizing that it's him who she really love and not Wooji, but it's late... Too late... He's dead now.

"Oh my god I can't read this anymore..." You put the book down and wiped away your tears as you got carried away with the story. You looked around to see if someone saw you crying alone like an idiot there at the bench where you're sitting at.

You let out a sigh and checked the time on your phone, seeing the date telling it's Saturday today, you smiled as you're glad that today you can take a long rest, you smiled back at the maids who passed by at the garden, your starting to get along with the maids, butlers and even the securities, all the people inside the palace even the emperor as time goes by, you feel comfortable now at the palace, the place you felt home, with the only man you love, Jin.

Jin

The first one, your first friend, first boyfriend, first love....

You smile as you get the book and the pen on your pocket, flipping it to the last blank page, you wrote...

"Jin, the only man I'll love forever. My first and last."

-Y/n

You closed the book and put it back.

You wait for Jin after he left to his father's office with his cousin Jimin. Yes, they started to get along with each other, Jin told you about him and his cousin Jimin, they're not close ever since they were kids but now after Jimin found out that you're at the same university he decided to stay at the palace which you're also glad about it because they became close now more like brothers.

You didn't realized you're smiling until...

"Why are you smiling alone?" You slightly jump at your seat as the deep voice startled you. Turning your head to where you think you heard the voice came from, you saw Namjoon standing at your left looking at you with a questioning look and you quickly stand up and greeted him.

"Oh hi Captain Namjoon, nice to see you again." Your eyes tell how happy you are to see him again as your eyes shrinks when you smile which is kind a bit familiar to Namjoon and he doesn't know why.

"Me too, Y/n. So, how are you?" He asked, not forgetting to return back the smile and placed his hands inside the pocket of his pants.

"I'm fine, yeah. Anyway, what brings you here?" You asked in a calm voice so that it wouldn't sound rude.

"The emperor called me and gave me a special task, guess what..." He stepped forward to you and raised an eyebrow, giving you a 'What-do-you-think?' Look still smiling at you.

"What?" You slightly chuckled, didn't have any idea on what he wants you guess.

"From now on, I'll stay here at the palace because i'm your personal bodyguard now." Your widens at what he have just said. You stared at him for a while, looking directly at his eyes as you're trying to search some lies in them but nothing and he looked serious, he noticed you're doubting at his words so he let you stared like that him and didn't say anything until you looked away with your mouth slightly parted finally realizing that he's not joking.

"Wha-what?! Really?" You breathe out and frowned a bit as you can't help not to think negatively and Namjoon noticed it.

"Aren't you happy, Y/n? You don't want me to be your personal bodyguard?" He asked thinking that you don't like him to be your bodyguard, you shook your head as you he asked you.

"No! I want to--i mean I don't--" you stuttered as you don't know how to explain it, he cutted off your words.

"Relax Y/n, it's okay if you don't want to. It's totally fine." He chuckled at the sight of you pouting as you feel bad on yourself trying your best to explain but you don't know how, he found it cute.

"What am I trying to say is, I would be happy if you stay here but...you as my bodyguard I--"

"Don't worry about it, the emperor gave me the task and I willingly accepted it because I also wanted to make sure you're safe because you're my friend." He said and gave you an assuring smile. "And also like a sister." He added and your face lit up at the word 'Sister', your smile reach up your ears.

The word 'Sister' seems like a water to you that washes all your negative thoughts away and replaced an happiness to it. You may had a crush on him but it's just a friendly crush, you're just idolizing him, you wish to have a handsome brother like him when you were just a kid since you always play alone in the house, you don't know why you feel so fond with him. You thought maybe because a guy like Namjoon is your ideal type as a brother, and now your wish's finally granted.

"Really?! A sister?" You repeated and he nodded at you also smiling happily just as you. Namjoon also felt the same way as you, he doesn't know why but he always feel this kind of feeling everytime he see you. Longing.

He thought maybe because he just missed his baby sister.

"Yes, and you can also call me oppa(brother) if you want."

"Yayy! I have a brother now." You jump like a kid due to happiness and hugged him causing his wallet drop to the floor wide open revealing the baby picture again which both of you didn't notice it, he was taken aback at first before smiling and hugging you back.

"Cute~" he cooed as he gently pull away, pinching your cheek and you just giggled as you let him, you looked down as you blushed and then you noticed his wallet causing you to broke the hug.

"Oh, i'm sorry." You muttered before picking up his wallet and handed it over him, he mouthed an 'o' before smiling at you again. "She's cute."you added and he shifted his gaze down from his wallet up to you.

"Huh?"

"That baby girl on the picture. Is she your daughter, oppa?" You asked and pointed on the picture, his eyes widens a bit at your words before bursting out his laughter.

"Wha--daughter? No, she's my baby sister." He proudly said but sadly smile and looked down after mentioning her.

"Oh, sorry." You sheepishly smile at him but your smile fades when you noticed the sudden hints of sadness in his eyes.

"It's fine." He forced out a smile, try his best to make it looks like a real smile but failed to it when his voice slightly crack.

Shit. He mentally cursed.

"You seem sad, why?" You softly asked as you felt worried for him.

"Well, um..." He looked up again at you, your eyes locked each other, hesitation hits him if should he open up his problem to you or not, but seeing the way you softly looked at him with a concerned look, ready to listen whatever he wants or have to say, he let out a sigh before opening his mouth to speak again. "I lost her." He said trying to stay calm, holding back the tears that are threatening to form in his eyes.

"Y-you what?" You blinked two times, processing his words on your mind, thinking that your ears just betrayed you but it's not.

He lost his baby sister? He lost her? You thought and feel sad about it. You grabbed his hand and gently pulled him to sit with you at the bench, you didn't let go off his hand and rested it on his lap. "We can talk about it if you want. I'm all ears." You gave him a comforting smile.

"My parents died during their business trip to hong Kong when I was seven years old, she's just eight months old that time, she's the only one left for me, I took care of her even though we have maids in the house who can do it well, as an eldest I wanted to make sure to raise her well, pamper her, give all the love she deserve. But...I didn't expect that my worst nightmare would happen too early." He  closed his eyes the moment he felt his tears starting to form, trying his best to calm down so that he wouldn't look awkward and weak in front of you, he couldn't believe himself, he doesn't share his problem to anyone except his cousin, Taehyung. But with you, he doesn't know why he decided to tell you. Maybe because you're kind and understanding person? or because there's something inside his mind seems like telling that you need to know? But why? Instead of feeling awkward and regretting, he felt relief.

You looked at him with full of sympathy in your eyes.

"What happened?" You asked getting more curious about it.

"Six months after my parents death, My uncle brought us to a park, I was carrying her in arms, she smile so happily to me, she even called me 'Oppa' that time and I cried, i'm so happy hearing her first word...I placed her on the baby stroller when my uncle called me to get the box of food we bought from the market, I told our maids to watch her but...when I came back..." He paused, thickly gulping as he can't hold his emotion anymore and let out his tears "she's no longer there. I looked around, searching for her, asking the people around and some of them told me that they saw a maid running away while carrying a baby, it's confirmed that it's one of our maids and my baby sister in her arms when we checked it through the CCTV." His voice cracks at the end as he covered his quivering mouth from crying.

"Did you find her?" You asked, didn't realized a tear escaped from the cage of your eye.

"Sad to say, no...until now. I can't help not to worry for her safety, everyday and every night, every second and very minute, god knows how I feel. I know she's still alive, I can feel it. She's just somewhere out there, I hope they raised her well. But I won't give up, I'll still find her." He looked up to the sky, eyes full of hopes, you stared at his side profile, you rubbed your thumb on his hand to comfort him and he held your hand tight.

"You'll find her, I know you will." You said and he looked at you, eyes and cheeks glistened with tears.

"Thanks, sis." He breathe out and you wrapped your arms around him as you hugged him, gently rubbing your hand on his back to comfort him, you know that he needs it so you did, you know how it feels when you lost your love ones because you've been there too and it really hurts.

It took a few seconds for Namjoon before he hugged you back and chuckled at himself "I'm sorry, I'm your bodyguard but I look weaker than you." He said, you smile and then playfully hit his arm.

"Nah, don't say that. You wouldn't become the captain of your team if you're weaker than me." You said as you broke the hug and saw his now smiling face.

"You know what--"

"Y/n, I made cookies for us! Oh, i'm sorry, i thought you're alone. Hello, Sir!" you words cutted off when Sunny came to the garden with a bowl of cookies, her eyes widens the moment he saw you with Namjoon and quickly flashed him her bright smile and greeted him. Sunny knows that you and Namjoon are friends, noticing some dried tears on both of your face, she raise the bowl of cookies to you and Namjoon trying to brighten up both of you even though she doesn't have any idea on what you and Namjoon were talking about that seems so serious. "Cookies?"

"Looks delicious." You both said in unison, you looked at each other for three seconds before bursting out you laughters.

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A/n: Okay, so one of my fam in Wattpad got curious about the baby picture in Namjoon's wallet and asked me about it and I know some of you are also curious about it so I made this chapter to answer your question. I hope you guys like it.😅

Stay safe, healthy and happy.😘

Borahae~💜