you're in winter now

there are dead leaves buried under the snow

like the figments of

your dead heart

that you never had. you crave

a rose like

belle did but winter has lasted

for your whole life

(of ice storms and frostbite

and pain pain pain pain pain)

you don't believe in the

concept of other seasons anymore.

but spring will come soon

someone will bring lavender-scented rain and

pastel green clouds of growth

and leaves. something will

bring it in and it will

wash the pain away. one

day you'll be alive

here is my first letter to you,

the others will be all

the unspoken words between us

dear autumn girl,
wasn't it beautiful
watching from the lonely bookstore library
watching autumn fall
watching orange curls shake seeds into the ground

dear autumn girl,
everyday it hurts to be alive
yet you try so hard to survive another breath
you still need to gain the courage to dream
you still need to bloom before you dwell amongst the starflowers of wonderland
you walk through valleys
filled with poisonous white lilies and poppies of death
trying to find a way to climb the mountain

dear autumn girl,
you fall everytime a flower blooms
wondering when it will be your turn
for you have faded before your petals tasted moonlight

dear autumn girl,
don't be afraid to fall
fall with grace
drowning in the gray and orange hues of your soul
let winter overcome so spring could have a chance to make you alive

like a strange flower blooming between seasons
like the morning star that hangs between days
all of this, someday, will pass

i'll always miss you, my autumn girl
oh you are so blue
i'll always remember you, autumn girl

meet you when spring comes
until the flowers bloom again x

- from summer

author's note

this is only the beginning of the book

dedicated to mljw309 , who taught me a new meaning in goodbyes, in which i didn't believe in.

but autumn will always have to say goodbye to summer, and winter will always bid autumn farewell

goodbye, autumn girl

meet you when spring comes
until the flowers bloom again x

- from, zee, zay, uranium girl

p.s. i'll be forever reaching you in the skies of my imagination,