Just me ranting, honestly it's better if you don't read this bullshit

So I'm like in a pit right now with another funeral this Saturday. I have been acting okay and fine when I'm really not and my parents think I'm a kid with a great social life and great grades and I'm just great great great. They think I'm famous on Wattpad or whatever. They're just saying that to themselves because they don't want to have to believe that their kid is actually me, this depressed, lonely nobody girl who nobody cares about or knows. I wrote things down but I just can publish them because there's always something wrong, wrong with me. I'm done with pretending, done with lying. Done with pretending to be friends with people who punch me make fun of me laugh at me and literally choke me. I'm done with lying, my parents lying, I need to tell them that I'm never going to be okay and I'm never going to be this wonderful child who's famous and has a lot of money and doesn't have to worry because in reality I actually have plenty of shit to worry about. When I was younger my mom always asked "if all of your friends went and jumped off a bridge, would you?" I used to say no, but now that they're really all doing it I'm changing my answer to yes.