❝I'M SORRY.

SOMETIMES, I GET JEALOUS THINKING THAT SOMEONE ELSE COULD MAKE YOU HAPPIER THAN I COULD.

GUESS ITS MY INSECURITIES ACTING UP

BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NOT THE PRETTIEST, SMARTEST,

OR MOST FUN AND EXCITING BUT I DO KNOW THAT NO MATTER

HOW HARD AND LONG YOU LOOK YOU'LL NEVER FIND SOMEBODY THAT LOVES YOU LIKE I DO.❞

~ Titus ~

“Titus? Take this. What are you thinking so hard about, anyways?” asked Turner, passing me the folding chairs. Should I tell them? “Aryan” I said, pausing to see if any of my brothers have the same concern. But to my disappointment, nobody has a clue what I was concerned about. “What about him? ” asked Rihan, confused. I sighed audibly. “Are you guys blind, or trying to ignore what we saw back there?” my words fell on deaf ears. I simply shaked my head at it. “Speak english, brother. I'm not sure, what are you getting at.” said Turner. All three of them has the same expression.

“He's going back in time. Do you think his possessive self will let us near Aurora anymore?” that stopped whatever they were doing. Yeah, you feel me there now? “It doesn't matter what Aryan's planning on doing, Titus. It's important, what Aurora thinks. When she agreed to go on a date with all of us, she meant it. Even if she doesn't want to name it. But, even after spending some time with each of us, she decides to choose him, it's her decision.” said Duke, dejectedly.

“So, you're saying, we have to give her up, if she chooses to be with just one of us? Do you hear yourself right now, Duke? We talked about it already. She has to have all of us, or non of us.” I said, my words were final. I know I'm not being logical at this moment but, my fear of loosing her to my brothers, is killing me. I didn't expect her to affect me this much but, now she had and I'm afraid, my possessiveness is getting the best of me, even if I'm trying my best not to. I swear, she's going to be the death of me.

I was never so out of control in my life. I never offer a second glance to any woman I had ever been with because, I hate to look back. But Aurora, she makes me turn around the second, I start walking away from her. After giving a lot of thought, I agreed to share her with my brothers, which still bothers me like pin and niddles but, I did it for her. She is a rare woman to get and even harder to impress. If she even gets a hint of the conflict between us brothers, she might take a step back. And I don't want to take risk, pushing her away.

“I just...I'm not sure, what that girl is doing to me.” I finally confessed my fear to them. “Im crazy about her. I'm afraid...the way I feel about her. She's making me week, guys. She brings a different person out of me. I want her in my life. Every day. Every minute. Every second, in front of me.” My brothers gave me understanding smiles. “I knew it, the moment, I laid my eyes on her and knowing that all of you feel the same for her...makes me insecure.” I don't know, what will become of me, if she rejects me. I'm afraid if, she's even considering me as one of her options.

“You're over thinking Titus. We all are going through the same mental breakdown. You're not alone. There is 50-50 chances of everything you just said happening but, we can't live in fear, brother. Let's fight for her. Not with each other but, with our fears.” said Turner. “We might regret it later, if we let her go just like that. I'm not backing away ever. If she makes me wait for another 10 years, I'm willing to wait. But...I'm not ready to loose this battle based on my insecurities.” Duke said, determined.

I sighed. Maybe he's right. Maybe I'm overthinking but leaving Aurora with another man, even if he's my brother, it's making me anxious. “Promise me one thing brother.” Rihan bought me down to earth, by his own though. My eyebrows furrowed. “You won't go berserk, if she prefers just one of us over you even if you, me, Duke or Turner are not an option. End of the day, it's her choice.” I paced like a wild animal, after he said that. “Not every lovestory ends up like mom and dad's, Titus. You have to understand that.” said Duke, worried.

“I don't know...I don't know, how I would handle it so, I'm not gonna promise anything yet, bro.” I said, making everyone groan. Just when, Turner was about to give me another lecture, we saw a familiar figure walking our way with a frustrated look, followed by a smirking Aryan. “What's wrong?” I asked, holding Aurora's arm, stopping her from walking away. She just tried to pry my hands off but, I stopped her with my cold look. In return she gave me her fiery glare.

“Let go off me this instant, Titus. I'm not in a mood to deal with any more drama, right now. I'm just going to sleep all these off.” she said, trying to pull her hands out of my grip. “Fine. I'll let you go. Just tell me, if this idiot did something stupid again?”I glared at Aryan. In return, his smirk just grew bigger. “Oh Nonononono. I'm not doing this right now. I'm really tired. If you need any answers, you can get it out of your crazy brother. He's all yours.” she rolled her eyes and stepped out of my reach, when I was busy glaring at Aryan.

I thought, I'll let her go this once because, she's tired. And I'm sure, Aryan would not hide anything, judging by his smirk. After she was out of our sight, we all turned back to face our 'not so reserved anymore' brother and waited for him to speak. “Enough. Spit it out now.” I asked curious. What he said next made me envious of him more. “I couldn't resist kissing her against my car, forgetting the fact that, the naughty little me would stand erect, saluting her, soon after.” I couldn't help growling at him, including Turner. Duke just groan rolling his eyes and Rihan throwed his head back laughing.

“And I'm sure, you would have introduced little Aryan to her, making it very obvious, isn't it?” he joked, fist bumping with him. He chuckled amused, face lacking any kind of guilt. My brothers started bickering among themselves about the do's and don'ts and how we can avoid any disaster from her. But my mind was disturbed by the images of Aryan and her pressed together. I closed my eyes in an attempt to clear my mind of those images. Their first kiss. The suppressing violence and little control I had, left with those images.

Not thinking twice, I left my brothers behind and walked toward her tent with a mission. I might regret this later but, she need to hear this out. Without warning, I went inside her tent, startling her. Before she could scream or protest, I closed her mouth with my hand and pushed her on the make shift bed, with my body on top. Her screem were muffeled but, she tried her best to push me away from her. After a lot of struggling, I let her go and stood up, glaring down. She looks horrified and puzzled at the same time.

After regaining her senses, she got up and stood toe to toe with me, looking straight into my eyes. “What was all that about? What were you trying to do!?” she yelled, bringing few people's attention. But, one glare from me and they scurried away in fear. “Did you use the same force to pry Aryan off of you?” I said with anger and hurt feel voice. “What?” she asked, as if she had no clue what I was talking about. I scoffed. “There is no use in asking you things, you choose not to remember.” I mummered. “Titus? I have no interest in wasting my time  for this madness? Are you going to tell me or Not?” She asked gritting her teeth.

“You let him in...Why not me?” Now she understood, what I'm going through. Her furious expression morfed into a remourse one. She simply closed her eyes and traced her inner chicks with her tongue. She then sighed and looked the other way, before answering. “Because...I guess..um..I always wanted him to do that?” she turned her face to look at me. I nodded my head slowly at that. “And you never saw me..The others like that.” it was a statement. This is what I was afraid, would happen. She. Choosed. Him.

She didn't have any answer to that. After waiting for a long time, without any response, I gave her a sad smile. I lost it. She'll never be Mine. Aryan has put his first claim on her, 10 years back. Her heart only recognized him. I cleared my throat to avoid the lumps forming in it. “I'll...Check on the others..See you around.” I said, turning in time to hide my treacherous tears. Once I was out, I didn't look back, even though my mind was too stubborn to walk away from the...Love of my life. My first Love. Gone.

I was just few feet away, when she called me back. “I was too stunned to fight him.” I stopped in my track. What did she just say? I wiped my face, not ready to show her my weakness yet. I turned around to face her. “What?” I asked, not sure if, I heard her correctly. “I wasn't a..willing participant. The kiss, I mean.” she said, making me relax a little. “I..He's not someone I choosed over you all. Its just that...I feel more connected to him, than you all.” her words gave me assurance that, I still have hope. “I told you, I will spend time with all of you before making any...decisions.” she murmured the last part.

We had a staring match for a while untill I looked away first when, my body started betraying me with wild thoughts. “I appreciate that. Thanks Aurora...and I'm sorry for my outburst there. I was just...” I don't know what to say. Jealous? Hurt? Hopeless? But, she figured it out. “Insecure?” she asked with a blank expression. I nodded my head, briefly meeting her gaze. “I won't say, you don't have to be but, if it makes you feel any better, I'm either letting all of you in all non of you at all.” she said with a finality, just like me.

There is only one word to explain what I feel rightnow with her... Connected. I felt it before but couldn't put my fingers on, why exactly I was drawned to her. Now I know. She's a lot like me. Determined. Stubborn. Collected and free willed. I couldn't have asked for a better partner for myself. She has every quality that my brothers and me are looking for. Beauty, brain, empathetic, gathered, jovial, strong and more importantly... Real. Pure at mind body and soul.

She's Ice and Fire at the same time. Sometimes she's a stubborn child, cute enough to engulfed into a hug and protect from the entire world and sometimes mature enough for all of us to look forward to. She's perfect. “Titus? What are you doing here? We have been looking for you everywhere.” said Duke, walking towards me and then his eyes land on Aurora's figure. He looked back and forth between us. His expression looked panicked for few seconds. “Is everything alright?” he asked Aurora.

“Yeah” she said, before waving at us and went inside the tent. I sighed in relief for some reason. My heart was at peace for once. “Lets go..I have to tell you guys something.” I said, walking away with him. “Why were you snicking into her tent again?” Duke asked, eyebrows furrowed. I smirked at that. “Oh please, I had enough of those smirked face today. Tell me you didn't try anything with her, just like Aryan.” I just shrugged my shoulders. “Maybe?” I said with a humorous laugh to annoy him more.

“Titus!!” I laughed when he stopped in his track, giving me his ‘Im so mad at you right now’ look. “Chill bro. I didn't do anything. I just wanted to talk.” his shoulder fell in a relaxed manner and he just resumed walking beside me. “So, what did you two "talk"?” he asked, curious. There is nothing to hide so I told him all about our conversation. “Just what I told you. She's too mature for her age Titus. Be careful, how you react or what you say around her. She's very observing. Good at analysing characters and reading people's minds too” he said thoughtful.

“And how did you manage to get her wikipedia? I asked suspicious. “I have my ways” he said, giving me a mischievous smile. “Oh you cunning bastard.” I said bumping my shoulder to his. He just laughed it away. “Anyways, where are you planning to take her, if she decides to go with you first?” he asked me. I have planned it but, I'm not sure if she would like it. “I'm planning to take her to Arizona. That's all you need to know.” I said, walking backwards, looking at his now brightening face. “And you call me a cunning bastard?” he said, making me to laugh louder.

I don't know, what future has stored for us all or what her decision would be but, I'll not leave any stone unturned, in the process of wooing her. I'll never give up on her.

Guys, I have been requesting you to vote for me. I guess you don't like the story that much huh.
I see reads but just one comment and One vote, which is a little disappointing but, like other authors, I'm not going to beg you all.

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