"Mmm... it's so good." You say, tongue gliding along the side of your mouth.

Yoongi smirks as he stares over at you, shaking his head for a second.

You wipe the pasta sauce from the side of your mouth and arch an eyebrow while looking over at him.

"What?" you question. He merely chuckles before speaking.

"If I had no context or visual to that, you'd think we were still fucking." He teases. You merely roll your eyes.

"Please, as if you could last that long with me." You challenge. This causes the smile to fade from his face as he stares over at you. His stare is dark, warning you as you mock him. "S-sorry, just kidding." You say. His stare remains locked on you as you cower, looking down to your pasta and avoid eye contact.

You pick up your fork once more and gather some more pasta onto it before taking more pasta into your mouth.

A deep laugh erupts from his throat as you do so.

"Ah, you love pretending you're so tough, huh, baby?" he questions, causing you to look up at him once more. He smiles as you look over at him before lifting his bottle of soju and taking a sip of it.

"I never said that I'm tough." You state. He sets his bottle of soju down once more before speaking.

"You love teasing me but the more you get to know me, you find it harder to do it." He reasons. You raise an eyebrow and set your fork down as you stare over at him.

"I still like teasing you." You state.

"Harder to do when it's not over the phone?" he questions. You shrug a shoulder.

"Maybe a little." You state.

"How come?" he questions before eating his own pasta.

"It's just different in person. When you were just a voice over the phone, it felt like there weren't as many repercussions that would happen for mocking you."

"And now that you're here in person, you know I wouldn't let you get away with it?" he inquires. You stare at him for a few seconds, pursing your lips together because you don't want to admit. He then raises his eyebrows, an amused smile forming on his face.

His cute, gummy smile makes it hard for you to not smile back. The corners of your mouth begin turning upwards as you look over at him.

"Stop." You warn, knowing that he's trying to get you to admit that he's right about you knowing you wouldn't get away with it.

"Stop what?" he questions, acting confused. "I'm not doing anything." He states, causing you to quickly shake your head.

"You know exactly what you're doing." You state.

"What am I doing, kitten?" he questions, smile growing wider as he stares over at you.

You press your lips together for a second as you stare over at him.

A feeling of butterflies flapping their wings and flying around forms in your stomach as you stare over at him. You hold your breath in an attempt to stop the feeling.

To no avail, as you stare over at him for a few more seconds, you still feel the butterflies.

"Don't call me that." You say, voice coming out slightly quiet as you say this.

"Not a fan of that?" he questions, no longer smiling as he arches an eyebrow while looking over at you. You shrug a shoulder.

"I like that only during sex." You state before taking another bite of your pasta. He slowly nods his head.

"Okay, my bad. I'll only call you it while we're having sex." He states before taking another sip of soju. As you watch him swallow the intoxicating liquid, he then pulls the bottle away from his lips. He reaches for a napkin and gently dabs his lips clean of the residue that was lingering on his lips. "Any other things I've been doing on accident that I shouldn't be?"

"Not on the top of my head, no." you state before grabbing your own soju bottle and taking a sip.

"Okay." He says softly before nodding his head. "Just let me know if I ever am. All you have to do is communicate it so I know. I'm usually good at picking up on things and maintaining boundaries but I won't know you have a boundary unless you set one."

"Same goes for you." You state. He shrugs a shoulder before taking another bite of his pasta.

"I don't usually need boundaries on my end. I know this isn't something serious at the moment." He states. This causes you to raise an eyebrow as you stare over at him. He sees the look you're giving him and raises his eyebrows. "What?"

"I have a question." You state, now curious as to how he's able to not set boundaries on his end.

"Shoot." He urges.

"How are you so nonchalant about this?" you question immediately.

"About what?"

"This." You say while gesturing between the two of you. He merely tilts his head to the side for a second before licking his lips.

"This as in, the aftercare we're doing right now, or this as in our situation in general?"

"Both." You state. "I just... it baffles me that this isn't strange to you. It makes me think that maybe you've already done something similar before..." you state, voice growing quieter as you say this. He merely bites onto his lip before speaking.

"Well, you're correct. I have done this before." He states.

"With a client?" you inquire, eyebrows raising. He merely laughs before nodding his head. "What happened to me being your only client who is capable of making you hard, hm?" you tease now, your jaw dropping after you ask this.

"Well, yes, out of all my current clients." He says while scratching the back of his neck. "Not the first client though."

"Tsk, tsk," you scold while shaking your head. "How unprofessional." You joke. This causes him to laugh before shaking his head.

"It's not unprofessional when I'm the one who makes the rules with my account." He explains. "I consider it... reaping the benefits." You scrunch your face up in disgust as he says it that way, shaking your head. He immediately starts laughing.

"No, just... no." You state immediately.

"What? It's true." He attempts to reason. "It's not like I'm doing this through one of those phone sex hotlines where I could get in serious trouble for hooking up with my clients for real."

"Mmm... I think you'd still be able to get in trouble for it." Your voice comes out unsure. "Especially if you're a bad fuck. Someone could easily spread that around and you'd lose your callers." This statement causes him to laugh while he shakes his head.

"Is this your attempt at telling me I'm a bad fuck?" he teases.

"Hm..." you start before placing your index finger on your chin, pretending to contemplate.

"Oh, come on." He says while rolling his eyes. "You would have told me the first time if I was and would've never gone back to this damn studio." You laugh as he reacts this way.

"Ah, did I get close to hurting your pride?" you say with a grin on your face. He shakes his head before reaching a hand up to cover his face for a second. "Now I'm even more curious. How many other clients have you done this with?"

"Whoa now, don't go making me sound like a guy who can't get pussy if it weren't for his job." He warns,  causing you to laugh softly. "For context, I've had plenty of girlfriends and hookups. Not all of my sex results from my account."

"Okay..." you nod slowly, urging him to continue.

"You are the third client I've done this with." He states before taking another bite of his pasta. He then chews for a second before speaking further. "The first client was a girl who called after I had only about fifty clients and I had been going through a breakup over this account."

"You had the account while with a girlfriend?" you question while raising your eyebrows. He leans his head back.

"I had taken a break from the account while with my girlfriend. Even announced that I was on hiatus and gave context as to why I was on hiatus to my followers... hell, I even deleted the app from my phone and changed my password but my girlfriend would know I wasn't using it. However, she was adamant that I should delete the account overall." He states.

"I hate to be this person but she has a fair point." You state. This causes him to look over at you and brush his tongue along the side of his mouth.

"Yeah?" he questions.

"Well, depending on how long you two had been together... yeah." You state. He softly laughs.

"Okay, try a month." He states. This causes you to scrunch up your face in regret. "Yeah, a little soon, don't you think?"

"Sometimes things like that are unnegotiable." You state. "Maybe she was thinking any time you two got in a small argument, you'd log back into the account to spite her. You never know with people's prior dating history. There can always be unresolved trauma that leads to insecurities in future relationships."

"Huh... never thought of it that way." He states before shrugging a shoulder. "Well, I was younger then and a lot more selfish. I wasn't even working at my day job back then. That was far before that."

"So it was more your main source of income?" you question. He laughs softly.

"I mean, I was working other jobs with it, two other ones and being a student on top of that. Delivering food, full-time student, and I was still producing music on a cheap, old laptop that I tried selling in the underground rap scene." He states before sighing. "Those were rough times."

"That sounds rough." You say sympathetically.

"Yeah, there were times where I didn't have food. I had to choose going on the bus or eating." He states before shrugging his shoulders. "But I'm past that now and look where I'm at." You nod your head as he says this.

You're taken aback by his background. No wonder Jieun was so excited to work with him. Few producers in the music industry have the humility and humbleness that he does.

"That makes more sense now why you were hesitant to go through with deleting it." You state. He nods his head before sighing softly.

"But anyway, we ended up getting into a huge fight and a client called me. She had a sexy voice and I was a stupid kid and met up with her, didn't sleep with her though. Never met her again after that. Thank goodness because she was wasted and just comforted me by holding me until she knocked out." He explains. You nod your head slowly before softly grinning.

"I wouldn't exactly count that. You didn't sleep with her, you were respectful because she was drunk." You state. This causes him to shrug a shoulder.

"Even when I don't hook up with a client, if I meet up with them in person, I count it." He states. "The other client before you is one who keeps talking to me after the phone sex portion."

"Oh?" you question.

"And she's really good at the phone sex portion too. Every time she calls, she also pays in addition to the normal fee as a tip." He states before sighing softly.

"Ah, the sugar mommy type?" You tease, causing him to laugh softly before shaking his head.

"Not why I like talking to her." He denies immediately before you softly laugh and nod your head. "She's overall just a really good conversationalist and her personality drew me in." he states.

You nod your head slowly before realizing that unlike the other girl, he's not referring to her in the past tense. This causes you to feel slightly better about everything that Irene was telling you.

If he is seeing another girl at the same time, you know he doesn't like you in that way. That would mean he just likes fucking you. And though she would prefer you to be in a serious relationship, you'd prefer the latter.

"So, are you hooking up with her as well as me?" you question. He glances over at you and pauses for a second.

"Would that bother you if I were?" he questions. You merely laugh which causes his shoulders to physically relax.

"Honestly, as long as you don't give me an STD or any other disease because you're sleeping with us both, I really don't care. That's your prerogative." You state. This causes him to slowly nod his head.

"Okay." He states before softly smiling over at you. "I'm going to use the restroom really quick. I'll be right back." You nod your head as he says this.

You let out a soft sigh of relief once he leaves the room as you realize he's also seeing that other girl. Less likelihood of you having to hurt him, or worse, you losing your fuck buddy.

The guy is sweet and all but you're at the point where you're tired of relying on love and having someone for happiness. It works better that you have someone to satisfy your sexual needs while also not needing to be codependent on someone else for happiness.

Though Irene would disagree, you feel content knowing this information. This means you can go on dates with other men whenever you feel like getting a free dinner in the meantime and still get laid afterwards without having the guilt of sleeping with someone on the first date. Overall, this is a situation you're happy to have.

*****
I hope all of you are doing well.

I'm still struggling with my mental health but slowly and surely getting better. I was able to call a hotline to get a therapist for 3 free sessions so I'm going to be scheduling that soon.

Let myself be a lesson to all of you that it's perfectly healthy and normal and good for you to get therapy. I didn't have the best upbringing and I've had a lot of traumatic things happen to me in my life. However, I believe even people who have had good lives with hardly any trauma could also still benefit from therapy.

Please take care of yourselves. Eat well, drink lots of water, and take care of your physical and mental health.

I purple you
Kim 💜