"So you love kitten?" She startled once she heard the voice, taking her hand away from the tinny kitten which is lazily lying on her laps. The kitten just came when she waits for lunch break over. And she cant help to restrain its cuteness.

"Taeyong-ssi." She states and make the boy smirked. He sat in front of her, bending his body so he can kiss the kitten on her laps. Its hella uncomfortable. She doesn't know what other people will think about them if they see this scene.

"And you remember me." He spoke caressing the kitten and it surprisingly make the kitten snuggling to his hand. "His name is Leo."

"Is it yours?" She asked can't believe. He nods anyway and she cant stop looking at him with wide eyes makes him chuckled. He want to kiss that cheeks. "But you seems not the type who will have pet like this tiny kitten."

"I see how Jungkook affecting you with his judgmental issue." She frowned but acknowledging her self. He is true.

"Sorry." She weakly spoke and playing with Leo again. "Annyeong Leo, my name is Lisa." She then almost jump excitedly when Leo answer her words with a meow. "Gosh, you are so cute. What to do." She whined completely forgetting the fact that Taeyong was there to see her aegyo.

"I have another one in my house." She then look at him with her twinkle eyes and smiling. Anticipating. "The name is Luca. He is tinier than Leo."

"Oh really? You must have save a country in your last life." She commented and pouting looking at Leo. "I always want to have pet. But I am too lazy to raise them."

"Want to meet Luca next time?" She almost nodded when suddenly her eyes catch a glimpse of someone behind them so she looks away. She was right.

"Doll!"

--
He was so silence when we walk to my dorm. We were planning to watch movie together but then he said it's not the right time to go to cinema he said that we will watch netflix at my dorm.

And I know that the netflix he said will be our fight. From the look in his eyes and the raging breath of him. I didn't cheat, anyway. So I keep on my silence too, since I am best at that. And I guess it makes him more pissed.

I was opening my dorm room, take a step hesitantly with him behind me. I place my shoes on the rack and almost had an heart attack when I heard loud slamming sound.

"That's just a fucking door, Jeon." I cursed out of my annoyed and he spats right in front of me when I look back at him. Pinning me to the wall, he looks like an angry bull.

"Right, you should be grateful thats its not you who I slam." He states and I no longer have patience in me.

"Whats wrong with you?"

"What's wrong with me? No. Its fucking you who I guess hit your head hard before you went to uni." He rolled his eyes and I hate it. I try to loosen up the grip of his hand on mind but he didn't budge, not even in a millimeter away.

"You know I guess you have to clear your mind inside your own dorm."

"So you kick me after you talk with that jerk?" I cant believe his audacity.

"So this is only about Taeyong."

"Dont fucking spell his name, doll." He said gripping my hand tighter and I squirm, he hurts me. And it makes me scared, remind me of my father. A jerk who use his strength to torture mom, the one he said he love. Joke on him.

"Jeon, you hurt me." I whined but still harshly try to yank his hand but I can't. "Jeon.."

"Glad you know, that's nothing compared with how you hurt my heart." I bite my lips force my eyes to not tearing up. "Is it painful huh?" He chuckled mockingly and I can feel my legs trembling. "This is how you will learn to not talk and cheat on me. Especially with him, the man who kissed you."

Finally I cried when he hissed in front of my face and yanking my hand so I was collapse on the ground. Whimpering.

"Dont fucking cry. This is your mistake. You are just too flirty, cant you keep your pussy only for me huh? He invites you to his house, he entice you with a fucking cat and you give it to him." He spat angrily and I couldnt take this anymore. I was standing up and was about to run to my bathroom when he walk fast and push my body harshly on the bed. He pinned me and start to force the kiss.

"No. Please no. Stop. Jeon. Dont." I panicked and with all of my strength try to stop him, pushing and punching his body but he keep on sucking my neck now.

My head is spinning and I feel so cold, I was crying mess now and want to swallowed by worm hole. I don't want to be here. I don't want to be with him. Fuck off with the feeling and Yuqi. I don't want to be touched by him.

"No..." I shout again this time weaker as the pain swallowing me, granted my wish, but I never wish for a great trembling before I was lost, in a pitch darkness too.

I hate you.

Father.

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"Hyung, where the hell are you?" He shout at his phone angrily when the man from another line take the call.

"I am right in front of the gate." He said rushed. "You better pray that nothing bad happen to Lisa or else .. you know Kook what will happen."

--
"Her heart beating so fast, it must be because of the impulse or action that causing her hysteria." The doctor said and the two man not really pay attention to him but to a pale woman laid on the bed now. "She must had this traumatic record. And you must take her to a psychiatrist if she shows you a sudden change behaviour."

After a bit explanation, the doctor asked for his leaving make the three of them left in a room, in silence.

"What did you do now, Kook?" The man said still focusing his gaze at her. "Don't you feel enough already to play her?"

"I don't know hyung. I don't know." The younger said frustrated and grabbing his front hair, pulling it harshly. "So stupid." He said to himself regretting everything he did. He hurts her. She was begging him to stop but his ego was hurted, his eyes blind with jealousy. "You are cursed, Kook." He then chuckled painfully, make fun of himself like an idiot. Depressed. "You are a fault."

"You are dumb." Added the man beside him. He wanted to throw the punch on Jungkook, but he is a grown man and beside, Lisa ask him to not bother their relationship. In any matter. So he keeps it all inside his chest, along with the secrets their share. "I am not fucking understand why she even choose you over m-" he almost chocked on his saliva, realizing what almost he said. He almost open that pandora secret. Too late. Jungkook is sharp learner.

"You don't like her the way I like her, right.." Jungkook asked hesitantly. "Right, Yoongi hyung?"

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"You wake up, doll." He said happily when the girl opening her eyes, blinking rapidly adjusting the light. And then when the realization hits her, she frown and immediately sat back. "I am sorry." He said softly reaching her hand but she quickly take it back from its position on the bed.

"Don't touch me." She said weakly. But clear enough for him to make him regretting it even more.

"Baby."

"Dont." Her voice cracked when she protect herself but couldn't stop him to hug her body. Tightly.

"Doll, please calm down." He said patting her back and tightly hugging her when she trembled again. Put his chin on her shoulder he then place her on his lap.

"Don't touch me. You hurt me." She speak and try to push his chest. Trying. She is trying. "I hate you. Go away, get lost." She shout louder and he wish the wall was indeed sound proof.

"No. I won't hurt you anymore. I promise, doll. I am sorry. I promise." He spoke more serious and releasing the hug to face her. Tear staining her face make him sad and disappointed to himself. He makes the love of his life crying.

"I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you." She said angrily throwing all of the pain and anger that is caused by the old memories to him. "I hate you."

"I love you." He said back in every I hate you she was said. "I love you, I am sorry. I wont do that again."

That night, she cried until the last drop of her tears and fallen asleep in his embrace, soaking his hoodie with tears.

He hurts her.

But she still love him.

Stupid.

But it's real. Its her.