"Fat-ass"

"Pig"

"Ha you can't even seat on the
Chair properly!"

Bullies said as they throw garbages on you .they were judging you too much and it
Barely offend you .

No one tried to talk to you .all
Of them talk at your back when
You don't see them .

The one more worst thing was
You were rejected by your
Crush .Bertolt hoover .he was
Your crush since you entered
'Freedom High'

It was true .you're a fat-ass .you
Can't even run for almost 2
Kilometers .you always eat
Many .maybe your food was
Almost 2 times than they eat.

"Just leave you don't belong here mother fucker." One of the bullies said pushing you to the
Ground before leaving .

Tears ran down your cheeks and
You really did regret that you
Live,that you're given birth in this worst reality .

You ran as fast as you can out
Of the school hearing whispers
To you .you ignored it and ran
Home .

You opened the door in your
House seeing your mother .
She gave you a confused look
Because you got home early.

"Oh honey! Are you are hungry?"
She asked plastering as smile at
Her face .that just made you
More miserable .

You shook your head and head
To your room .you locked your
Door and lean on the wall
Rubbing your foot to each other.

Tears fell down your eyes with
Uncontrollable sobs while you
Were covering your face .

"I wish I could just die!"you
Said .few minutes later you
Fell asleep from crying .

You woke up feeling your stomach growl .you shrug it
Off and just curled into a ball.
Then you heard a knock from
Your door .

"Honey it's already dinner let's
Eat."your mother said and you
Just cried again ."no I don't like.
Leave me alone!"you said between sobs.

You heard your mother sigh and
Just walk away.

Days later you really have no
Appetite even if your stomach
Growls like an animal .you
Just ignored it even if it hurts
Too much for you .

You didn't even dare to get
Out of your room and just
Cry not caring what's happening
On the world outside like you
Called 'hell'

You just drink water from the
Faucet even you know it's
Not that bearable .you just want
To take over your thirstiness
And you don't even care about
You're health .

You were so weak that you can't
Even try to stand up or speak.
Your throat is so sore .you
Are now slamming your head
In the wall crying your eyes out.

"Why do I have to live even if
I have no importance in here!?
I'm just a stupid bitch!"you thought to yourself not being
Able to say it .

*two months later*

You were lying on the floor with
No strength .you can't even lift
Your hand nor your head .

You crawled through you mirror
And your face turned horror.
You're a complete mess and you
Look so thin .your hair is tangled
With each other and you have
Dark circles under your eyes.

You put all your strength and stood .your clothes was so big
At you and that clothes is the
Very clothes you used since you
Locked yourself in your room.

You head through the shower and took a bathe. You came out
With a towel wrapped around and you head through your
Closet finding clothes tired
Of crying your eyes out and
Locking yourself in your room.

You looked at the clothes and it
Looked really big .you head through the small drawer were
You put your clothes when your
Still eleven .

You bring out a button shirt and
Shorts and wore it .it fitted to
You .those are the clothes when
You're still eleven .

You combed your hair weakly
And sat on the bed .those clothes
Really fitted to you .you get
Your courage and grabbed your
Black jacket .

It was large to you but you
Don't care .your stomach growls
Again and as usual ,you ignored it. You get your school bag and
Some things after deciding that
You should go back to school.

Of course you don't want to waste your parent's effort of
Paying your tuition .

You walk out of your room and
Saw your mother .she turned
And her eyes widen seeing you.
"Who are you?!"she asked and
You gave her a confused look.

"It's me. _____" you said ."that's
You?! What in the hell you look
Like that?!"she said almost
Freaking out .

"You missed school for two months and you didn't even
Try getting out of your room!"
She said shaking you .

"It's okay .I promise to get high
Grades .just get me new clothes."
You said and walked down leaving your mother freezing
In shock ness.

You grabbed an apple and ate
It .you can say it .you're happy.
You looked really fit and you
Were far from your look .

You wore your shoes and went
Outside knowing that's it's
Still 7:45 am, so you still have
15 minutes before 8:00 .

You walked through school
Earning some whispers .you
Found your room and saw
Sir Levi sitting on his desk.

You looked at your watch and
It says it's already 7:55 am.
You entered and Sir Levi gave
You a confused look .

"Are you lost brat?"he asked
And all of the gazes of the
Students turned to you .

"No I'm not sir."you said .
"But why do you look new?"
He asked ."I'm _____.isn't obvious?"you asked raising an
Eyebrow .

His eyes widen as he starred
At you ."what happened to you?
You've missed school for two
Months?"he asked ."I just
Went somewhere important."
You lied .you sat on your seat
And looked at him .

After school you went at the
Rooftop to get away from the
Annoying people who kept asking you ."hi there"you heard
Someone said .you turned seeing
Reiner.

"Get the fucking hell away from
Me." You cursed ."please forgive
Me .I didn't mean to offend you
Too much ."he said bowing to
The ground .

You can't handle seeing anyone
In this such situation even if
Your situation was worse than
Theirs before .

You walked over him and sat
Beside him ."I forgive you ."
You said .a smile appeared on
His lips and he Hugged you.

"U-um need to say something..."
He said as he pulled away .
"bertolt .he like you .he thought
That you didn't attend school
Because of him so he blamed himself .he's regretting that he rejected you."he told you .

And with that .tears started
Rolling through your cheeks.
"What's wrong why are you
Crying?"he asked ."did something happened to him?"
You said .

"Not actually .remember earlier?
When he saw you he just almost
Passed out because you look
Like a zombie .I didn't really mean zombie but you looked
Messed up."he told you .

"Where is he?"you asked ."with
Eren"he said and you nodded.
You ran to find him to say that
It wasn't his fault and to confess?

You finally found him and he
Is talking to Armin. "_____. What
Did you do?" Armin asked you.
"Cried my eyes out"you said and
Bertolt's expression turned
Sad as he sweat .

"B-bert.."you said as you looked
At him ."i-it wasn't your fault.
I am sorry for making you
Feel worse."you said as you
Looked down and tears started
Flowing again.

"I just want to change .I am done
Of those words so I locked myself
Up .I just hate my life! Look I just
Made feel someone worse!"you
said as you cried more .

"I want to be beautiful for you.
I love you .but I just made you
Blame yourself ."you said wiping
Your endless falling tears .

Then you felt someone hugging
You .you looked up seeing
Bert ."it's never been your fault.
You don't have to blame yourself.
You're worthy .I love you .don't
Leave me .I don't care what you
Look like or how big or small
You are .care about how much
I love you ."and with that statement of his ,your heart
Fluttered .

"I'm sorry .I love you."

"I love you too"

******

Yeah yeah yeah .sorry if this
Is crappy .but if you were in
That kind of situation it
Was really depressing .

Stay healthy and eat very well
Reader-chan .don't try to
Make yourself fit by not eating
Or starvation diet .that may
Kill you 😉

~Christy