NATASITT'S POV

- Max, can I ask you something? - I started the conversation as soon as we entered my room.

- Sure, sweetheart, what's up? - He replied, using the same nickname he always used whenever we were alone.

- I missed you... - I confessed quietly, shyly lowering my head.

- Let me... hug you. Can I? - The older one approached me, looking expectantly into my eyes.

- No! - I shook my head, remembering all those years without him.

- Are you still angry? - Max reached out to place his hand on my cheek, but I took a step back, preventing him from making this tender gesture.

- Darling...

- No, P'! I waited for you. You were supposed to reach out, but you didn't. - I felt tears welling up in my eyes.

- Dearest, I... You know I had to leave. You allowed me to take that internship.

- Yes, but you promised that nothing would change between us!

- I had to, I mean... Nong, look... You're so young, with your whole life ahead of you, and me? It's undeniable that I'm older than you. After the internship, the company agreed to hire me. Thanks to that, our paths crossed again. I gained experience, which led me to locate Bible and his gang. I also saved a considerable sum to buy us a place, and besides... Now my CV has what it needs to find a high-level job and secure a proper future for us. Darling, all this time, I've been thinking about us.

- If you had come back immediately after the internship, you wouldn't have had to track anyone down. - I furrowed my brows in anger.

- I wanted to give you time. I wanted you to experience youth, to enjoy life. I wanted, with a heavy heart, but I wanted you to also experience different kinds of love with someone else, and I wanted you to be sure about your orientation. I also wanted you to try being closer with someone else... to discover your preferences and likes... It was important to me that you experienced life like any other teenager... Studied, went to parties, and had passionate romances. I wanted to give you the space people your age need. Nat... What do you think your friends would say if what was between us came out? You were just starting high school, and I was about to graduate from college... Darling, I've always tried my best to make sure you experienced life to the fullest, and-

-Kiss me! Kiss me, and then fuck me! - I threw these words at him, losing control over the tears streaming down my cheeks.

- Sweetheart... - Max took a step forward towards me and gently wrapped me in his arms, soothingly stroking my back...

- No, Max! - I snapped at him, letting go of any polite phrases.

- Then you have to take off my pants and put it your cock in my ass! - I sobbed through tears, grabbing the collar of his shirt and one button at a time, started unbuttoning it.

- Nat? - P' grabbed both my hands struggling with his buttons and kissed them gently, one by one.

- Look at me, Natasitt. - Max lifted my chin with his fingertips so I would meet his gaze.

- I promise to make love to you in a way you'll remember for the rest of your life, but not today. - I broke free from his embrace, returning to unbuttoning his shirt.

- Nat! Look at me! - Max grabbed my hands firmly, and then buttoned up his shirt all the way to the collar.

- You could've just said that you don't want me anymore! - Tears were streaming down my face, and sadness was running through my whole body. Nothing hurts more than rejection.

- I'm sorry, I trully am... - The older person pulled me close again, embracing me tightly.

- P'Max... I was a good boy, just like I promised you. I didn't drink, I didn't do drugs, I didn't party. I graduated with honors... I also promised you something and, unlike you, I kept my word. I promised you that you would always be my first and last. No one has ever touched my body the way you did. No one but you has kissed my lips. No one has touched me, and I didn't let anyone get close to me. Throughout that time, no one has kissed me, and no one has flirt with me. I was waiting for you... and only you!

- Nat, but it was you who didn't want to show off our relationship. And you were completely right in that, because at that time, for your sake, I wouldn't have agreed to coming out either.

- It doesn't mean that I wanted to break up with you. You promised that when you left, nothing would change between us... And yet, you suddenly cut off all contact with me. Do you realize how terrible I felt about that??! Are you aware of how many nights I cried?

- You were the one who said you didn't really know who you are. What if one day you decide that you actually want to have a wife and kids?

- I told you that I don't like guys. I've always told you it's about you. I like you, regardless of your gender.

- Nat... so, are you ready to officially be my boyfriend? - Max asked me the question I'd been waiting for for years... A smile appeared on my face.

- P'... I...

- I apologize... I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked about that. I should focus on rebuilding the trust between us, which I shattered so easily. Every day, starting now, I will make an effort to-

...I cut him off, pressing my lips to his greedily. I kissed him at different tempos, allowing our tongues to dance at their own rhythm. My hands roamed over his body, exploring every inch...

- Is this answer enough or should I repeat? - I paused our kisses for a moment, gazing deeply into his eyes. P' bit his lip, unable to suppress a smile.

- I'm your boyfriend. Yours and yours alone. Never leave me again... - I responded firmly, and Max nodded, once again uniting our lips.

- Darling... I missed you too... You have no idea how much.

- P', please, I need you... - I lightly pressed against him, showing him how much he affected me.

- Do you have any condoms?

- I'm clean. If you haven't been with anyone during all this time, I really want to feel you. But if you've been with someone, even once, look for the condoms in the top drawer of the dresser on your left. - I widened my eyes when Max slid off his pants without moving from his place. I was sure he had been with someone. He's an adult man and has his needs.

- Lubricant? - He asked, kissing my neck...

- Max, I really need to know.

- P'?! - I moved back for a moment as he latched onto my nipple.

- Hmmm? - Max lifted his head, gazing at me with eyes brimming with desire.

- P'... Why didn't you go to the drawer? - I asked softly.

- Nong, I love you, do you understand?! How could I sleep with anyone else when I've given you my whole heart? The only one I've had a romance with during this time is my right hand, silly you... I love you, I never stopped and I will love you until the end of my days...

- The lubricant is where it always is... - I replied cheerfully, quickly taking off my clothes...
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