ZEE'S POV

It's been a few days since I argued with NuNew. After he left home, he came back two days later with P'Aof. I was genuinely very worried, because Nhu had never done anything like that before.

None of us knows what NuNew was doing during that time or where he was. Aof was furious and locked himself in a room with him. After a few minutes, he also called for Max.

The three of them didn't come out of the bedroom for a very long time. They stayed there for over two hours. Since that conversation, to which neither I nor Nat were invited, NuNew has reduced his contact with me.

Since that talk with P'Aof, NuNew only talks to me when absolutely necessary, and only about work. Since then, Max is practically always by his side, and it's clear that the two of them have become closer.

When I see them together... I find this extremely frustrating, and I feel like Max is starting to get on my nerves.

And when it comes to my life with Ploy, well... She is really attractive, kisses me well and knows how to please in bed, but... there's one issue. I don't love her.

I'm usually not the type of person who easily enters into a relationship. I'm traditional, and I believe that if a girl willingly gets into bed with you, she's nothing more than a whore. I also think that it should be the man who pursues the woman, not the other way around.

According to my principles, a woman like Ploy was nothing but a call girl. I always turn down people like her. Under usual circumstances, I would have said no, but those were not usual circumstances. I went to Pink Diamond to blow off some steam after an argument with Nhu, and that girl just helped me out a bit with that.

That night I allowed myself a moment of forgetfulness and found myself in Ploy's bedroom...

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Yes, that's true. I kissed NuNew. When our lips met, I was really confused, but... I didn't want to stop it. I truly don't understand it, and to this day, I don't know how to interpret it. Nunew is just my best friend, well, my ex-best friend actually.

Ok, I admit... Looking back, Nunew and I had a rather close physical contact, but is there anything wrong with that? After all, that's how friends behave, right?

No one is telling me anything about that situation, as if the day when the younger boy returned was some kind of secret. Natasitt has always sided with NuNew, regardless of whether he was right or not, so that doesn't surprise me. But Max? Every time I try to pry information from him, he deftly changes the topic.

Certain things flow at the same rhythm. We have singing and dancing lessons, live performances, concerts, and interviews... We also have fans and we're becoming more and more popular.

I have everything I ever wished for, but inside I feel an emptiness, as if I suddenly lost something very precious.

I've been meeting with Ploy several times a week, disappearing from home for a few nights each month... NuNew still had no desire to talk to me. Three months have passed, and I really started to miss him.

The argument started by the younger one at that time seemed absurd to me. At first, I was angry with him, but then I was also angry with myself.

In the beginning, I didn't really pay attention to his words, but after analyzing the whole situation, I understood that NuNew practically confessed his feelings to me through this argument...

...unfortunately, when I realized it, it was already too late.

NuNew began to avoid me, and I had no clue how to fix it. Suddenly, I started to get more and more annoyed with Max, he really pisses me off!

I knew that Natasitt had to be aware of what was going on because, knowing his jealousy, he wouldn't allow his boyfriend to spend so much time with someone else.

After four months of casual dating with Ploy, I decided to completely cut off contact with her. I couldn't focus on the girl while constantly thinking more intensely about Nhu...

The atmosphere within the team was becoming increasingly tense day by day, so P'Aof gave us some mandatory time off by arranging a vacation in sunny Spain.

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TO BE CONTINUED ♡