TRIGGER WARNING

I parked the car inside the garage of the building and clutched my chest as my heartbeat was still fast due to what happened back in the road. I took a deep breath and took a water bottle from the backseat of my car. I uncapped the bottle and gulped it down then sighed, rubbing my temples, kept it aside and got out of the car, making my way to the elevator.

I got out of the elevator and walked towards the penthouse. I rang the bell but no one opened. I shrugged off, thinking that Jen who was Clavicus's housemaid, might not be at home and took out my key which Jen had given me a few days ago then unlocked the door.

I entered the house and found it completely dark. I wasn't able to see anything and suddenly my breathing started to become unstable. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as those horrifying memories started to come back. I somehow managed to get my phone out from my purse and quickly unlocked it. I opened the flashlight of my phone and took out my inhaler, yes, I was an asthma patient and whenever I had a major or minor panic attack, I always had to use it. I took two puffs from it and leaned against the wall, trying to stabilize my breathing. Why was I becoming weak again?! I couldn't let those memories keep haunting me!!

Once it became normal, I walked towards the switchboard with the help of my phone. I switched on the lights and sighed peacefully. After that, I went upstairs slowly, there was no one in the house right now. Reaching upstairs, I noticed that the light of Clavicus's room was on.

I curiously started to walk towards Clavicus's room and found the door slightly opened. I was about to knock at the door when I perceived that Clavicus was sitting on his bed with a sharp blade closely held on his wrist by himself.

I rolled my eyes and groaned silently in annoyance, do I have to deal with this shit again? What am I? A freaking superhero?

I sighed and slowly walked towards Clavicus while mumbling softly, "Clavicus? Please don't do it!! If you die right now then everyone will think I murdered you because I am the last person coming here. How about you do it next week? I can suggest a few tips and tricks!"

He startled and slashed the corner of his wrist slightly with the blade. I rolled my eyes again was he a 5-year-old kid? Couldn't he even manage a blade in his hand?!

He winced in pain and quickly looked at me with wide eyes. I noticed that his eyes were puffed and red just like that night!! At this point, I was sure that he smokes weeds! I slowly made my way towards him. He stared at me with no emotions and I silently sat beside him. We were in complete silence but I abruptly saw something scattered all over the floor, my eyes widened in realisation when I understood what it was.

It was antidepressants pills and it's bottle with which I was way too familiar. Clavicus looked at the direction I was staring at and sighed when he understood what I was looking at. I didn't know what to say. I noticed that he was still bleeding. I got up and opened his drawer, hoping to find the first aid kit and this whole time he was just watching me curiously with the blade still in his hands but neither said anything. I finally found the first aid kit and turned around, completely unfazed by his gaze and handed it to him while mumbling, "Here take it and clean your wounds or else you will ruin the beautiful bed sheets with your blood."

He looked at me with a dumbfounded expression while holding it and I just shrugged, what?! it wasn't like he is a 5-year-old kid! He can do it by himself!!

I turned around and was about to leave his room when he muttered quietly, "Don't you wanna know the reason? Or won't you try to at least stop me and comfort me?"

I sighed and turned my head to look at him while he stared at me with moist eyes then I mumbled with a nonchalant expression, "You own me no explanation Clavicus, it's your life and I have no right to question you about it. I saved you each time as an instinct of humanity."

He let a long breath out and I continued while he looked down at the blade, "And about stopping you, well like I said it's your life! It's up to you. All I am gonna say that I might not know what happened to you but I know that you are stronger than you think. Also, I think you need comfort from yourself now more than just a stranger because it's only you who knows about what you really went through and how it felt, no one will understand your hardships more than you."

A tear slipped from his eyes and slowly he looked at me and muttered with a melancholy smile, "Easier to say than done, Lilith."

I sighed and closed my eyes for a second then held his gaze and sneered at him, "Maybe I have done it and that's why it's easier for me to say."

AUTHOR'S NOTE:
So I guess it's been at least two months since I last updated😌😌😌😌😌😌😌😌 but at least I updated, right?😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 and I know it's a crappy chapter but I haven't written anything since 2 months, so what else do you expect?😂😂😂😂 I am sorry for disappointing you negan_jn 😫😫😫😫😫😫😫😫

Anyway love ya all!!😘😘😘😘😘