I stole the ship at the crack of dawn. The red painted skies made my heart flutter, it was just so gorgeous.

I flew over dense forest. My eyes darted for a clearing to land in.

The only other time I had been in the forest was with Adora. That felt like so long ago.

My eyes passed over shallow, yet large stream and a handsome clearing Lining it's edges.

I pulled down and landed behind some bushy trees nearby.

I climbed off the small ship and felt the grass in between my toes. I dug my claws into the ground and stretched out in the sun. I felt so at peace.

I decide to adventure along the stream.

It was wide and shallow with a glimmering pebble bottom. The shade from trees cast Mottled shadow across the rippling surface.

I reached into the water to find a small stone to skip. The water was chilling and pleasant, it made my hair stand on end at my arm dove deeper. My claws scratched a flat stone. I tossed my arm into the air in triumph and flicked water all over my face.

HIIIISSSSSSS

It came naturally. I pulled my arm back and swung the stone while flicking my wrist.

The stone dashed out of my fingers and collided with the waters surface but it didn't sink.

The stone bounced in wide arcs and skimmed over the waters like a jumping animal.

It skipped for around seven times and then it smacked into a log causing a strange shelled creature to shatter in fright.

"Ha hmmm heee" I fell back and wheezed with laughter. I hadn't felt this joy since Adora.

I walked around some more.

The large trees were fun climbing. My claws sank into the wood with ease and allowed me to shoot up with manic energy.

I found some ...toad stool?, that is what they are called. Red things with great white spots, some pretty red flowers, I picked one and put it in my hair, no one was out here but I should look nice for the bugs.

I am Captivated with the animals and plants.

I remember reading a book on creatures that can kill you, the butterflies looked ominous. A Choir of bird sang non stop!. The warrior part of me wanted to eat them but they were also so pretty.

I was so consumed with wonder that I for got the time and didn't hear the foot steps.

I placed a log back down after finding a big green beetle and then I heard them.

Thump thump thump thump.

I could make no mistake that they are footsteps and human sounding too.

I needed to thank my cat ears for the hearing because if I didn't have them that person could have snuck up on me.

I ran to the nearest trees and scrambled up soundlessly.

I secured my spot on some high branches and hid.

My mismatched eyes scanned over the clearing and creek for any sign of human activity. I didn't see anything but I still heard those Sisyphean steps.

Thump thump thump thump.

And they were much closer. I did another scan and then my eyes found the creator of the noise.

My heart fluttered like that deadly butterfly I found earlier.

A blonde pony tail, muscular figure, stormy blue eyes, Adora.

She was in a red and white romper that made her eyes all the more beautiful, no I can't describe her as beautiful because she is so much more, heavenly, like a goddess, other worldly.

Only now I could see Adora I remember how much I missed her.

She was lost in though walking along a hidden path i didn't notice. She had her hands in her pockets and was humming a song.

She was so close to me but if she saw me now......she would panic and be angry to see my ugly face. We had to be enemies but I longed to hug her and be close again.

I didn't feel it but tears are streaming down my face and my breaths were fast,short and rushed.

I couldn't do this, I can't be near her, she can't see how much of a failure I have become.

I hurriedly climbed faster up the tree. I could climb over the tree tops and escape in my ship.

I didn't care about being loud I had to leave but the tears and sobs made me rush and I nearly slipped and I ran across a long tree branch.

I didn't look back at Adora to see if she saw me. I found my ship and jumped onto it.

I stared and lifted off in a record time. Adora couldn't have missed the loud take off these ships had.

My mind was rushing and I was going so fast. I sped away from the clearing and the breeze swept the tears off my face.

After flying for ten minutes I came to a stop on top of some trees.

I leaned over the control panel and looked towards the setting afternoon sun.

I bent my head down and felt the dam break.

I was crying so hard no sounds escaped and I couldn't breath. My heart was pounding in my ears and rush of blood in my head was deafening.

Why did she do this to me, why would she lie and degrade me, why would she let Shadow Weaver hurt me, didn't she care, why did I still want to love her even though she caused me so much PAIN.

I tried not to scratch my own face off and lower my hands to the ships floor.

Rage and hurt fuelled me. I gasped and dug my claws into the floor and scratched at its surface letting the sobs rush out.

I stoped and look at the large hole I had made in the floor. I looked at my hands and saw my fingers and palms bleeding violently.

Why do I feel this, why do I have to feel like this, why can't I be normal, why can't it be easier, why do I have to live.