❤️To Love or To Be Loved💔: One of the people I follow on Instagram did this poll stuff and this came up and like yeahh so this story is about my answer.
Type: I guess sad, thoughts, stuff lmao

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People are complicated.
You either love someone who doesn't love you as much as you love them

Or someone loves you as much as you cant love them

Its the sad reality. But hey, we get through it dont we.

We move on after grief and put days and nights of pain behind. But are they really left behind?

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You were on the swing. Sitting in a white dress. It was a family get together and it was a very big party, like a reunion. A formal one. You were distant from your family so what would you do? No one wanted to talk to you there.

"You look pretty." You looked over at a guy your age. He was dressed in a formal way too. You scrunched your face up.

"Ive never seen a cousin like you.. Who are your parents?" You say. He then blinked as he chuckled and shook his head.

"No I'm a family friends son. I am not related to any of you." He says. You then nodded as you observed him and then shrugged.

"I mean if you were then we would obviously all be good looking at least." You say with a chuckle. He then shook his head as he sat down on the swing beside you.

"I think you guys are a pretty good looking family. I mean have you looked in a mirror today? I also did say you looked pretty." He says. You then blushed a bit as you shrugged silently and it went silent with just the creaking of the swing from him and the chatter and music in the distant.

"Im Moonbin." He says. You then looked at him and raised an eyebrow.

"My name." He says. You then nodded as you lightly swung.

"Im (Y/n)." You say. He then smiles and nodded. Then continued to ask you random questions until you got comfortable and asked him questions back.

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Few years past and the two of you grew closer. You becoming attached learning he went to the school you did, just in a higher grade level.

Then one day you took the courage.

"Binnie.. Do you think we could go out somewhere.." You say as the two of you sat at a bench outside eating lunch. He raised an eyebrow as he looked at you.

"Sure, arcade again?" He says. You then looked at him as he continued to eat.

"I mean like.. Like a date." You say. He then blinked and almost choked on his food before looking at you and gulping it down with some water.

"A date?" He says. You saw it in his eyes. It was a rejection look. Feeling sympathy. Feeling pity towards someone you're about to hurt. Everything that made you feel like the submissive and weak one. Maybe this is why people break up with people over medias. Face to face is more heartbreaking, but what is misunderstood is that face to face is more sincere and something to get comfort from the same one that done it, with a satisfying feeling of everything is gonna be okay.

"N-Nevermind." You say as you shake your head and look at your food stuffing your mouth until he stops you.

"Of course." He says. You looked into his eyes. He was only doing it for you. You then shook your head.

"N-No its fine really!" You says. He then hugs you tightly as he rocks a bit.

"Lets go on a datee~!" He says. You then sighed and then hugged him back as you nodded finally. Its what you wanted.. But not him.

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The two of you have been dating for 2 years now. Its been romantic and he makes sure not to hurt you in any way. Just like he would when you two weren't dating. The only difference between then and not are the dates and the titles. He would say you were his girlfriend. You would say we are dating since boyfriend just wasn't your way of saying more than friends. It had a weird ring to it since, well he didn't want to date you in the first place. It wasn't right. The way he smiled at you wasn't right. You weren't right. It was all confirmed when he had found someone.

"(Y/n)! This is Sooyeon! Shes new and I'm showing her around." He says as he stood next to you as the new girl stood in front of you and bowed a bit.

"You're so pretty." You say. She then became shy as she shook her head with a small chuckle.

"Come tag along with us." Moonbin says to her. She then smiled and nodded. The two looked at you and you smiled.

"Then lets go eat! Im hungry!" You say. They then nodded and you all began to walk to get something to eat. Sooyeon was very sweet. You had assumed her and Moonbin already talked a lot since she was very comfortable with him and he talked to her a lot. So you sat there occasionally adding to th conversation. They were like one in the same as they liked very similar things.

Shes the one.

You thought as you watched Moonbins eyes figuratively turn into hearts as she talked. You smiled.

This is how its supposed to be...

You think before standing up. The two look at you.

"I just remember I have to do something for a teacher! Im so dumb!" You say as you scrunched your face. He then grabbed your hand looking up at you softly.

"I can go with you if you want." He says softly. You hated him for that. You brought your hand up and ruffled his hair.

"Nope, you stay with Sooyeon." You say with a smile. He then sighed and nodded before you went down and hugged him tightly. You then smiled at Sooyeon who waved. The two watched you leave.

"Is she your girlfriend?" Sooyeon says. Moonbin looked at her and then the door you opened that was closing.

"Yeah. She's my girlfriend." He says. Sooyeon then nodded. Moonbin then stood up and looked at Sooyeon.

"Hey, Im gonna actually go with her." He says. Sooyeon nodded with understanding. Moonbin then waved as he left.

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You obviously didn't have anything to do for the teacher but you ended up going to the teachers lounge anyways asking for something to do. Which lead you to the copy room. You sat there waiting for a bunch of papers to print. Then heard footsteps come behind you before arms were wrapped around you and your eyes widened knowing it was him.

"What are you doing here?" You ask. He let go and went in front of you with a smile.

"Im here to help my girlfriend of course. What would she think if I decided to stay with another girl?" He says. You then crossed your arms as he smiled with a chuckle.

"I wouldn't think anything.. Cause you dont like me." You say. He then blinks as you sighed and hugged him.

"I see it.. That time I first asked you out you wanted to say no.. And everytime you looked at me compared to how you looked at Sooyeon. You dont like me the way I like you Bin.. So go back to Sooyeon.. Before I really dont want to let go." You say. He then looked down at you as you pulled away from the hug. He then went closer to you again and bent down slightly giving you a small peck on the lips.

"Sure I probably dont like you like you like me.. But I still like you (Y/n) and you're my girlfriend." He says. You then frowned as you looked up at him.

"Then lets end it." You say. He then blinks before he shakes his head.

"I mean it Moonbin.. We aren't gonna be how we used to be and frankly I dont want you to act as if you like me more than bestfriends. So.. Moonbin Im breaking up with you." You say firmly. He then blunked before looking down with a frown.

"Im sorry.." He says. You then smiled and punched his chest making him look up at you.

"Hey, as long as you dont stop being my bestfriend Ill be fine." You say reassuringly. He then nodded before the two of you hugged for a while.

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Few months later Moonbin was dating Sooyeon but Sooyeon understood when you were with them. The two of you grown to be close as well.

Your feelings for Moonbin never changed and will never change. But you lived with it and he still made you feel comfortable.

Things went on from there. Moonbin graduated hand in hand with Sooyeon and you had your last year left. You felt Moonbin forgot about you as he didnt text often or call. So you graduated alone and in college there he was. Occasionally talking to you but nothing much. But at the end of the day.

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You got up from your bed after hearing a knock and opened the door. Your heart began to race as you looked up at Moonbin. His head was hung low before looking at your smiling face.

"Long time no see Binnie." You say. He then weakly smiled before he hugged you tightly. You were surprised but hugged back.

"I missed you.." He says. You then chuckled before punched him weakly.

"Then why didn't you call, you butt." You say with a pout. He was silent before the two of you parted and you saw the sad look in his eyes. Immediately you gave him a confused looked before bringing him in and closing the door. Then the two of you sat on your bed.

"Me and Sooyeon parted our ways last year a few months after graduation... She found someone else.." He says. You then blinked. This was like deja vu. You've never seen Moonbin this sad.

"She said I didn't care enough about her and my bad traits was caring about someone I wasnt with.." He says. You then blinked. Was he talking about you? He then sighed.

"Then she proceeded to say she liked one of the guys in her dance class. A guy named Minhyuk.. I met him and he's pretty cool he doesn't know I dated her though.." He says. You then patted his shoulder.

Must be tough losing someone you loved..

You thought as you thought back to the time in school. Looking Moonbin to Sooyeon.. Now having to see him heartbroken because of her.

"If she left you because of some dance guy so be it." You say. He looked at you on the verge of tears.

"Listen to me. You're amazing. Your best quality is your big heart for others! Dont let her put it down!" You say. His face slowly seemed to lightly up as the tears fell from his eyes. You reached over and wiped his tears.

"You're the best guy Ive ever known Binnie.. Thats why I loved you. So dont change or feel sad for being yourself." You say. He then blushed a bit before he went closer and pecked your lips. The same way he did in the copy room. You blushed and smiled. It meant nothing. It was always something of a reminder to you and him that you two were together. It didnt even have to be boyfriend and girlfriend, just.. together.

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So at the end of the day.. We still had each other and will always be there for each other without a doubt.

So dont worry about the other people, you'll always have me

So in the matter of to love or to be loved..

Love in general always wins..

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-Fin-

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Hiya guys its been a while.

Sorry I havent been in my best state since soccer we lost the game yesterday *sigh*

We almost had them, but they were about to get two penalty kicks so they got 2 points more..

And since we were so close it really hurt me. And I am very sad hense why I am not in school right now. But hey, Im good I did a lot of my letting it all out yesterday lmao

But all in all sorry for the delays I will try to get the requests going amd stuff.

Also in the means of requesting.

A good request:

You dont always have to have the name of you if that isnt included then Ill use (Y/n), but your dear fellow reader Arim who got her request did the request as I wanted it cause it was a good detailed request and thats what I need.

A bad request:

I want this guy to fall in love with this girl and yeah.

Like bro give me a few more sentences of whats in between. If you do not notice my slow process of writing and expect me to come up with a WHOLE story just from thaf Im sorry but I will not write that story until a good rough plot is given, seriously.

I got too much going on up there I dont want to have to strain myself for a story for someones personal liking.

So please. Request with details and a storyline in mind that I could go with.

Anyways thats all.

Byeee

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