I walk to my sleeping dorm, as I suddenly bump into someone. As I look up, I see it's Cam. ''Oh. Hey Cam. How is your work in the security lab?'' I ask. Cam smiles nicely. ''Very good. Couldn't wait to see you, though.'' He says. I nod. ''So... What is it actually? Why were you looking for me?'' I ask. Cam lifts his shoulders. ''We have a lot to talk about.'' He sighs, but smiling at me afterwards. I nod. ''I guess about Eric.'' I say. Cam nods. ''Listen, I was totally grossed out. I didn't even know he was going to.'' I say. Cam shakes his head. ''Don't apologize. Eric is just filthy one. We can't do a thing about that.'' He says. I nod, agreeing. ''We all learn from it.'' I say. ''But I just feel guilty. Like... I felt like I hurt you and-...'' I didn't have to wait any second or his lips are on mine. My eyes are open from the shock. I don't know why, but I won't push him away for some reason. And to be honest, it doesn't even feel anything close to Eric. It's way better. But then, I let go of him. ''You forgot our friend rule.'' I say, turning away. Cam sighs. ''Who cares now? We are Dauntless. We are supposed not to care.'' He says. I sigh, and turn around at him. ''But it still does count. Even in Dauntless. Come on, Cam. Won't you learn?'' I ask. Cam looks down, defeated. ''I thought you liked me.'' He says. I sigh and look up at him. ''Of course I do. I just don't know if there are any strong feelings. I'm sorry...'' I say. Cam sighs and leans against the wall. ''So... Does that say you have any feelings for Eric?'' Cam asks sad. I look at him with unbelief and disgust. ''Ew, no! Eric is Eric. He would always be a weird coward in my eyes.'' I say. Cam nods. ''I get it. Well... Still good luck at giving training.'' He says, and walks past me with huge paces. The hell just happened...

''Nadine.'' I throw out. She is walking in front of me and ignores me. ''Nadine!'' I now spit. She turns around shocked, but gives me a cantankerous glare again. ''Just listen to me.'' I say. Nadine rolls her eyes. ''What is there to listen?'' She sighs. I lift my shoulders. ''I don't know. But you can't keep ignoring me.'' I say. ''It makes me feel bad.'' ''Explain that to the dwarfs. I haven't seen you any guilty these months actually.'' Nadine says. I sigh. ''I am sorry. I was just busy with training.'' I say. Nadine throws me a glance of disbelief. ''Only busy with that?'' She asks, crossing her arms. I lean against the wall. ''Come on Nadine. What is wrong with you?! You keep acting like this. It was just a kiss what I even didn't want!'' I say. Nadine shakes her head. ''Still. You broke our friend rule. Again.'' She says. I sigh. ''I am sorry for you that you miss Charity, but at least let me have some fun!'' I spit. That came out too harsh. Nadine shakes her head and walks further. ''Wait, wait, Nadine...'' I say, stopping her. ''I am sorry. I didn't mean it like that.'' I apologize. Nadine blinks with crossed arms and looks at the floor. ''Did you mean the kiss?'' Nadine sighs. I roll my eyes. ''No! Of course not! I never meant it at all, Eric kissed m-...'' ''Not that kiss.'' Nadine interrupts me. I glare at her. ''What do you m-...'' ''I saw you. You promised, Demi. And here you go again.'' She says. My eyes grow wide. She saw us, again. I let out a sigh. But no words come out. ''Hey Demi, are you coming to the kitch... Oh hey Nadine. What are you guys doing?'' Quin asks, walking around the corner. I look at her. ''Oh. Not much, Quin. Just go. I'm coming.'' I say. Quin looks from Nadine to me, but then she nods, and walks to the kitchen. As I look back at Nadine, she starts making huge paces through the hallway. And even how much I shout, she won't turn around... Shoot. I guess I just lost two of my best friends from Amity. Defeated, I walk through the hallway to the kitchen. 

''Well hello miss Quin, could I maybe get some cake?'' Keith asks at the bar. Quin chuckles and hands him some. ''Oh thank you so much.'' He says, in a weird voice. Quin and I both chuckle. ''So, how are you two girls doing?'' Keith asks. Quin smiles at him for a little second. ''Not much. Demi and I are going to train after cooking.'' Quin says, slowly throwing me a little glare. I smile. ''Wanna come with us?'' Quin then asks. Keith nods. ''Seems amazing.'' He says, glaring at Quin. I chuckle. Quin... She goes from the first lover to the second. But it's okay. I let her do her thing. It's cute though. They are both from Erudite. I ask myself if they knew they existed before. Maybe sometimes they've seen each other. Quin and Keith... Sounds so adorable. Ugh. To be honest, I miss Calvin and Blaise. And Maisie. Bryan, Grace, Charity, Luna, Johanna. Have I even thought about the consequences when I joined Dauntless? Not really. I thought about myself, honestly. I sigh, but smile at Keith. Then, I glare through the canteen. I see one table, where Cam and Nadine are sitting. Both far away from each other, with a couple Dauntless borns and Keith. And I also spot Carrie. Carrie and Nadine are talking, just like Cam and Keith. Sometimes I can see Nadine glare at me for a second, but then looking back at Carrie. I still feel guilty. Guilty that I broke both of their hearts. I've had let others tempt me too much. I can't forgive myself, how the hell could I do this?! Both my friends, from Amity! AMITY. Peace and LOVE. How could I be so stupid... My little smile disappears and I go on doing the dishes. 

As I stand in the Pit with crossed arms, someone walks up to me. Oh GOD no. It's Eric. ''Hey Demi... I... I am so sorry for what happened between-...'' ''Don't apologize.'' I interrupt him. Eric sighs. ''I'm sorry that I ruined your friendsh-...'' He can't even finish his sentence, or I hit him in the face with a great punch. He heads back, and blood comes from his nouse. I don't care. ''Indeed. You should be sorry.'' I say. I turn around and pace away.

I don't know. But I feel just like a movie superhero.