Not Enough

Asano Gakushuu's life was nothing but stress and responsibilities. Just another monotone and uneventful life.

"Study hard and be like me. You're an Asano after all," His father would always say.
"Why the fuck do I want to be like that geezer?" He scoffs as he highlighted another important sentence in the book he was reading.

"Gakushuu," His father called.
Looking up from his book, there he saw his father holding a box of pastries.

"Deliver this to the family next door. They just moved in," he demanded.

'Sheesh, why me when we have all the maids?' He thought and grabbed the box from his father.

'Wait a minute...isn't this the pastries I bought for myself?'
By the time he realized that, he was already knocking on the door.

A girl with (h/c) hair and (e/c) orbs opened the door. She was wearing a pastel pink sweater and white shorts.
Damn she looked good.

"Can I help you..?"

"O-oh. I live next door. My father told me to give these to your family," he says and hands her the box.

"Uwaaah! They're mint chocolate macaroons!" She says and for a minute Gakushuu thought that she was glowing.

"A-ah sorry. I just really like-"

"Sweets," he finishes. A smile made it up to both of your faces. "I'm (l/n) (y/n) And you are?" She introduces.

"Asano Gakushuu. Pleased to meet you," he outstretched his hand for her to shake it.
Her hands were really soft when she shook his hand. A small blush on his cheeks because of the contact.

"Well it's time for me to go. I live next door so you know where to find me," The strawberry blonde boy waves goodbye as he started to walk away.

"H-hey! Do you mind s-showing me around t-tomorrow?"

He looked back and (y/n)'s face was flushed red as she kept on fidgeting.

Gakushuu shot her a genuine smile and nods his head.

'For once...my life is beginning to take color'

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Yesterday's tour with (y/n) was fun for him. They biked around the neighborhood, Gakushuu pointing interesting landmarks around town while (y/n) would nod and laugh when Gakushuu said some sassy remark.

Sadly, today's Monday which means there's school. The male groaned when his alarm clock rang, telling him to get up already.

Dragging his feet to the bathroom, he managed to take a bath and change his clothes. "Gakushuu, you're one minute and fifteen seconds late for breakfast," His father says as he took a seat in front of him.

"My apologies father," he grits his teeth while saying this.

'Ugh the eggs were overdone' he sighs as his father finally entered the car. The ride to school was uneventful as usual, not until he saw a familiar (h/c) girl walking to school.

"Father, do you mind picking up (l/n)-san over there? I'm certain that she's also studying at Kuninugaoka."

Gakuho nods in approval as Gakushuu felt electricity running through his veins.
He'll be seeing (y/n)!

"Ohayo (l/n)-san, get in the car. We're going to the same place anyway," he says when he the window rolled down.

"A-are you sure Asano-kun?"

"I am. Now get in."

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During the remaining ten minutes going to school, Gakuho comtinued to question (y/n). From her hometown to grades and from grades to love interest-which Gakushuu butted in to avoid his father asking more questions.

The strawberry blonde was glad to know that they were in the same class.

"Good morning everyone, I am (l/n) (y/n). Please take care of me~!" She introduces to the class and a lot of boys whistled as some girls would give ger glares and other would give reassuring smiles.

'They're looking at her too much. They should stop.' Gakushuu mentally comments.

Sadly, she was seated beside Ren Sakibara who was seated behind him.

"Hey pretty lady~ wanna go home together?" Ren asks, winking at you. Gakushuu turns and says,"Ren, would you kindly face the board and not (l/n)-san? Sensei is teaching something over there. I'm sure you wouldn't want to get Detention."

By the look on his face, The violet eyed boy was not pleased with what Ren was doing. The said boy gulps and faces the board making Gakushuu smirk and (y/n) giggle.

'This burning feeling in my chest when she's not with me...what is it?'

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Love...Love...Love

Gakushuu was in love. He was falling and he has no idea who's willing to catch him.
His heart would beat as if he was running a mantra whenever he thought about it.

And now, he finds himself on the rooftop, watching her silky (h/c) hair get blown by the wind. He clutches on the box harder (silently praying that he didn't destroy what's inside).

Why was he so nervous? He felt as if someone poured a bucket of ice cold water on him and his hands are shaking. "Oh Asano-kun, what are you doing here?" She asks.

The violet eyed boy smiled and handed her the box. (y/n) looked at him weirdly as she opened the box. She was smiling at what's inside and Gakushuu felt that he could succeed with his 'confession'.

"(l/n)-san, would you like to go on a date with me?"

Her smile grew bigger-if that was even possible- as she nodded her head vigorously. "I'd love to!" And her arms were suddenly wrapped around his neck as she pulled him in for a hug.

"I really really like you (y/n)..."

"Good news Gakushuu, because I like you too~!"

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'How did it come to this?'

You will not interact with her again

She's a mere distraction that you need to overcome

Do I make myself clear Gakushuu?

It'll be a shame if I place her down to the E-Class

Asano Gakuho's words rang through his head. He looks at him in disbelief.
'Why is he taking everything I love?!'
His hands form into a fist as he looked at his father with such anger. "But father! My studies have nothing to do with her!" He argues.

"You will listen to me Gakushuu. Disobey me and there will be consequences." By his father's tone, he wasn't pleased at what Gakushuu's doing.

A dark feeling was looming over him. It's slowly going to consume him and he won't be the same. Leaving the office and reaching the school gate, he broke into a run. Maybe it'll help him forget about what his father said and all the expectations that were slowly killing him day by day.

The strawberry blonde found himself catching his breath at his neighborhood park. His chest rising and falling as sweat cascaded down his neck. Slowly, he began to realize that there was no escape from this. It was either loosing the love from his father, the last of his family (Well it's not like he showed any of that love) or the love of the girl who brought color to his life.

"Shuu?" At the said of his name, there stood (y/n), looking beautiful as ever. "What are you doing here?" he asks, afraid that seeing her will only trigger him even more. "I saw you running out of the school gates. Are you okay?" 

"Leave..."

Gakushuu didn't know why but it's as if his brain and heart weren't cooperating well. "Leave (y/n)," he says coldly. "B-but..."

"I don't want to see you."

"Did you forget that I'm your-"

"You're not enough for me."

Did he really mean those words? He himself didn't know. He watched (y/n)'s brokenhearted expression as she gulped and left him standing there, feeling nothing but despair.

"Oh how cruel can life be?" He sobs.

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What he liked about the (e/c) female was that she was determined and persistent. But right now,he dreaded those qualities of hers. The more persistent she was, the harder it was to avoid her. It's been weeks and he was starting to think that maybe she'll grow tired of fighting for the "us" that existed.

Oh how wrong he was.

That day, the student council had to go to another school for an outreach program. Gakushuu was talking to the student council president of the other school who he noticed was into him. "A-asano-san are you free this Saturday? I-" "Shuu!"

She was here even though he thought she was tired of all this shit. 

"I'm sorry  but I'm busy. Would you kindly tell the others that I'll head home first?" And with that he walked away from everyone, (y/n) still following him. "(l/n)-san, can you please leave me alone?" He asks, temper rising. "I won't!"

"Why are you so fucking stubborn?" He wonders as he crosses the road. It all happened so fast the even he, the top one student in his school, cannot comprehend. He only heard the sound of cars beeping and a scream coming from the girl behind him. Gakushuu was then on the ground, as a pained expression was on his face

Why was (y/n) on the ground? Why was there blood everywhere? What happened?

Looking at the scene, anyone could now the answer. But he continued to be ignorant.
He couldn't accept such things to happen. She pushed him out of the way and the moving car hits her instead.

Tears were running down his face as his took in a gulp of air and just can't take it.

'Ah...I get it now'

"Someone call and ambulance!" He screams, rushing to (y/n). "S-shit (y/n)...please don't leave me," he cries.

'You were just enough for me but I could never be enough for you'

A/N:

Uwooooo! Omg I finally update. Hopefully I could still make a Maehara angst one shot before the month ends.

Hope you enjoyed! w(°o°)w