I'm probably gonna be closing this book for good honestly
I'm in Eleventh Grade now, and it's sad I still don't know how to get where I want to go in life but I know it's not writing. I want to focus on more of an art career, if any of you even care lol
So before you go in the comments and start yelling about me about what a huge sh*t I am for closing this and that you'll be unfollowing me and cursing at me and lowering my self esteem to the negative drop zone
I want you to know
It won't have a single affect on me so go AHEAD
But either way, art means a whole sh*t ton to me
I can express who I am without writing or trying to explain something I can't. I know you all probably just read my book because well
It's an X Reader
You can live in a fake world with a fake lover in a fake scenario every chapter, I get it
It's cool
But sometimes, I notice things like art isn't very noticed unless you're really good or have social media's
Or both
I have none
My art is probably the worst art your eyes will have the displeasure of seeing, and you'd probably want to bleach your eyes out afterwards, but I still want to draw
To get better
To try new things
But how can I when there is barely any motivation from anyone I care about
Other than a few people
So like
If you're mad, get mad and curse and roast and sh*t all over my crap all you want, I've made myself go through worse things
I've cut myself, I starve myself, I force myself to cry sometimes and put myself though so many things to lower my self esteem, nothing you say that's rude to me will ever bring me down farther than I have myself
Now
I know a lot of you are kind and caring about this stuff, but I really doubt you'll look at my pointless art, but if you do and leave some ideas on what I can draw or try to draw, that would be greatly appreciated.
Probably got off topic but once I start crying I just ramble about other sh*t bothering me haha sorry
But like
Yeah
Book is closing for good
I might make another, I might not, who knows?
So, Adieu, Goodbye friends and possible followers that will unfollow because I now suck and deserve to go to hell
It really was a pleasure writing for you all, even though they sucked and made no sense.
Bye