April, 18, Saturday
Today was a pretty good day. I went to Hope today and Mr. Bakers said that we can break hir in soon. Today was her two month birthday! Cody said that was dumb, but I don't care. Hope is now two mo the old. Hazel even made her an oats cake! It was basically oats and sugar, she said that horses love that stuff. Mr. Bakers showed me how to clean out her stall. It was hard at first because I'm pretty small, but I kind of got the hang of it. Then later today, Mrs. Bakers made us warm cookies! They were so good! Me and Hazel sat on her porch swing to eat them. We were both surprised when Cody and Lucas (he's 15) came to sit with us. I think Cody can be a nice boy if he wants to be.

Mom came by today. She looks like she always does. Her hair is usually a mess, but today she actually had it put away! But she still smelled like alcohol. I can not stand that smell! Why can't she be my mom already? God, help her see you.
God, she said that...grandma and grandpa are going to die soon. Is that true? I know they will someday, but not yet. Please. I don't want mama to take me away. I'm scared God. Give e your peace tonight. I will be the best warrior you have seen, just please take care of my grandparents.
Amen.

Ashley