We become cold to
avoid getting hurt
- Anonymous.

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i didn't re-read this chapter im sorry for any mistakes. ill correct them while editing.

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Pain, it's a tough thing especially when you don't know why you're in pain. Why was I in pain when Asher was the one hurting? His hands latched onto my dress and he shivered violently. I pressed his face in my neck my breath hitched as I felt his warm breath hit my neck. I wiped my tears away quickly and rubbed his back trying my best to make him feel alright. I was beyond confused. My body was shaking. His therapist was here hardly for less than an hour and he shook him so hard.

"What happened in there? What did he burn?"

He didn't say anything, his body went stiff in my embrace.

"Tell me Asher." I held his face in my hands. It's not everyday that Asher gets so vulnerable with me. Never in a million year I thought that he would ever let me see him break.

He didn't say a word. He moved and sat back. "I- I don't know." He ran his hand through his hair. "Fuck, what have I made of myself." I rubbed his jaw with my thumb, his eyes were bloodshot. "Jesus Christ, you must be thinking I am a pussy."

I shook my head immediately. "No , I don't think like that. You can cry-"

He held my hands in his cutting me off.  "These hands don't deserve the treatment they've got." I don't know what he meant, he ran his thumb on my palm again and again. I don't know what was so amusing about it. Why he cared so much about my hands.

"Asher-"

"Come here,"

My mouth open and closed nothing but air came out. I didn't know what to say to him.

"It's been a tough day, Callister." He looked at me his eyes filled with unshed tears a small smile playing on his lips. I scooted closer to him but Asher had different plans, in one swift motion he grabbed my waist and pulled me on his lap, my legs went around his waist and my hands around his shoulders. I didn't protest at all as he leaned his forehead on my shoulder.

"It's okay, he's gone now." I whispered close to his ear trying my best to soothe him.

I moved back so I could look at him. My fingers glided down his check wiping off the tears my chest clenched painfully. My own eyes were tearing up. I squeezed his shoulder and he sighed.

Asher held me tightly, one of his hands moved up to touch my face, I blushed red immediately and my heart skipped a beat as I saw the look in his eyes. His sad eyes were replaced with a pair of curiousity and playfulness, I licked my lower lip and his eyes moved down to my lips. There was an immediate switch in the situation. I felt it and he felt it too.

I cleared my throat trying to ease down the tension he was building. The heat of his body was unbearable in a very different way, more like I wanted to rip his clothes off.

Goodness, Sophie! What the fuck are you thinking?

Stick to the subject. I reminded myself.

"Can you tell me what happened?"

"Mhm, No. Before," I knew his lips softly pressed against mine. At that moment, I didn't want to kiss him. His soft, warm lips were gone even before I could feel them completely. I blinked at him utterly shocked. A small smile was playing on his lips, he was simply perfect even with those teary eyes. I don't really think it was a easy task to comprehend what I was feeling. There was no other way to explain how wonderful I felt. I felt like there were flowers in my chest but then I frowned.  I wondered if he held Violet the way he was holding me, my frown deepened. My heart dropped in my stomach and a wave of sadness drew inside of  me. I sighed forcing a smile on my face.

"Tell me something please." I let out a wavy breath and shrugged my shoulders.

He leaned again and I leaned back as a reflex, I felt a hand on the back of my head and I gasped as Asher pushed me against himself. My eyes widen as I felt his his mouth on mine, wide open and for a second I didn't know what to do, his tongue slipped in my mouth and I moaned out loud, my eyes almost rolled back at the feeling of his mouth on mine. He pushed harder against my chest and that was when I lost it,  My hands immediately grabbed onto his hair as I raised myself towering him as I moved my lips fervently against him, he groaned and his hand slid down my body to rest on my butt.

"Jesus fucking Christ, Callister." In a blink of an eye I was under him, on the floor. He was fast not that I was complaining. His body pressed against mine and my legs immediately wrapped around his waist. His mouth moved down from my lips to my neck, he flicked his tongue and my eyes rolled back. He knew how to kiss me, my legs felt so weak. Thank God I was on the floor. I pressed my mouth in a thin line trying to not let out a moan. I needed him so bad. My body was screaming for him to touch me everywhere.

"You smell so good," his tongue traced the outline of my bra and I gasped looking down to see my dress being pulled down revealing my black bra. Fuck.

"If we end up naked on this fucking floor, it's not my fault."

It was a warning but I didn't care, I was completely consumed.

"Ash- Fuck-" I hissed as I felt his rough hands on my breast, kneeding them as his other hand moved up my neck, he held my face in his palm while working on my breast. One pull, and I felt completely naked even though I wasn't, he pulled my bra down and his mouth immediately began assaulting my exposed mound.  My mouth was wide open in surprise and pleasure as his tongue twirled around my nipples, he didn't stop, he just couldn't stop, I didn't want him to. I squeezed my eyes shut and one second later they were wide open again as his teeth grazed against my skin.

"Asher, oh god..." I cried out asking for more as he started peppering small kisses between my breast, teasing me. I clenched my thighs and begged him for more. He moved back, he loomed over me looking down at me like I was his precious. His eyes were set on mine, I didn't know if I would ever let any other man expect him touch me like this. His blues moved down to my neck and I immediately tried to cover my breast, feeling a little uncomfortable. Our heavy breathing was all I could hear.

His eyes were full of want and I loved that, his thumb gently traced my wet lips before he slipped his thumb in my mouth. This couldn't get any better. My tongue immediately swirled around his thumb and I saw something change in his eyes. He ducked back down. His mouth on my neck.

"You're so intoxicating." He breathed against my neck I didn't say anything just flicked my tongue over his thumb. "But I don't want to do anything I will regret."

My heart broke a little. It's hard to keep hoping for something good all the time when you know that there's no good in the end.

Something he would regret.

I froze, I couldn't move, my whole body was suddenly aching because of the thoughts going in my hand. You're just any decent looking girl Sophie. Nothing special. I nodded at him.

He didn't move, he was still on top me which made me frown. As I looked up at him I didn't want anything more than being loved by him. It was so crazy to think like that when I didn't love him either. What would be better than being with him? My eyes widen as those thoughts flooded my mind. What the hell! I'm not supposed to think like that. My heart was so loud my ears were ringing.

Out of nowhere he smiled at me. It was a genuine smile. I just stared at his breathtaking face. He rolled off me and then got up.

"Get up, I have something for you."

"What?" My hands moved down to adjust my bra and dress before his eyes could see.

"Do you have to make faces after every two seconds?" He chuckled noticing my frown which made me frown even more, I immediately got up and saw him chuckling at him. "Come with me."

I was still blushing and breathing heavily while Asher looked completely normal. One second he is all over me and the other second he leaves me cold.

I followed him. It was quite surprising how he was acting like nothing happened. Well, atleast he was feeling better.

He padded down the steps and started looking for something in the cabinet beside the staircase.

I stood there with him. What was embarrassing me and making me comfortable was the feeling of wetness. Fuck. My neck immediately warmed up and turned crimson as I scratched my head. I felt so weird. Who wouldn't be attracted to him. He had the sex appeal, the looks; those blue eyes, dark hair, chiseled jaw the little stubble. Like I said before, perfect.

I don't know for how long I was day dreaming, long enough to get caught by him. I heard him clear his throat. Somebody just bury me already, I was dying out of embarrassment. I looked up at him and his narrowed at me playful as his lips curved up in a smirk. Argh!!

"Here, I need you to sign these." He handed me a pen. "Here, sign here."

I removed the cap of the pen but then stopped, "Wait, what is this?"

I looked up at him and he scowled at me, like he did wanted me to ask him anything. But I was reluctant.

"What is this Asher?" I asked again. Well, I wasn't going to sign some documents I didn't know about. What if he was going to donate my organs after killing me and was asking for my permission on the paper.

Goodness Sophie your brain has been a sick place lately.

"Let me read-"

"Just fucking sign them or say no."

"Stop being an arse. You were sucking my face a few minutes ago, talk properly." He raised an eyebrow at me questioningly.

"Oh, so you're going to take it there. He stepped towards me menacing. He bend down enough to be so so close to my ear that his warm breath fanned my cheek and I blushed red. "I don't think I'm wrong but you were begging for me, moaning in my mouth and that tongue of yours-"

"Stop!! Just stop." I moved back. I looked at him with wide eyes. The colour never left my cheeks. Christ.

He stepped back and folded his arms across his chest. He stood tall in front of me and looked down at me waiting for me. Just looking at his face I knew he wasn't waiting for a no.

"Should I trust you?" I quipped narrowing my eyes at him.

"It's up to you. But if you ask me then absolutely, Callister."

He wouldn't ever sell my organs. Would he? I kept staring at him, I didn't know what to do or what to think. I trust people very easily and something inside of me was telling me to trust him. Appearances can be deceptive, the way he was looking at me made me want to just give in for everything he would ask for.

"Where do I have to sign?"

"Here," he immediately shoved the papers towards me.

I was hoping to see a smile on his face when I looked up at him but his eyes hold every emotion. I didn't expect to see there. His eyes were filled with guilt for some unknown reason. I shook any negative thoughts away and gave him the documents back after signing them.

"What's wrong," I asked. The look on his face was so unsettling.

"Noth-"

"Oh my God, fuck." Before he could even say anything my eyes snapped towards the clock on the wall. I wanted to run but my body stayed rooted. I felt paralyzed.  Fuck my life, I cursed myself clenching my jaw.

I was officially late on my first day at work.

"You ask me what's wrong with me when you're the one having panic attacks after every five minutes, Asher shook his head Stop being so dramatic, Callister." He smugly shot and I glared at him.

"I had to be somewhere and I'm late, very late." I sighed.

"You can be there tomorrow you wouldn't have thought of it anyways if we were in bed right now, I can tell." He smirked as he noticed the red tint on my cheeks. Well, okay. I was red tomato at the moment and I absolutely hated that.

I accepted my defeat. I decided not to go to work today. It's just 3 in the afternoon and I was tired. I decided to stay back and make something.

"Fine," I grumbled. I was so frustrated. "Move aside, I'm hungry." I told him as he was standing in my way.

He didn't budge, "you're something-" I frowned as Asher paused. I looked at him to see him looking at me, his running all over my face like they were looking for something.

"I'm what?"

"Stupid," he just flicked that word on me like anything and just walked away.

Idiot!!

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I moved around the kitchen collecting things I needed. I got most of it. Just being in the kitchen made me wondered who cooked for him when I wasn't here. The thought made me frown because he doesn't eat much anyways.

Asher has been smoking for a while. I've never been a fan of people who smoke. It's disgusting to smell so weird all the time. But with him it wasn't like that. Of Course, I didn't like him smoking but the way he looks with the cigarette between his lips or fingers was way more appealing than I thought it would ever be. He gave me the bad guy vibes. Asher never left my mind. Not even for a second. It was so weird to think about him all the time in such ways.

I don't know for how long I was standing there, I heard someone clear their throat and I almost jumped out of my skin. I knew it was him.  Ugh, he must be thinking I was some mad woman standing still for I don't know how long.

I swiftly turned around and my eyes moved to Asher who was looking at me with an amused expression on his face. He was leaning against the door with his arms folded against his chest.

"You're quite interesting."
A chuckle left his mouth and at the same time I heard my phone vibrate on the counter. My hands were busy, I had flour stuck between my fingers and the other hand was now busy stirring the sauce. Looking down I saw that there was an voice message from an unknown number. I immediately frowned at the screen.

Ignoring Asher I pressed the play button with my pinky finger before I went back to cooking. Just ignore him!! I chanted again and again.

"Hey," I froze.

I could feel the hair on the back of my neck raise in terror as my spine went stiff. My hands froze as fear creeped in. I know he wasn't here, I know it was just his voice but I was still scared to turn around and pause the message. It was Thomas

"I won't let you go, Sophie. Especially when I've had my hands all over you."

That was it. The voice message came to an end but the fear inside of me started growing rapidly.

There was a long pause, it was like someone was slowly twisting a knife in my gut. I heard him inhale and my breath hitched.

"Who the fuck was that?"

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