Maybe this world is another planet's hell.
-Aldous Huxley.

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more than half of the chapter is in Italics.

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I snuggled in the warmth and pressed my face in the softness.

"Water," I moaned

My throat felt like it was on fire, I needed something to calm the fire, but my eyes were heavy and full of sleep. My body was aching.

"Water-" I coughed and my eyes cracked open, sometimes when you wake up in an unknown place, in an unknown situation you tend to forget what happened with you, but I, I remembered everything, like it was scarred on my skin.

If you're thinking I woke up on the floor. No, I was on the couch, the blanket covered me. My shoes were gone, my hair were not in a pony like I remember them being, last night. I didn't remember going to bed like this.

I blinked and then my hand went up, I pressed my fingers on my lips and traced them, it was real, I knew it.

I sighed and my lips curved into a smile under my fingers, I could still feel him, it was so strong, how could I ever forget the best feeling ever.

Asher...

As I thought about him my heart skipped a beat. And a big smile spread out over my face.

I stood up and stretched my arms over my head.

Rubbing my eyes I walked into the kitchen and almost gasped out loud when I saw Asher leaning against the kitchen counter.

My eyes immediately snapped to his hand and then his shirt, I realised that he took a shower. My legs started moving before my mind could make out what was happening.

"Asher," those words came out as a whisper, a very, very low whisper. He heard it, his shoulder tensed and his shirt tightened around his forearms.

He turned his face just a little and his eyes landed on me and I smiled at him like a maniac. I was grinning ear to ear, so wide that my cheeks were hurting, and then he looked away, and something dropped in the pit of my stomach.
My smile hung loosely on my lips and my eyes dimmed. Just like that.

"Hey," he looked away and brought the mug of coffee he had in his hand up to his lips, the same lips which were on mine. My mind was immediately flooded with the thought of what happened last night and my stomach formed knots. I shook all the thoughts away. Fuck it!

My hand reached out to touch his wrist, "Quit it! What the fuck are you trying to do? "

My eyes widen and I jerked back in fear, my heart beats messed up.
I gulped on the lump in my throat and vigorously shook my head.

"I - I ...."

He stared at me, his jaw clenched and his eyes hard, icy. I saw hatred, annoyance and everything I didn't wanted to see, and it was all for me.

"What?" He shot at me and took a step forward. I stood rooted to the ground.

"Last night..... Your hand." I suddenly grabbed his hand,

"Leave my fucking hand." he snatched it back and my jaw tightened. He was Asher again.

I gulped and squeezed my eyes shut. Don't cry Sophie, no, not anymore, not for him.

"You....... us" I choked, tears welled up in my eyes. "Violet." I breathed out.

And before I could even think if what was happening, he pushed me back against the wall and held my body their with his. I yelped in supply and pushed my body forward, tried my best to move, but I couldn't.

The heat that was radiating from his body sent shivers down my spine, it felt like we were skin to skin even after the layer of clothes that was between us. I closed my eyes, and gulped.

"What did you say?" He asked, his voice calm. I knew it was the Silence before the storm.

I blinked and a lone tear fell on his shirt.

"Nothing." I shook my head.

"Yes, exactly, nothing. Nothing Happened--"

My head shot up and my wide eyes met his. "But--Ahhh! "

My head thudded on the wall as he pushed me more and raised my body a bit up, so that I could look straight in his eyes, fear creeped in quickly and settled itself as the heaviness in my chest, what if he hits me again? I thought. The way he was looking at me scared me, for a second I thought he could see through soul.

"Asher...." My words came out almost painful, as a whisper. I was begging him. "Don't. " my toes were touching the floor while my body was in air. I felt dizzy all of a sudden, I wanted to scream but I couldn't, I knew the consequences wouldn't be good. My throat felt like sandpaper.

"What happened last night?"

"Nothing," I immediately replied and tears pooled in my eyes, it was everything for me, I was crushed, I thought he finally accepted me. But it would always remain as a thought. It would never come true.

"Yes, you cooked, we ate and then we called it a night. Yes callister? Don't you remember". His eyes narrowed on me in the most menacing way, his jaw clenched, looking more defined.

He didn't know what he was doing to me, how he made me feel so worthless and how bad I wanted to run away from him. But I couldn't, my heart was loud enough for him to know that I was scared.

I felt so cold, so sick.

"Yes, I do remember". Tears rolled down my cheeks and I saw his eyes flicker to my damp cheeks before they pinned them back on my eyes. His grip loosened on my forearms.

He wanted me to forget how his skin felt against mine and how warm his mouth was, or how my eyes rolled back everytime he flicked his tongue in my mouth.

"I'm never cooking ravioli again, it made me sick last night." I looked at him, my eyes void of any emotion, like my voice. His eyes just like mine, but darker. I could tell he wanted to say something but couldn't. He was holding back and I was too.

Maybe, we were on the same page, but of two entirely different books.

With one last glance towards me he left.

And I sighed, no I didn't cry, I didn't breakdown because I realised it was useless.

Everything.

"Let's have lunch somewhere" Lish chirped up.

I immediately shook my head, not because I wasn't hungry , because I didn't have much money.

"Not today, I need to go home." I stood up and collected my bag, "See you tomorrow,"  I smiled at her half heartedly. I wondered if she knew that I didn't have money, I wondered if she really did care.

"Love you, babe." she grinned at me, I laughed before I left the room.

As soon as I was out of the university premises, I reached for my ring that was in my jeans pocket. The diamond shone brightly in the sun, too big, too precious and too heavy not on my hand but on myself. I sighed and slipped the cold metal on my skin. It didn't feel right at all.

With a loud sigh I started walking back to his place.

He loves Violet.

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The first thing I did as soon as I entered the house was to run up the stairs, I didn't look left or right, didn't even breathe until I was in the room. I quickly hid my backpack behind the couch and sighed. Me being a student was a secret, something that Asher should never know.

I blew out a puff of air and settled on the couch. I closed my eyes and relaxed on the couch.

As soon as I started drifting off to sleep my phone rang loudly. Cheat codes blaring loudly. Fuck. I jumped a little before I shook my head and looked down at the screen.

Scarlett.

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