The pain doesn't go away.
You just make room for it.
-Anonymous

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More than half of the chapter is in Italics. Sorry for that.

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Violet.

Violet.

Violet?

"Sophie?" My ears perked up and I blinked.

"Sophie?" I heard my name being called again. I inhaled I didn't realised that I wasn't breathing. I frown was marred on my face and my lips were set in a thin line. That was how my face looked most of the times these days.

"Sophie Callister where the hell are you?!"

"Huh!"  I almost jumped out of my seat as I heard lish's voice. My dazed vision cleared. My line of thoughts broke and I came face to face with a frustrated Lish.

I blinked at her. "I'm sorry, I don't know what I was thinking....." I trailed off.

Lish shook her head at me, and then smiled brightly "Chill."
was all she said. Lish was my classmate and friend. Dirty blonde with grey eyes. She was a cute combination of pretty and short. 

I was at the university, working on a project on plant physiology with Lish.  I was trying so hard to concentrate but couldn't, how could I after what happened two days back.

"Violet. "

My eyes widen as those words left his mouth. Violet? What?

He was still shaking his head at his wrist. My stomach twisted, I wanted to throw up.

"Ash--"

I couldn't get anything out of my mouth. My breathing staggered. I bit on my lower lip.

"Violet" he looked up. Tears rolled down from the corner of his eyes and a sob escaped my lips.

No no no! Asher Grayson is not crying, no!

"Asher!"

"Violet," he almost whispered.

I frowned, I had no idea what he was taking about but it was way too much to handle to see him in pain. I couldn't see him cry. Another sob escaped my lips.

My legs gave up. I dropped on my knees with a thud. My heart was in my mouth as I wiped my tears.

"Asher, look at me."

"Violet."

"No, no it's Sophie, it's me Asher."
I waved a hand in front of him.

He looked down, his chest stopped moving.

Oh god.

Don't die.

I started crawling towards him, my hands were shaking as I moved forward. I gulped and gulped.

I reached forward and touched his leg, he shuddered. "Asher" I cautiously called out. He didn't move.

Without even thinking what I was doing, I quickly crawled onto him.

He flinched and groaned. "Christ!"

I settled on his lap, my knees on either side of his waist.

"Look at me !" I held his face between my fingers, his jaw tightened. Beads of sweat were lined on his forehead and trickled down his jaw.

"Look at me."

"Are you drunk?" I tried to look in his eyes, they were red.

"Please, no, no! look at me!"

And he did, I gasped immediately. He was in his senses. His eyes met mine and I think at that moment I lost a part of me to him. Despair was all I saw in them. He wasn't the Asher I knew. He looked broken and I wished so bad I could mend him.

I grabbed his wrist and he almost screamed. "Ah! Fuck! "

"It's bleeding, what did you do? "
I was crying, I was crying hard. My heart was beating so fast that it almost hurt. I sniffed and looked at him  he was already looking at me. I wanted to yell at him and tell him to stop looking at me like that, his gaze gave me chills. Those eyes looked nothing but lifeless.

"Why do you keep doing this to me Asher?" I ran my thumb on his chin and sighed. My hand moved down to his chest, right above his heart. I felt his heart beating and sighed.

"You're loosing blood." I almost yelled and did the first thing that came in my mind. I held the hem of my dress with both my hands and the next second, we heard a screech that the cloth made as I tore it apart. It was a long piece. I ruined my dress. I needed to stop the blood.

I grabbed Asher's hand again,
"You know I was trying to get high on Orange juice today," he flinched as I stared wrapping the cloth around his wrist , he groaned, his head tipped back against the wall and he squirmed under me.

"Shh... It'll be fine, you'll be fine." I said between hiccups.

"It's cold outside." I shivered as he grabbed my wrist with the hand I was tying the cloth on.

"Callister. "

And I broke, it felt like somebody knocked back the life inside of me.

"You... You.. I hate you!" I cried and tighten the cloth.

"Ah... Jesus... Fuck! Stop! "

"Shut up," I took the scarf from my neck and wiped his face, "just shut up," there was blood on his cheeks.
I wiped his eyes and fresh tears formed in my eyes, "Never to that again to me. "

"Violet."

My heart dropped, I was Violet for him.

"Yes." I gulped.

"I love you." my breath hitched. I stared at him with wide eyes as he stared down at our hands.

He loves Violet. Not you Sophie.

"Yes." He looked up.

"I love you" he said and again, and my heart twisted and my stomach churned. My eyes burned, what the hell was happening ?!

I nodded. No I didn't love him, not at all, but he made my heart a mess everytime his eyes met mine, my stomach lurched everytime he said 'Callister'. My chest clenched when I saw him bleeding. And I felt like I was dead when he stopped responding. But I still didn't love him.

I backed off of his lap and stood up. "Asher give me your hand, lets try getting up, okay?" I mummered softly. And extended my hand forward. His hands extended towards him and I smiled.

He'll be fine Sophie, he'll be fine, I kept reminding myself.

My breath caught up in my throat as he grasped my hand and pulled me forward ,

"What ! AHHHH! --"
my mouth opened in shock and I screamed as I tumbled on him. I landed straight on his lap.

"Asher! "

He didn't say a word.

"Ash-..." I trailed off as soon as I looked at his face, and at that moment I knew, that I wasn't Violet for him but Sophie. I was Sophie.

He looked at me with bittersweet emotions in his eyes. They had unshed tears in them.

His hand had stopped bleeding , but there was blood on them. Thank god.

My breath hitched and then my eyes rolled back as one of his hands snaked around my waist, his hands touched my skin in a way that nobody had ever touched.
Every move had a meaning behind it.

I felt his warm, cold fingers on my cheeks, my eyes shot open and met his dark, navy blue.

His fingers traced my lips, and I bit back the urge to suck them, breathing deeply I settled on his lap.

His long fingers danced across my skin and moved down my neck.
I almost moaned out loud. "Asher what are you doing?" I whispered.

The next thing I know was his tongue on my neck.

"Shit!" I hissed and my hands flew upto his shoulders and cupped them, his hair brushed against my chin, they were soft and ticklish. And his tongue flicked against my neck.

He hit you.

He fucked the maid.

He's a jerk.

He hates you.

My eyes widen, I grabbed onto the back of his neck and pulled him back, his hands tighten around my waist. Oh god...

His hand cupped my neck and brought my face forward.

"Asher...."

"Sophie."

My name was rough against his lips, low and soft. And at that moment I died, I crumbled, my walls broke and my vision blurred.

The next second my mouth was open and my eyes closed,

"Sophie," my shoulders shook and my mouth met his in a frenzy. Warm and fierce.

"Say it again." I mumbled against his mouth, his tongue slid across my bottom lip and he took my lip between his teeth.

"Sophie." I've never loved my name as much as I did when it came out of his mouth.

It felt like a bulb went off inside me.

Everything flipped.

He grabbed my face and pulled me towards his, I stood on my knees and towered over him.

Mouth to mouth, tongue to tongue. We fought, he bit on my lip and I sucked on his tongue, he kissed with his whole mouth, he wasn't scared neither was I, he groaned and pressed me more into him, his  tongue entered my mouth again, it swirled and licked, my eyes rolled back and my stomach clenched. He won and I lost.

It was hard to describe what he did to my heart but it was good to know that I made his heart beat pick up, his heart thudded against my chest and I gave in the last bit of what I was holding.

His hands skimmed near the hem of my dress and I gasped in his mouth. His fingers left behind a crazy sensation everywhere they touched.

"Sophie."

"Ahh!!" I landed on the floor with a thud and a second later Asher covered me with his body, he was hard in places and was right against my core.

He drew back and held my face with both his hands like it's the most fragile thing he had ever seen or held. My eyes softened as I gazed into his blue eyes.

His lips landed on my cheeks and I slipped into pure bliss as he started peppering kisses down my chin to my neck and back to my cheeks again, I arched my neck as his tongue worked against it "Sophie" I shuddered. His touch was softer than a feather.

I squeezed his shoulders and bit on his bottom lip.

What a mess we were, I wanted to laugh about it, but he didn't let me, he assaulted my mouth with his perfectly, he licked my lips once in a while as in trying to savour the last taste of it, he was soft and then hard and then fierce and then everything I didn't imagine him to be. His kiss was hot and I wanted more and more, his hands were on my hips, his fingers dug in my skin, his heavy body kept me in place.

And once in a while he would stop and say my name and I would just sob in his mouth. I felt like I belonged somewhere. I felt like I was his wife. His body felt so good on mine.

"Sophie,"

He licked my lips.

I let out a throaty laugh, like what happened a few minutes a ago never happened, like I didn't know the fact that I had blood patches on me.

"Asher..."

And the night just dimmed under the sound of his name that left my mouth, beause I couldn't say anything after that, it was him and his gentle, rough hands and his warm mouth that was all over me, we kissed like there was no tomorrow.

I kissed him until I couldn't breathe, I kissed him until my mouth went dry and sore.

He kissed me until he couldn't move anymore.

And we fell asleep on the floor in each others embrace inhaling each other in to the last breath.

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