Hi, okay. My first post on Wattpad after MONTHS aha. Here we go~

I wanna take a moment to write back to my 2022 self (the letter I previously wrote).

1. Is it worth it?: Well, love, I don't know, but 2022 was simultaneously amazing and absolutely sucky. I'll take the 'it' in the question to be the year. Looking at the good side, worth it? Yes.

2. This year was a mix bag too! Made a lot of friends, didn't exactly lose much. :) Though people I used to know are all offline now. Kinda insane how people you meet by chance are also gone by chance. But I think I can live with that, right now.

3. Marks, yeah absolutely. We still suck at the whole marks thing. But, well, there has been a slight increase in marks. I'll take it.

4. Losing ONC... HEY WE GOT INTO THE SHORTLIST THIS TIME! If all goes well, we shall take part in the next ONC as well.

5. Almost deleting the account, well, that was so long ago. Wouldn't have been worth it, looking back. We moved away from social media when we needed to. Now we're just offline. Trust the timing - it always holds true.

6. Oh yes! We still haven't opened any more accounts. We're gonna go feral on Discord and Spotify one day.

7. Envy, absolutely. But I think we're doing better.

8. Realizations ahh, still pretty sucky honestly. But we live!

9. Self-hate, I get it. We had some self-love this time too. Always a good thing!

10. Honestly, I also don't know where I'm headed which is... not a good thing. Not right now. But! I know life ain't gonna wait whether I'm ready or not, so, I'll try to roll with it.

11. Parents! Oh, please. There's so much about them. They are sweet and sour at the same time. The number of arguments and tears we shed, and the insane amounts of terrible, terrible experiences. But at the same time, we had such good moments together. Let's see what happens in the future. I don't know.

12. Girl... you used to score 135...? I'M HERE AT 86 NOW HELP MY SOUL GODDAMN-- Why did I think I was so incapable back then? 💀

13. Scared, well, so am I.

14. Uhh, you don't. You don't get there. Totally fine. It took us ages but the school year is effectively done. The project, oh gosh, the projects I tell you were a PAIN. Now we're like dead meat for the next six months. The exams. THE OVERLAPPING EXAMS. I am this close to losing my sanity. Frankly, I don't know what I'll do. I don't think anyone knows. Counting on God at this point.

15. Okay, okay, that's a lot of insult. I know we're dumb, stupid, procrastinating, selfish, and all that jazz... But you didn't have to call me out like that--

16. I lived--that's amazing in itself. Absolutely.

17. Mou ikkai. :)

Now, 2022 recap!--I actually don't remember anything oof. But! We made friends and did stuff (we can finally vote on MILGRAM! Trial 2 was outright slaughter though...) and are trying to play the piano on iPhone because we're that desperate and we FINALLY reconnected with our crush from years ago and I still like him... He makes me fall in love a little harder everyday. (Help.)

Also went out with my friend to watch Avatar: The Way of Water in 3D. It was insane. And we wrote MILGRAM fanfics and everyone likes them. Imagine making a living out of this--

Questions for 2023-end/2024 me!

So, like, college or still suffering? Does our crush still talk to us? Did we make more friends? Are we slaying hard? Coding, piano, writing? ONC? Parents? Met Hope irl? Are we functioning like a living member of the society? Still updating our dream list (do we still get weird nightmares)? Daydreaming? Colonizing the internet? MILGRAM (gimme spoilers pleaseeeeee how was INMF and other songs)? Pokemon really ended (with Ash & Pikachu as the protagonists)? Is 2023 the end of the world?

Are you happy?

Yup, that's it. I winged this. I meant to do it but I forgot. May the year go well. Honestly, Jan 1st is such a happy day so far. Hoping the feeling carries through the year.

God bless.

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Me <3