I sit with Ponyboy, Dally, Johnny, and Sammie at the Dingo. "So," Sammie sips her Pepsi cola before twirling her hair and looking at Dally.

Dally smirks, "so..."

I look over at Ponyboy who is laughing, "what are you laughing at?"

"Dally likes Sammie," he chuckles.

Jealousy runs for my veins, but I'm not sure why. I love Ponyboy, maybe it has to do with the fact that I'm carrying his baby.

"Samantha," Dally smiles. "What do you like to do in your free time?"

She shrugs, "I like to party, just don't tell the hospital, I preach against it."

"Maybe, you can come to a party with me one day soon," Dally offers slyly.

"Maybe, I will," she smirks as she casually eats a fry. There's something about Sammie, that is so perfect and pretty. Maybe it's the way she talks. Or how she's so confident in everything she does. I don't know, but I loved it yet hated it. Or maybe I was just jealous of the fact that I wasn't confident...in anything I did/

I turned to Ponyboy who was smiling at me, "what are you looking at Pone?"

"The most beautiful girl in the world," he smiles making me blush.

I lean over and peck his lips wondering how I got so lucky, "what did I do to deserve you again?"

"What did I do to deserve you?" He asks back. "That's the real question."

I look over at Dally and Sammie flirting and once again jealousy runs though my veins, "I gotta go to the bathroom."

Sammie looks over at me smiling, "me too."

"Great," I mutter as I throw my towel down and storm away.

 I hear Sammie running behind me, "Ava! Ava! Wait!" As she finally catches up to me she looks at me strangely, "are you okay?"

"Just perfect," I lie.

"Then why are you being so harsh?" She asks.

I look at her as we walk into the bathroom and say coldly,"I don't want you dating Dally."

She seems to think this is a joke as she starts to laugh, "that's too funny. Why? Does he not like me?"

"I don't want him and you to date Sammie," I inform her forcefully.

"Is this a joke?" She asks scoffing lightly.

I shake my head annoyed, "no Samantha, Dallas is off limits."

"Why?" She asks.

"I just don't want you to date him!" I yell at her.

She rolls her eyes, "well I like him."

"Well he doesn't like you!" I yell at her with all the anger and jealousy in my body taking over. "So just stop! You're making a fool out of yourself."

I can hear the anger and hurt hidden in her voice, "how do you know that?"

"We slept together," I say coldly.

Her whole attitude changes as she yells, "you're lying!"

I shake my head, "I'm not just ask him."

"Maybe I will!" She yells as she storms out of the bathroom.

I looks at myself in the mirror and sigh as I whisper to myself, "why? Why did I have to do that? Why was I jealous? I love Ponyboy."

I did. I did love Ponyboy. I thought I was in love with Ponyboy. He was my whole world. I couldn't imagine what I would do without him.He not only was my best friend, he was the guy I loved, he was my boyfriend. I didn't know what I would do without him. He told me right from wrong. He knew me better than I knew myself. Maybe that was why I loved him.
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"Ponyboy," I smile as I look in his green eyes.

He looks back up at me as he takes a bite of his grilled cheese looking up from his textbook for the first time in hours, "Ava?"

"Do you like me?" I ask.

He nods his head, "of course Ava."

"No I mean like, do you really like me?" I ask him again.

He leans over and presses his lips softly against mine, "no, I don't Ava, I love you."

My heart flutters and I can feel my cheeks turn red as I smile widely, "I love you too Ponyboy. Although, I made a mistake."

"What is it, my love?" He asks as he shuts the textbook.

"Do you remember the night you were flirting with that red head?" I ask.

He nods his head, "I'm sorry Ava. She meant nothing to me. I love you."

"I was angry and uh..." I sigh as I try to think back to the exact words Dally said...no matter how hard I think I just can't remember. I can remember him getting mad...really, really mad.

"I'll kill him!" I can remember him yelling as he punches a wall and tears of anger roll down my cheeks.

...Why was he so angry though?

"Uh...I went to Dally's and I was upset...really upset. I hugged him and I just uh....I sobbed. He was upset and he asked me what did you do. He was so upset he called you a um....a idiot. I told him that, uh...I told him you cheated on me," I explain slowly trying to recall all the little details as Pony hangs on every last word I say.  "He got angry, really angry. He screamed and punched walls.....I calmed him down telling him not to....Then he uh...he wanted to get back at you. I asked him how. He asked me if I wanted to....if I wanted to do it with somebody I uh...somebody I trusted. Then we started to uh, we started to kiss. It just uh it went from there."

He nods slowly, but doesn't say anything.

My heart drops, "please say something."

"What do you want me to say?" He asks.

"That you love me," I inform him slowly and hopefully.

He shakes his head, "I can't...I'm sorry."

He stands up and walks away, "Ponyboy please! Please don't!"

Sodapop walks into the kitchen as tears stream down my cheeks, "are you okay Ava?" 

"No," I shake my head.

He sits next to me and I lay my head on his shoulder, "he'll get over himself."

"What if he doesn't?" I sob. "Sodapop, I love him and I can't do this by myself."

"Do what?" Soda asks.

"This!" I yell loudly as I place a hand on my stomach. 

He rubs my back, "you'll be okay, my love."

"And what if I'm not?" I ask him.

"I'll always have your back," he informs me.

I shake my head as I stand up, "you have your brother's back not mine...I-I should go."

I can remember in that moment regretting everything from the moment I stepped foot in Tulsa. I can remember wishing I has never met Ponyboy. Wishing I never ditched gym with Randy. Wishing I had never went out with Ponyboy. Although, I was mostly regretting sleeping with Dally. I wanted to go back to the day I came to Tulsa and redo everything. It was a wish that would never come true though and I just knew I messed everything up.

She finally told Ponyboy some of the story. I feel so bad for her in this chapter. Thank god for Sodapop though. I'm not sure if any of ya'll have noticed this, but I am so bad at this part of the wattpad process, writing this little thing. I'll try to get better though. Stay gold. Do it for Johnny!
-Beth