I hear a knock on my bathroom door followed by a familiar voice meaning it's either Steve or Sodapop, "Ava?"

I look in the mirror and sniffle trying to make it so my voice doesn't crack, but it ends up cracking anyway, "yeah, it's me, I'll be out soon."

"Are you okay? It's Sodapop," Soda knocks on the door.

I shake my head knowing he can't see me, "yeah, I'm fine."

I hear his hand on the door and I panic as I throw away the test, "Avery?"

He gets the door open and I quickly splash cold water in my face, "oh my god!"

"What?" Soda asks concerned.

"That's freezing," I say as I wipe the cold water off my face.

He laughs, "now what's wrong?"

"Nothing," I lie quickly. "I got soap in my eyes."

"You don't cry over soap," he accuses.

I shrug, "it's been a bad day Sodapop."

"Tell me about it," he smiles as he sits down in the bathroom.

I glance over at the trashcan and Soda follows my glare to the test, "it's ju-"

"You're pregnant," he speaks before I can.

I look over to him sobbing loudly and I slowly nod my head, "don't tell Ponyboy."

"Is it his?" Soda asks.

I shake my head shame filling my body as I whisper barely audible, "no."

He nods confused, "Before you met him?"

"No," I whisper once again that shame still there.

"Who's kid?" Soda asks.

I woke up up on the ground with no clothing

"I don't know," I shrug pathetically as I sob.

He sits next to me and sighs, "you really messed up."

I chuckle sadly, "it's one of two people."

"Who?" Soda asks.

I sigh as I look down ashamed of what I'm about to say, "uh...do you remember the night I got jumped?"

"Yeah," he nods slowly.

I look away tears streaming down my cheeks, "Randy also rapped me."

I hear something collide with something then Sodapop scream out, "I'm gonna fucking kill him! I'm gonna kill him."

I run over to Soda and grab his arms, "please don't!"

He looks over to me anger present on his face and he nods, "for you."

"Then there's..." I look over at Soda's face and I can't bare to say it. "Well...Uh....There's...."

"Who?" Soda asks.

It takes me a few seconds to finally admit my mistake, "then there's Dally."

Soda's mouth drops, "Pony's best friend?"

I nod, "I caught him with some other girl and Dally told me I have to get back at him. We started to kiss and it just kind of went from there. I know I messed up and I'm sorry. I am so sorry and I don't blame you if you say that you hate me."

He shakes his head, "I could never hate you."

"I would hate me," I sob out. "Ponyboy is gonna hate me and I can't even blame him. I think even I hate me."

"Shh," Soda takes me in his arms. "Shh. Please, don't say that."

"Why?" I sob as I scoot away from him. "I'm a terrible person."

He shakes his head slowly, "no, you just made a mistake."

I look down at my feet, "an awful mistake. I'm a slut."

"No, you're not," he pulls me close to him once again.

"How?" I ask through my tears as I look down at the fear not being able to face looking him in the face. "I slept with my boyfriend's best friend out of spite and anger now I'm pregnant! It was one time. I only ever did it once and now I'm knocked up! I'm not ready be a mom! I can't take care of a baby. I'm a baby!"

He places his fingers under my chin and makes me face him, "you can do this Ave, I believe you."

I shake my head, "no, I can't! I really can't!"

"Why not?" He asks.

I sob loudly, "I'm just a baby myself. I have no money. My parents are gonna kill me, they're gonna disown me. I'm gonna end up on the streets Sodapop! I can't do this! They can't know!"

"Stay with us," he says softly.

"I can't!" I sob as I grab my stomach bending over as I sob.

I can hear him crying softly, "why?"

"I cheated on your brother with his best friend," I remind him.

"He won't care when he finds out your situation," he smiles weakly.

"I will!" I yell as I sob.

He stands up and pulls me to my feet wiping away my tears, "Ava, you're gonna be okay. I believe in you."

"I don't!" I say as I fight back tears. "Oh my god! Look at me!"

"You're beautiful," he smiles.

I shake my head, "I look terrible."

He shakes his head as he looks at me smiling weakly, "you could never look ugly."

I laugh at him, "you're such a liar."

"Ava," is all says and I nod.

"I-I gotta splash cold water on my face," I say as I bend down splashing some cold water on my face and looking at myself as my make-up runs. "You can't tell anybody, okay?"

He nods slowly, "okay Ava."

"Thanks," I say my voice cracking as I run out of the store.

Sodapop, was the first to find out. I wasn't sure if that was a good thing or not. I wasn't sure if the gang was gonna know or if my secret was safe with him. The only thing I knew at that moment was life was never gonna be the same for me. I'll be the first one in my family who was a teen mom. For the first time in my life I felt ashamed of myself. I was embarrassed to be me.
***
That night around bedtime I looking in the mirror lifting up my shirt to look at my currently flat stomach, "hey little person."

It was hard to believe that there was another person growing inside of me, "I'm your mommy."

"My name is Avery," I speak softly as I rub my stomach fighting back tears.

I walked over to my draws and pulled out a photo album, "I'm fourteen and I'm a freshman in highschool, having a baby. Don't judge me okay?"

I flipped through the books looking at all my baby photos, "if you're a boy I'm gonna name you Anthony and if your a girl I'm gonna name you Lucille."

I sigh as I look down, "can you even hear me?"

"Probably not." I close the book and walk over to my draw stuffing in back.

I glance in the mirror one more time, "I probably sound like an idiot to you and everybody else....I am an idiot."

I change into pajamas and lay in my bed, "goodnight little one."

I hope you guys liked this chapter. It was a little bit sad and really weird at the end. Well it's like ten at night and I forgot about my vocab test tomorrow (we've all been there). Stay gold. Do it for Johnny!
-Beth