Reader P.O.V

He talked to Thomas Wayne. It didnt go well. He said tommarow he would leave to check some of his moms records so when she woke up they could talk over it. I hugged him and held him and told him it was alright. I loved him. He kissed me head.
"You love me a lot dont you?" He asks and smirks.
"Of course my Arthy arth." I lean up and kiss his nose. He grins and holds my hand. I smirked.
"You are my sunshine. My only sunshine." I sing to him and kiss his head and he smiles.
I cup his face softly.
"I never thought anyone could love me until I met you. I thought i would be alone. But you make me feel less alone." I smile as a tear goes down my cheek. He wipes it away and kisses me softly.
"I'll always be here. Until the end of the world. Throught thick and thin." I nod at his words and sniffle slightly. I loved him a lot.
"Pwomise youll never leave?" I whisper and he grins.
"I. Will. Never. Leave. You. Ever. I love you Y/n. I can't live properly without you anymore." He wraps his hand around my waste and kisses my neck and crarries me to our bedroom.
He lays me down and kisses down my neck slowly. In between every kiss he would say I love you. Or beautiful. Or just compliment little things on my body. I would stroke his hair and afterwords hold him well he laid his head on my chest. I closed my eyes and focused on our soft skin touching and his warm body on mine. I sighed happily. He loved me for me. He really did.
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I yawn and look down. He was agian missing with the same type of note. I yawn once more and sigh. I always missed him when he was gone. I cuddle up to my pillow and watch tv well I wait for him to return to me.

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He didnt come back all night. He didnt even call. I sat in my house for two days worried. I knocked on his door an he didn't come. I called and I called and I called.
Fuck him then. I poor my fucking heart out and hes gone. He knows I have abandonment issues and I dont like being alone but he didnt care. No one did.
I get ready to go to the store and i sigh. I didnt care anymore. I walked alone scared without Arthur and yeah. Some guys pulled me into a ally. I wont go into detail but it was bad. I bought my food and walked to the subway. The ride home was quite. I was the only one on the whole thing. I sighed and walked back to my home and went to my kitchen. I sighed and as I put the stuff away I started thinking. Maybe he found someome better. Maybe Im ment to be alone forever. I look down and sniffle. He was just not gonna talk to me.
I slam my front door closed as i go up to his floor. This time I pound on the door.
"Arthur fleck if you don't open this door im never speaking to you again!!" I scream but no answer. Not even a sound. I drop to my knees and lean my head on the door crying.
I cant be alone.
Not again
Not after all that.
I stood up and sighed just when a taller man who seemes to be fat with a short Miget walked to his door. He opened it right up. He saw my face and frowned but ignored me. He closed and locked the door and all i heard was someone say they heard about his mom. His mom must have died. I burned with rage as I went to my house.
His mom had died and yet he could talk to a fucking miget and not me. His girlfriend. The girl he supposedly loved. He couldnt talk to.
I looked down and went to my room. Thats when i started breaking things. There was so much I broke. Mirror, ripped books apart. My house was in shambles. I laid in the middle of it all
Normal people would be crying on there couch but not me.
I sat alone in the middle of my very own broken word just as my mentle state broke.
It was so easy to break me. All the abuse. All the hate. People say it's not that bad
People lie and act like everything is ok. But no. Its not. Everything is horrible. Were all just here to die.
I turn as Arthur walked in. His face was blank as he sat down infont of me on the couch my face was blank but tears still rolled down.
He reaches and pulls out a gun.
"After this I'll no longer have anything to lose." He thinks not even having his finger on the trigger.
"Oh Arthur. You let them win. Your now one of them. Your the guy who today raped me when i was alone and held a gun to my head. Your theguys on the subway. If you shoot me right now then you are them. You will be at there level." I whisper and he lowers the gun
"Im ment to be alone i quess. Go live your life the way you want Arthur but know your throwing our life together away." I stood up and started going to my room when he shot me in the shoulder. I fall back to the couch and held my arm.
"Let me do it myself at least.' I whisper and he looks confused.
I walk to the padio and lean my back to the railing and hold my arms out. He didnt care.
"Arthur. I love you." I then pushed back. I was on floor 2. It was a 50/50 chance. I could either die or be in a lot of pain. Arthur lost it. Yesterday he was hugging me today he was gone.

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I woke up and screamed as I looked in the hospital mirror at the smile carved into my face...