ywanna know what freaks me the hell out????

that i exist

it sounds weird but like

the fact that theres an entire planet full of creatures like no other, creatures with complex genetics and their own personalities and abilities and thoughts and tactics and views of the planet and so much more, and that nobody questions it. nobody cares.

people dont walk around wondering why we're here, they walk around wondering about what sales are on around them. they walk around wondering if their dog will be okay home alone, when the local stores open and close every day, whether or not to call their friend, if they should get coffee or go straight to work. they worry about casual things, things that are miniscule and useless in the grand scheme of things.

meanwhile their bodies are working endlessly to keep them from collapsing on the floor and dying, to keep blood pumping to their brain, to keep them from tripping over that rock over there, to keep them from aimlessly wandering into traffic. meanwhile we're hurtling through space, meanwhile gigantic planets are getting swallowed whole by black holes, meanwhile our galaxy is expanding and nobody knows what else is out there but NOBODY QUESTIONS IT.

what if we're a simulation? what if we already died and we're "seeing our life flash before our eyes" and we dont know it because in memories we haven't died yet? what if tomorrow a black hole eats our galaxy and we all die?

we cant stop our own deaths, everyone eventually dies. and then what happens? do we go to heaven or hell? do we get reincarnated into another human or maybe a different animal? do we just,,, disappear??

nobody. knows.

i just,, i need to to lay down