Okay listen-

LISTEN IM STRUGGLING HERE- OKAY :') 

I'm so unmotivated, I can't friggin move for my life of me- and whatever i see someone that isn't fitting my interest, I will not listen :') ANDDDDD I FEEL SO EXHUASTED AND TIRED

PLEASE HELP ME I FEEL LIKE IM ABOUT TO PASS OUT I CANT BREATHE AND MY LUNGS HURT FROM TRYING TO BREATHE MY HEART IS BEATING FAST I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT MY LIFE AND HOW IM SUCH A FUCKING FAILURE AND I CANT STOP WITH THESE EMOTIONS AND IM GONNA FUCKING CRY AND IM GONNA START SCREAMING AT SOME WALL AND IM GONNA PUNCH A WALL IM GONNA START PANICKING AND IM SHAKING AND I CANT PROCESS WELL I CANT MOVE MY LEGS ARE DEAD AND THEY ARE EXTREMELY NUMB I CANT FEEL ANYTHING IM PANICKING SO MUCH I CANT STOP PANICKING HELP ME. HELP ME HELP ME IM GONNA FUCKING DIE IM GONNA KILL SOMEONE. 

...oh. I'm good now :D yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy- :3 anyways-

Some art that was my PFP ;w;

This is probably the only art I've actually put in effort on, itsssss Maggot- (I seriously need to give Maggot a new name because this is getting confusing and maggot is a bit off-)

Take maggot being grumpy :D

I met a physic person, who is suppose to tell your future and talk to you about cards and crystals :') 

IF I DONT DIE IN MY 30'S I WILL GO TO YOUR COFFIN AND I WILL SUE YOUR ASS AND STEAL YOUR MONEY. 

She told me that I would move away from my parents the more I grow sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo- my parents got really concerned, I can already hear squishy stomping her way here ._.

But shr told me I'm a person who's life freed depended and I'm also easily irritated when I'm told what to do, which is overwhelmingly right because I don't sorta wanna imagine seeing my roommate or something just telling me to do something and I just groaned unless Ice cream is involved /jk

My fucking arm is struggling to draw this- :') my brain is so burnt now- 

My arm making a single strike on the canvas = 20HP off of me and is dead- ;w;  

What h a p p e n e d - before in 6th-7th grade I was so happy, organized, doing my assignments, listening to the teacher whenever I don't even like the lecture, and I always stayed focused- now I'm so easily distracted, disorganized, unmotivated, missing like 5-10 assignments and I sleep and horribly focus on the teacher knowing my entire life is ahead of me :') 

And I can't even draw stuff, my head is too burnt to even draw anything or think of anything to draw on-

the thing. THE ONLY THING I've been doing since I was 3, I can't even pick up a singular pencil- I would draw so sloppily and die why I was at it-

Yoauurrrsjjjskssjjnsnjkjnkjsnjjsnjiosonjonjsssnsihsbsoihbsssbsb

That's it for now, I can not draw anything else for the life of me-

I'm gonna go sleep because that's literally what I need, my fingers are currently fighting to type this out-